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[ultralunary]

my apology

tw for racism, rape jokes, biphobia, ableism and nbphobia. i’d like to start off with that i am very sorry for all that i have done, and in this i will explain what i did and why it was wrong. saying sorry a bunch of times will not fix it, and all of this is my fault, and if i didn’t want any of this to happen, i would’ve thought about what i was going to say and don’t hit enter. i am taking full responsibility for all of this. i have harmed so many people and it was very wrong for me to say any of these things. especially the white guilt breakdown. there is no reason for me to message someone and talk about that stuff. i shouldn’t vent, or have someone to talk to about this stuff. i just need to think about what i did was wrong and improve on it. and i have been very rude, for no reason, to people. it’s not like it was a tiny mistake. i should not have made a rape joke in front of a csa survivor. it was plain cruel of me. and it wasn’t like i didn’t know. it is very clear as day that what i said was a rape joke, and i knew that they were a csa survivor. and it is my fault for hitting enter, or even thinking that the “joke” was a good idea. and i made fun of someone with an eating disorder about their weight. also clear as day, i knew about it, and very wrong of me. it shows how offensive and ignorant i am, towards people with eating disorders and csa survivors, making fun of what they go through and what they went through. and it will never be excused. and how i “reclaimed” slurs with very heavy quotation marks. this was probably the worst of all. there is no excuse to say such things to people, even if i can reclaim them, and even if they are my friends. i missed the whole point of reclaiming slurs, and turned it into a joke that made lots of people uncomfortable, especially professionally diagnosed people, as i am only self diagnosed and i shouldn’t be using the r slur in the first place, even if i’m self diagnosed with autism. it is not the same as being professionally diagnosed, even if i share similar behaviors with a professionally diagnosed person, i might not have autism or adhd or whatever i self diagnose myself with in the first place, and i will never be discriminated against for it. thankfully i am not like that now and i realize the point of reclaiming slurs. now for the worst of it. yes, it gets even worse. i have been especially cruel towards poc and it is very funny, taking how i seem like i’m the opposite, reblogging posts about uplifting poc, donating to them or trying to shine light on them. asking, to say the n word, or asking an asian that isn’t japanese if they knew japanese. and making fun of a jewish person’s name, as it was the same name of an attack on titan character. it shows how even more ignorant i am, how i don’t know their name is actually a jewish name. and my apology (if you wanna call it that) was low effort and i really could’ve tried better. and i knew they were vietmanese, not japanese. i act as if i am not white, as if i’m better than other white people even though it’s been laid out that i will forever be white and nothing will separate me from my race. i act like i’m cool around poc, trying to seem woke by pointing out racism and other things like i’m trying to get their attention and approval, like i’m trying to distance myself from being white. this will never make me cool, racism isn’t something that i should use to get attention. and asking for a black person say the n word will forever be wrong, no matter how long ago it will ever be. even if this callout becomes a year or two old, i believe that one should stand out most of all, no matter how much i grow. this will never be excusable and i am very sorry for even thinking that was okay to even ask. but sorry will do nothing in this situation. i have deeply hurt people in more than one way, and i would say that this was the worst of it. i have no idea what it even feels like to be called a racial slur, let alone the n word. the weight it holds is beyond me, and it is horrendous that i would even think about typing that. and the talking about very sexual things and posting sexual images in front of minors. this is obviously very uncomfortable to look through and i understand why people would be uncomfortable with it, and i am not like this anymore. it is also disgusting of me to even post those pictures when they look particularly underage, and i changed this behavior quick, but that does not matter when i was told the first time and continued to do it after. and i have been very rude towards other members of the lgbt community. i have made very ill mannered jokes about hating bi people, disrespected a nonbinary character by using he pronouns and made a bad joke about mitski saying "lesbian rights" when she's bi. it was stupid of me to invalidate these people's feelings about their representation and just the person in general.  in conclusion i am very sorry for all of the people i have hurt, but a simple sorry will do nothing. i was conscious for all of this and i could’ve easily just brush the thought off or not send it in the first place. i must move on from all of this, learn why this hurt people and learn to never do it again. this apology is just to show that i acknowledge what i’ve done is wrong. this apology will not fix anything, it will not make everything suddenly good. and the post is to warn people about me, because of what i've done and they don't want me to hurt other people. take what you will with this apology.

[ultralunary]

please dont post any apology thats fake, fabricated by someone else, post a genuine one. Apologize to the people privately first

[ultralunary]

funny how u didnt make ur apology a post but instead made it a weird link so u cant get hate on it. coward

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im some rando but you should get out of kin tumblr cuz i just legit saw your 500 note callout composed of primarily shit that needs to get solved in private it sounds like your ex friends just got sick of you and wanted to publically humiliate you its not like your some sort of abuser that needs to be exposed LMAO

lol yr white

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i remember when i was in a server with you and bev. you were very disrespectful towards nbs/trans men. you cant disrespect those who are similar to you like that. idk if you realized but you pushed A LOT of people away from you.

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cringe... youve been online but have not posted a single thing in response to what happened except your poor excuse of an apooogy a 13 yr old wrote for you

[ultralunary]

maybe u can u know... actually post the response rather than it being on some random link on yr blog Lol just a thought. also u didnt even address it all lmfao

im still reading it over and adding stuff

[ultralunary]

:/ i really hope a bigger, legitimate apology is coming soon.

there is. im going to be posting it later today when i can get on desktop

[ultralunary]

@ultralunary and @wuvergirl are both racist, manipulative, and generally shitty people who are guilty of a lot of the same types of problematic behavior 

tw: racism, nbphobia, ableism, rape jokes

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[ultralunary]

Are you aware that you have a callout

no, but thank you for bringing it to my attention. 

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based on that one omake of ritsu in grade school

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everyone in my life: why do you have so many dice it’s a waste of money and you don’t need that many I promise you don’t

me:

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“Since Shino-san is our winner, he gets a prize of 100,000 yen in books!” “I’m going to buy tons of Jump Comics!”

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this is just a random side note about binders since that seems to be todays topic; pls dont wear your binder on an airplane!!! since your ribcage expands when you go up in altitude to compensate for the thinner air, your binder that may fit well normally might start to get too tight and you might not be able to breathe. do NOT i repeat do NOT wear a binder on an airplane. i know it sucks and can be very hard bc of dysphoria but would you rather be unbinded or suffocating?

- max

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op: let ppl ship what they want, it’s fictional! 

me: that’s fair 

op: so it’s ok to ship inc*st and p*dophilia 

me:

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Mmm

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I’m gonna say something….. controversial