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march312025 — the entry before this one. i wrote it around 7:30pm, i was missing u but i didnt wanna bother u na ☹️

this is the last entry already? ☹️ hmp this was supposed to be till next yr 🙄 i miss u already babyyy ☹️

let me tell u a secret first! 😁✌🏻 thats u! pinansin mo yan right? haha i was shy pa i thought ull ask why i put it as my bio

ill just say everything here haha. di ko kaya while you're in the convo eh. so keep your promise please, dont say anything na after this.

“You touched my soul like a passing storm—brief, beautiful, and impossible to forget.”

ill always be thankful for everything u showed me. never ko inexpect na aabot sa gantong mahihirapan ako na i-let go ka haha. im sorry if sudden, natakot ako eh. but u were right ☹️ if we were talking earlier, i wouldnt feel like this. hindi ko alam kung mag mmsg ka pa, kung may nagawa ba ko, kung baket ganon. i mean that was the first time again na ganon eh? i felt lost? i panicked? haha kaya now i want out. this is me avoiding all of that. idk wanna feel all that, i dont wanna feel ignored by u. hindi ko kaya, im not used to it ☹️ im sorry ngayon lang ako maging selfish. di ko talaga alam gagawin kanina, i just wanted to end what im feeling. but im not saying its ur fault ok? i tried din kase, to let u do ur thing. i didnt wanna be too much for u, kaya i didnt bother msging na. ill regret this when i wake up for sure. but still, thank you parin. i was looking forward to seeing u again. i wanted to have that talk u told me abt, u said we'll be drinking again. oh god, theres so many pa na i wanted to do with u and tell u in person. so hard to think na i wont see u na. ill miss you so much! ill miss smiling because of u. ill miss waking up to ur msgs. ill miss those moments na ull msg suddenly pag namimiss na kita. (see u msgd just now, as i was typing that 🥹)

u matter this much to me already. ill miss every moment i was with u. nako, di kita makakalimutan. how can i? when everything just clicked? all those twin moments? haha pls and how we say the same thing at the same time? wiiiiild. i can never put into words how everything is so much better with u. especially when im with u? gahd 🫠 u are something else, grabe. i just dont know how u do it. that charm and smart mouth of yours? kuhang kuha ako eh. and ur really nice, so thank you. i was always at ease whenever im with u, it felt like i was with someone who i know for so long na. on that first meet too thank u for making me feel safe. u were so patient with me, never ako nakarinig ng reklamo sayo. even when im being the most stubborn. even when im not making any sense. thank u for showing me that, na someone can be that patient with me pala. i never felt scared na magtampo haha na baka kase magalit ka? grabe lang. ill miss being treated so kindly by u. ill miss being all over u. ill miss feeling all the butterflies whenever im with u. ill miss u by my side, siksik and kissing me. u managed to become someone i truly value na. ur way too nice. dont let anyone use u pls. thats what i noticed about u. u keep things to urself, kahit may ayaw ka, u stay quiet. but its not always na u have to keep things to urself oki? ive always admired how nice u are to me ever since day 1. never mko na offend, never ako na off sayo. so please, dont forget to look out for yourself too. just like how u look out for other people. u deserve it too.

maybe in another universe, i stayed. i was with u. i can look out for you too.

but of course, i think i was careful pa naman. ive always kept in mind how any of this is not real. and that we were just enjoying the moment. kaya hayaan moko pls mag moment muna sa lahat ng nangyari haha wag kang ano jan ok, di ko naman nakalimutan na may ending lahat to 🤨 happy ka?!!! nadale moko? haha gahd u warm my heart. u made me so happy. that was fun. even if it felt like running towards a speeding bullet train, i did it with my arms wide open and a smile on my face.

and im really really still grateful for you, even though u never planned to stay. our first convo, first meet, and last? the first 4 months getting to know u? ill never forget. its all here already ❤️‍🔥

i just wanted u to know all that. na-appreciate ko lahat. thank u for taking the risk for those almost 7 months.

ill keep everything safe with me, i promise.

you'll always be in my mind.

dont forget about me pls. ❤️‍🩹

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march302025 — you're not away rn. but it feels like it.

