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Hey angels

Prev post was very long so I'll try to be brief: I'm really vomiting blood in my sleep and waking up choking with blood all over my face bedding etc. So I need to a see a Dr like yesterday but the car situation has made it impossible

We currently have to pay for 3 cars; Chris's one that's not working, his uncle's he borrowed that was smashed and the idiot driver who's claiming Chris is at fault

I am properly scared of what I'm gonna do if Chris is at work and I can't get to the emergency room.

What if this happens and my kids see me like that?

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This GFM campaign belongs to Fadi Alshrafi, who you can find on TikTok here. His family is one of hundreds who are on the Operation Olive Branch spreadsheet. He is one of 9 family members trying to evacuate Gaza; as of 2/19, his brother was injured during bombings, his pregnant sister-in-law needs urgent prenatal care, and his father needs medication for Congestive Heart Failure (if you're in healthcare you know how dire it is to go without CHF medication; if you're not in healthcare: heart failure means heart FAILURE. If it goes untreated for too long it will become fatal).

I've checked today (2/28) and Fadi's campaign has reached about 22% of its goal, not even 1/3 of the way there. Please donate what you can, and spread this campaign to help Fadi and his family.

Actions you can take after sharing:

Call your reps and demand a ceasefire and safe passage of aid entry into Gaza (US)

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EDIT: For some reason tumblr isn't letting me hyperlink Fadi's tiktok so I'll add it here:

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doomed to be a vulgar wannabe historian bc for all that i am drawn to colleen lye's theoretical recuperation of maoism and the 20th-century usamerican left, as soon as she even mentions maxine hong kingston's name or some other post-60s literary text, my eyes almost immediately glaze over.

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Russia was the first country where Robespierre monument was erected (now there are monuments in France). It was opened by Lenin himself on the eve of the first anniversary of October Revolution in 1918. True, the monument did not stand for long, only three days - either it was blown up by anti-communists, or it could not withstand frost and self-destructed due to the fragility of cheap material (concrete). More expensive material was beyond young Soviet Republic means. The opening ceremony was also attended by a representative of the French communists, Jacques Sadoul, his speech was translated by Alexandra Kollontai: "The old religion taught people to obey and promised heaven in the skies. The new religion of communism teaches us to build heaven on Earth. The bourgeoisie tried in every possible way to diminish the true significance of French Revolution and slander Maximilien Robespierre, this honest and devoted revolutionary, just as they are now slandering our leaders. Soviet Russia puts up a monument to Robespierre, while in France there is no monument to 'The Incorruptible'".

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"So long as Zionism is an operative ideology and colonial system, working class solidarity between Israelis and Palestinians is blocked off. The Israeli working class is fully committed to the project of Zionist colonialism, and reaps the benefits of this through land grabs, broad unionization, universal healthcare, and high wages. As is known by Palestinian revolutionaries and revolutionaries of the Third World, the only solution is total liberation from the river to the sea."

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Please help an Iraqi trans woman seek asylum! She is a friend of one of my good friends and I've spoken to her before. Her situation has been very difficult and it has not been easy for her to make this choice to ask for help. Chip in what you are able, she's a great comrade and I really want her to get to safety.

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pendant by paul podolsky, 1962 in twentieth-century jewelry - barbara cartlidge (1985)

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Excerpt from Soviet-Armenian film Nahapet Նահապետ (1977) directed by Henrik Malyan. Based on a novel by Hrachya Kochar, the film depicts the Armenian genocide of 1915. Nahapet is a survivor who tries to rebuild his life after the tragic loss of his family. The scene is accompanied with Armenian folk song “Dle Yaman” Դլե Յաման, which became a hymn of the genocide, here it is sung by Melania Abovian. 

