ultimatcgingc

[ultimatcgingc]

THIS BLOG IS NOW AN ARCHIVE.

okay, so i had a big debate with myself for the last month (yikes, i love being a cancer sometimes) & decided that i need to start fresh somewhere else. but also… i decided i want to be very private & highly selective just to keep myself sane. and maybe try to live outside tumblr ;)

so yeah. i’ll follow the blogs i want to keep interacting with in the next hour or two. for all the mutuals that i’m probably going to lose – i’m so, so, so sorry. this isn’t anything personal, it’s all on me. i just need a new place to keep it low-key & that needed leaving a lot behind. i want to keep developing amy & focus on all the plots & interactions that help me do that.

thanks to everyone that welcomed me here, you’re all the best. i had the best time ever, really.

and a very important mention!! thanks to @masxcr to keep replying to all my tweets complaining about what to do with that blog. you’re the best, essy! and a lot of kisses to everyone on the tardis disco server who supported me as well! you’re all amazing.

this isn’t a farewell! just a new beginning. a new chapter of the story because… we’re all stories in the end. ;)

[ultimatcgingc]

THIS BLOG IS NOW AN ARCHIVE.

okay, so i had a big debate with myself for the last month (yikes, i love being a cancer sometimes) & decided that i need to start fresh somewhere else. but also... i decided i want to be very private & highly selective just to keep myself sane. and maybe try to live outside tumblr ;)

so yeah. i’ll follow the blogs i want to keep interacting with in the next hour or two. for all the mutuals that i’m probably going to lose -- i’m so, so, so sorry. this isn’t anything personal, it’s all on me. i just need a new place to keep it low-key & that needed leaving a lot behind. i want to keep developing amy & focus on all the plots & interactions that help me do that.

thanks to everyone that welcomed me here, you’re all the best. i had the best time ever, really.

and a very important mention!! thanks to @masxcr to keep replying to all my tweets complaining about what to do with that blog. you’re the best, essy! and a lot of kisses to everyone on the tardis disco server who supported me as well! you’re all amazing.

this isn’t a farewell! just a new beginning. a new chapter of the story because... we’re all stories in the end. ;)

[ultimatcgingc]

*knocks* is anyone still here?

[ultimatcgingc]

*sends you nudes when I know damn well you're in public*

[ultimatcgingc]

do you ever feel like you might ship something more than you rp partner? ( be it; romantic, platonic, enemies etc ) and you want to tag them in all the things you see fit for the muse!!! yet…you’re unsure if you can or not because it might be too soon? please like or reblog this letting me know that i’m welcome to tag you in things no matter how long our muses have been interacting. that is cool because maybe in some weird way you might be liking where our muses are headed together. 

[ultimatcgingc]

the stars envy her

[ultimatcgingc]

this may be fake deep but i’m constantly thinking of andrea gibson’s piece where they say “I said to the sun, ‘Tell me about the big bang.’ The sun said, ‘it hurts to become.” and that really puts my trauma, pain, and hopelessness into perspective 

[ultimatcgingc]

Loving Vincent (2017) Directed by Dorota Kobiela and Hugh Welchman

[ultimatcgingc]

Break my muse in 15 words or less.

[ultimatcgingc]

* soft angst starters

‘ stay with me tonight? ’

‘ don’t talk. save your strength. ’

‘ hey, i’ve got you. it’s okay. ’

‘ i’ll be right here. don’t worry. ’

‘ i think we’re done. ’

‘ hold my hand. ’

‘ it’s all been a lie, hasn’t it? ’

‘ we’re out of time. ’

‘ you’ll always be a friend. ’

‘ just hold me. ’

‘ i have to leave you behind. i’m sorry. ’

‘ don’t do that. it’ll only hurt. ’

‘ go on, cry. ’

‘ keep your eyes open. ’

‘ can i hug you? ’

‘ i trusted you. ’

‘ do you remember? ’

‘ i loved you. ’ 

[ultimatcgingc]

  ✧  (  sentence   starters     →    twin   peaks

 triggering mentions ;   death, murder, rape, violence, blood, etc.                                    please change any pronouns to your own liking or as you see fit !