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march272025 — 2:46am.

here again. you're away rn eh haha. i miss you 🙁 our last convo was u ranting abt ur friends. how u feel like ur not being valued, the same way u value them.

after that talk, i got sad. u were asking why haha. syempre di ko sinabi? haha ok ill tell u know, here haha

i got sad kase i got to know u more nanaman. how u treat ur friends, that side of u being vulnerable etc. hay u really are something else 🥹 tapos when i say na im jealous kase people around u are lucky to have you, im oa???? haha wala, sad lang to know all these things about you, these things that made me like you. sad kase alam kong may ending to eh haha yikes. felt a pinch to my heart.

here you are, doing all these things. getting to know u. letting me see ur vulnerable side. giving me all this attention. making me feel special. telling me stories. sharing things that interest u. being with u. holding me in ur arms. all the kilig. all the flirty banters pls ayaw patalo? all the twin moments 😂 the ever so harot phone calls? 🫠

everything feels soooo 🥹🫠😌 sakit ng bagsak neto. i feel so happy pero alam ko kukunin lahat sakin to eh haha. mawawala rin lahat one day and i wont ever be ready.

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march192025 — 11pm. gago bat ang saket? hahahahahahaha tangina mo??? pls :( i wasnt expecting any of this???? ang lala. akala ko kaya ko? na i wouldnt get too attached? but who am i kidding haha with that charm of yours? impossible.

ok seryoso na, di ko kaya let go pero gusto ko na talaga, ill miss you eh. ill miss bothering u everyday. ill miss hearing ur voice on the phone. ill miss all your chikas. all your kulit :( ill miss being with u omg. you've been a part of my every day na. ang tanga ko naman, ang galing mo din kasi? u managed to put up this show. kahit anong warn ko sa sarili ko na di naman lahat totoo to, parang di ko pa rin expect? ill miss you :(

you're away rn. no single message from me nanaman. nag msg ako sabe ko "where are you" and "i need you" pero dinelete ko din. kase, who am i to need you? diba hahaha cant just demand from u like that.

but i really really really need you right now. it hurts😔

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march192025 — 1am. good one haha, u got me there. nagising ako eh haha. gusto ko na mag stop. bakit hindi ko kaya? cant imagine my days without u in it. this hurts so much :(

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march162025 — 5am. nag mmsg ka now haha kaso tampo pa ko since u were just away... for a day lang naman 🫠 haha idk if tampo pa ba to, alam ko lang yoko ng ganto. wala, ayaw ko lang muna reply. u thought i was sleeping na haha. so here nalang muna ko reply lmao and kase, namention mo mga to... kaba tuloy ako, nahanap mo ba? nabasa mo na ba? haha ok if you're reading this pls tell me na 🙄

hay always na like this pag umaalis ka ng ganyan. napapasuko ako? hahahaha parang ano kaya pa ba? sto mo pa tuloy to girlll? 🥲 hirap promise hahahahaha ewan ko ba bat ginagawa ko sa sarili ko to haha :)

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march152025 — 12am. di mko nirereplyan. kase u r with friends. nakalimutan ko. i dont exist nga pala pag ganon yikes. mejo ouch haha but it is what it is, right?

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march072025 — ehhh wru na? i miss you 🙁 sabe mo uwi ka din agad 🥲 di ako maka msg, so here nalang. ill see you this weekend hehe but yep missing u right now 😤 UWI NAAAA

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march012025 — its 3am and im missing u. but yeah, i didnt msg na kase im tampo na u r away. i hate this but what can i do? haha this is reality. kaya siguro we keep asking how any of this is real no? coz its not — and its not meant to be real. 😶‍🌫️

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feb282025 — nako, maalala mo pa kaya whats this about? u have no idea how much this means to me. thank u for considering me too 🥺 for a moment, it didnt feel like i was just some trouble.

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feb272025 - 😶

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feb112025 — u were away for a week 🫠

edit: ive decided to not post here on this site. u heard abt this na? ull dedicate a song and a msg if u like haha. the song pls i couldnt think something else eh haha and the font hurt my eyes so thank god i remembered tumblr haha.

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ok ive decided that ill just use tumblr instead :)

hi, told u about these na right? so kulit, i hope u wont find them haha :( anyway, i already told u na i made 2 entries na, ill put them up here too! naaning eh, so here nalang i feel like this is much a safer space to share my thoughts.

pero, idk sana makalimutan mo all abt these haha kase nga these are the things im not brave enough to tell u but yeah just incase maalala mo, its all here 💌