One of the recurring scenes in the film involves scores of red apples falling from a tree, rolling into a river, and floating en masse downstream. The scene is a painful symbolic reminder of the multitude of Armenian bodies thrown into the Euphrates by the Young Turk regime during the genocide. (x)

An apple tree on the lakeshore, with countless red fruits rolling down towards the blue water, is how Malyan, the ‘lyricist’ of Armenian cinema, pictures the huge loss sustained by his nation. Yet like all true metaphors, this image is multi-semantic and means not only loss but continuation, the prospect of reaching the shore one day. […] ‘salvation’ and ‘revival’ of the apple tree symbolize the rebirth of a massacred nation. (x)

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interlibrary loan is a beautiful name for a baby girl

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Computer art by Jim Hoffman (1981) From Future Life magazine Aug 1981

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The fourth way that anticommunist extermination programs shaped the world is that they deformed the world socialist movement. Many of the global left-wing groups that did survive the twentieth century decided that they had to employ violence and jealously guard power or face annihilation. When they saw the mass murders taking place in these countries, it changed them. Maybe US citizens weren't paying close attention to what happened in Guatemala, or Indonesia. But other leftists around the world definitely were watching. When the world's largest Communist Party without an army or dictatorial control of a country was massacred, one by one, with no consequences for the murderers, many people around the world drew lessons from this, with serious consequences.

This was another very difficult question I had to ask my interview subjects, especially the leftists from Southeast Asia and Latin America. When we would get to discussing the old debates between peaceful and armed revolution; between hardline Marxism and democratic socialism, I would ask:

"Who was right?"

In Guatemala, was it Árbenz or Che who had the right approach? Or in Indonesia, when Mao warned Aidit that the PKI should arm themselves, and they did not? In Chile, was it the young revolutionaries in the MIR who were right in those college debates, or the more disciplined, moderate Chilean Communist Party?

Most of the people I spoke with who were politically involved back then believed fervently in a nonviolent approach, in gradual, peaceful, democratic change. They often had no love for the systems set up by people like Mao. But they knew that their side had lost the debate, because so many of their friends were dead. They often admitted, without hesitation or pleasure, that the hardliners had been right. Aidit's unarmed party didn't survive. Allende's democratic socialism was not allowed, regardless of the détente between the Soviets and Washington.

Vincent Bevins, The Jakarta Method: Washington's Anticommunist Crusade and the Mass Murder Program that Shaped Our World

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well.

this richard siken discourse is so unserious to me but i just know ocean vuong is next on the hitlist… luv him but that connecticut asian is inevitably going to say smthing so out of pocket in the next yr or so and it will be a killing blow to the diaspora poets’ rb industrial complex 💀💀💀

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When I'm a pastor and I open my eyes and the rapture happened when I was giving my sermon

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star / a burning hill

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What do you mean, how were american academics so similar?

every single biography of a midcentury academic is like this:

John Armstrong, 1920-2004. Born to a clerk and a seamstress/half-literate immigrants who instilled the values of hard work. Interrupted his studies at [public university] to enlist in the war, where he witnessed indescribable atrocities/worked with the OSS/guarded German officers after their surrender. After the war, he finished his studies at Harvard/Columbia/[prestigious university] on the G.I. bill, completing a PhD in three years. He got his position at the University of Nebraska/Sensodyne College of Liberal Arts after walking into the department with a recommendation letter written by [leading academic at the time] which said, "John Armstrong is the kind of smart young fellow you would do well to hire" in its entirety. He wrote The Art of Governance, a landmark monograph that has remained influential since its publication in 1965, and nothing else. [bonus points: hounded by the HUAC in the 1950s for not being braindead OR advised a President to nuke Vietnam.]

and it's not uncommon to have:

Jane Armstrong, 1930-2011. Interrupted her studies to marry John Armstrong. Typed up, edited, and suggested revisions for all his notes and manuscripts. Completed her education while working as a secretary at the University of Nebraska/Sensodyne College of Liberal Arts and raising their children, after which she was quickly hired as a full professor. Wrote Governance: A Fool's Game, a landmark monograph that has remained influential since its publication in 1967, and also 20 other papers.