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Needing to vent

I'm having a lot of troubles and problems in my marriage. I feel like we should bring the best out of each other, be happy around one another no matter what we are doing, compromise, feel safe, comforted and secure. And in my marriage I feel none of that.  This man that I married I've been in love with for many years. When he would text or call me, my stomach would drop. When I would lie beside him I would feel so safe, going anywhere with him would be a great time and we would be the life of the party when together.  When he asked me to be his wife it was like the entire world stopped and all my dreams came true. I was set, this was everything I had ever wanted.  I'm not sure if life and reality caught up to us or what, but the fairytale I had been living with him has turned into an everlasting nightmare.  When being married I wanted our families to be supportive of us and neither of them were. We are in the process of buying a house, and not one person has told us it's a good idea. Now I can see as to why they all think that, but can't I just be happy with the man I fell in love with?  Why is everything so difficult? Why can't we see eye to eye on anything? Why have I been in love with him for 10 years and he claims it's always been me, but why does he have a child with someone else?  I just want to love and be loved back. I'm the type that needs attention and affection. Is that too much to ask for? I feel like it isn't for the one you love.  I went away for the weekend so I could get answers. Maybe I wasn't prepared for the answers I got, but I'm going to have to live with it. I want to be missed, I want to feel wanted, important, loved....and this weekend as much as I wanted to feel all of that, I got the opposite.  Now I have big decisions ahead of me. Do I just cut my losses and start over. Or do I just keep praying and trying and hoping things get better. I'm just tired of being sad all the time. 

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Hi Amanda. I enjoyed reading your "I'm new at this" post. I applaud you for using Tumblr more legitimately as a blog rather than an illiterate free-flowing cascade of imagery. I usually do not refer to Tumblr as a blog, even though most people do. In your case, you blog.

Thanks, I try and post whenever I remember. I've been slacking lately. But I do miss blogging

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Just love your new body....

Thank you so much!☺️

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"I’m so humiliated, I thought that he loved me."

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"Taurus dealing with loss"

Rest easy, Robin Williams.

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Don’t You Know Who I Think I Am? → Fall Out Boy

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“…Hazel Grace.”

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The fault in our stars ❤ liked on Polyvore

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The Fault In Our Stars 💜

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Kitty cuddle time #tiggy #tigger #kitty #catsforcats

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3 month post-op. My scars aren't too bad but I'm starting scar cream tomorrow to hopefully help them fade. The right one dropped a bit more then the left but it seems harder too. #ba #boobs #boobies #boobjob #breastaug #plasticsurgery #plasticisbetter

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3 months, left boob side view. #ba #boobs #boobies #boobjob #plasticsurgery #plasticisbetter

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3 month. Right boob side view. #plasticsurgery #plasticisbetter #boobjob #boobs #boobies #ba

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Excuse my fatness; haven't posted in awhile but here is my pre-op and my 3 month post-op! Doctor says everything looks great and I need to go back in 9 months! So happy. #boobjob #boobies #breastaug #plasticsurgery #plasticisbetter #beforeandafter