❝ She’s dead… Wrapped in plastic. ❞

❝ I’m holding in my hand a small box of chocolate bunnies. ❞

❝ Wanna know why I’m whittling? ❞

❝ Is it funny to you? It is not to me. ❞

❝ You know, this is — excuse me — a damn fine cup of coffee! ❞

❝ You know, I think I’d better start studying medicine. ❞

❝ I hear that you’re real good at what you do. ❞

❝ I feel like I know her, but sometimes my arms bend back. ❞

❝ That gum you like is going to come back in style. ❞

❝ You may think I’ve gone insane… but I promise. I will kill again. ❞

❝ Can you hear me? Catch you… with my death bag! ❞

❝ Will this sadness that makes me cry my heart out — will it ever end? ❞

❝ You’re the most cold-blooded man I’ve ever seen! ❞

❝ I’ve never in my life met a man with so little regard for human frailty. ❞

❝ I’ve had just about enough of you and your insults! ❞

❝ The old rustic sucker-punch, huh? ❞

❝ Something very, very strange in these old woods. ❞

❝ Call it what you want. A darkness, a presence. ❞

❝ What do you see? Is it a dream, or a nightmare? ❞

❝ I’ve got one man too many in my life and I’m married to him. ❞

❝ It may appear as such, but could it be a clue? ❞

❝ I can’t believe you were ever my age. ❞

❝ Did she tell you that there was no goodness in the world? ❞

❝ I’m telling you this because I don’t want to have any secrets from you. ❞

❝ Eyes are the mirror of the soul, someone has said. ❞

❝ How much would you like to start with? How about three hundred? ❞

❝ Now I’m going to get the food and you’re going to get dressed. ❞

❝ I feel like I’m going to dream tonight. Big bad ones. ❞

❝ Why is it so easy to make men like me? I don’t even have to try very hard. ❞

❝ I think a couple of times he’s tried to kill me. But guess what? As you know, I sure got off on it. ❞

❝ Hmm, isn’t sex weird? ❞

❝ I don’t know, she seemed to have reached a kind of peace with herself. ❞

❝ I like to think of myself as one of the happy generations. ❞

❝ I pride myself in taking a punch and I’ll gladly take another. ❞

❝ Are you looking for secrets? Is that it? Maybe I can give you one. ❞

❝ I would assume you’re no longer interested in girls. ❞

❝ Does a heart pump blood as it pumps love? Is love the blood of the universe? ❞

❝ Love, like blood, flows from the heart. Are blood and love related? ❞

❝ There’s an epidemic of multiple gunshot wounds following this chick around. ��

❝ It’s almost like when they didn’t bury you deep enough. ❞

❝ When you see me again, it won’t be me. ❞

❝ Let nature guide us. Nature is the great teacher. ❞

❝ Are our appetites, our desires undermining us? ❞

❝ Nothing is simple. We live in a world where nothing is simple. ❞

❝ Seven is difficult to balance, but not impossible if we are able to divide. ❞

❝ It is happening again. It is happening again. ❞

❝ Sometimes when we are ill, we are not on our best behavior. ❞

❝ I mean, did he have a big, booming voice or what? ❞

❝ I believe you. I applaud your desire to do the right thing. ❞

❝ But you don’t believe me, do you? You think I’m mad. ❞

❝ If we’re not at the right place at exactly the right time, we won’t find our way in. ❞

❝ You and I have an appointment at the end of the world. ❞

❝ Want, not need. I don’t need anything. ❞

❝ When there are chances for reflections, there can always be two — or more. ❞

❝ ______, there are many cures for a broken heart. ❞

[ultimatcgingc]

❛❛ This feels good, being back in the field. Not that this is a field, but… ❜❜

@knownconsortofthedoctor + ♡

“IT’S NICE HERE.” amy looked at river with a smirk on her lips. “but we’ve got a work to do. save the doctor, right?” she looked around again to see where they landed. it didn’t look like any particular place she’d seen before, but when she started travelling with the doctor, she only saw new places after all. but now he was gone & she had to team up with the only one person she knew could find him. “let’s go!”

[ultimatcgingc]

me on my deathbed: when will i get my thread..... when eleven comes back to young amelia after tatm to tell her about his whole story with amy..........

[ultimatcgingc]

Vincent van Gogh, Starry Night Over the Rhone (1888) / Richard Siken, Snow and Dirty Rain (2005)

[ultimatcgingc]

💓

@intoaroman + ♡

“IS THIS WHY YOU’VE BEEN staring at my lips for the whole day?” amy asked when rory finally broke the kiss. “well, mr pond, you should’ve done it earlier then.”

[ultimatcgingc]

so the whole thing with karen affected me deeply but this post was coming anyway. i’m taking a short hiatus. it was like a big pile of things really; this site getting so toxic & elitist; my favourite mutuals getting anon & non-anon hate… it was getting so hard for me with every day, even if i didn’t show it.

i love y’all dearly! as cancer, i really mean it, haha. but the hiatus won’t be long tbh, maybe a week or less. but i thought i should let you know, even if the queue is still running so you won’t probably notice my absence lmao.

anyway catch me on disco & twittah; feel free to ask me for the usernames if you don’t have me there.

love you lots, n.

[ultimatcgingc]

           IT IS ALL HAPPENING HERE & NOW, THE PAST IS WAITING FOR ME. ( ☆ )