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Insoo felt Duri's eyes on him as the van began it's journey towards the airport where they will be taking a private plan to get to the island. He avoided eye contact even with his glasses on and just let his head swim in the thought of Park-nim worrying about him being alone in Jeju for a few days... Well, he wasn't really alone.

"Ahm, I - don't really have any plans. I just want to go to the beach. Eat some food..." He responded to the question, slightly turning his head to look at Duri.

"I guess - he trusts you," his voice was quiet wording his thoughts which, he knew was mostly true. Otherwise, Park-nim wouldn't hire Duri to travel with him. Why not send a staff or the driver?

He remained quiet for the remainder of the ride to the airport and once at their destination, they were quickly moved to through and boarded their plan to Jeju.

It was a private plan and there were plenty of room for him and Duri but once settled on his seat, he quietly spoke to the flight attendant to call Duri to sit next to him...

"I'm not too fond of small planes. Do you mind sitting next to me?" He asked, already buckled, hands gripping the armrests.

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JEJU

Insoo saw the wide grin even before the mask was pulled down. A few time alone with the man and he’d gotten used to his eyes disappearing when smiling so widely. He cleared his throat and nodded his head, turning to look at his luggage. “Okay,” he mumbled and reached for his bag with essentials sitting on the coffee table.

Park manager-nim who called the driver, instructed the other man to grab the luggage to take to the car, including Duri’s.

“Thanks for coming on time, Duri,” the manager acknowledged Duri. “You guys have to leave now to catch the flight. It’ll be a small private plane.” Park manager-nim continued to explain what’s happening next and did not stop talking until the door to the van that will take them to the airport closed.

Sitting in the back with Duri, Insoo felt awkward but spoke anyway. “He’s going to be so worried while he’s not with me… First time I’m taking a trip without him…” He explained, adjusting the dark shades he was wearing to cover his eyes even thought it was quite dark outside already.

Things didn’t entirely make sense to Duri. It was one thing to act as a companion behind closed doors for an evening. That had been an adjustment from what he was used to. Normally, most of his clients anticipated specific behaviors from Duri in their time together. Those things had never been a topic of discussion with Insoo. At most they’d innocently teased one another, nothing that amounted beyond friendship. There was a slight moment of innuendo during a drunken night but Duri had blamed Insoo’s behavior that evening on alcohol. Now with the soft pull of the van as it moved across the drive towards the main road, duri was unsure of what to expect. 

Companionship was one offer. He was sure life was lonely for Insoo. He’d seen as much in their time together. His Manager amounted to a paid best friend and father figure. Then there was him. He hadn’t been introduced to friends or family and he was sure there was a reason for that, perhaps all tied to the fact that he was playing the role of escort and companion but something told him it wouldn’t be different, even if he’d met Insoo more naturally. 

Shifting in his seat, he turned to study Insoo’s profile.Soft features partially hidden by the dark glasses. He was still horrible at small talk, even after weeks, almost months in their time together. “Do you have specific plans for us on this trip?”

It wasn’t exactly a simple question or one that he expected Insoo to answer easily. Duri immediately rattled off another, “Your manager really thought it was a good idea sending me with you?” It was more disbelief than displeasure. Laughing softly and mumbling, “Maybe I am finally doing something right.”

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Drink up, baby

"No repeating this - okay - Ah, I've never really had a blow job before... Is that - that's not normal, right? Oh, god, nothing about me is normal. Maybe I'll turn into an alcoholic or something, at least that can be considered somewhat something. I'm having bad ideas in my head."

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[ discontinued ]

TRIAL RUN

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[ discontinued: i will reply to the jeju one they have. ]

undisclosed

“I’m glad you have your job and it’s steady,” Insoo offered a genuine comment. “A lot of people lost their job…” He frowned, thinking of some staff they had to temporarily lay off due to the pandemic. “It hasn’t been easy for a lot of people,” he was staring at the piece of popcorn he was about to put in his mouth but he didn’t, instead, he continued talking. “I wish I could do something for them…” To some degree, he did. He put up some funds with some artists in their label to help put staff that weren’t coming to the office for the time being. More should be done, he thought to himself but he wasn’t sure what else…

Insoo snapped out of his thoughts, placing the popcorn in his mouth and gave out a small smile that almost instantly faded away. “Yes, of course. Being on stage is just - it’s a high. Like a drug. Can’t get enough of it even when your body wants to quit,” another pause but he wasn’t in deep thought this time. “Anyway, it’s not all fun and happy. Especially when you have netizens always criticizing your look,” he then made a face, filling his cheeks with air, face turned towards his guest. “Last year I took a week off - much needed break and I just - did what I wanted. Ate what I wanted. I probably ate too much coz when I got back, the internet trended I got fat and I was forced to go on a diet,” with that, he took a handful of popcorn and quickly ate it before grabbing Duri’s left over food. It wasn’t unusual to share food in their culture but there was a pausing thought - what would Duri think of it? 

Too late to back down now when he had chopsticks in his hand and shoving noodles into his mouth. It took a moment before he could reply to the question about the movie.

“Wreck-It-Ralph? Or Notting Hill?” The cartoon was on but the latter was still on when the man arrived. “Wreck-It-Ralph is just very entertaining. Funny. Two oddballs finding each other and becoming friends?” By the this time, he almost finished the noodle dish and he was really full but still wanted to eat. 

Duri knew that he had many things to be thankful for. His job was only one. His health had also been spared and so had his family. Still there was a part of him lacking. Perhaps it was the lack of normalcy or even the attention and adoration he found from client relationships he’d maintained prior to the pandemic. He was forced to look at life, particularly his life differently. It was time to decide who and what he wanted to be when he grew up, if he ever committed to growing up. “It’s true. I’m thankful that work has been steady, even if slightly frustrating on some days. I would rather have the frustration and steady income than none at all.” His primary employer had also been cautious, taking extreme precautions with staff and those deemed long term guests. Duri had to obtain special permission to visit Insoo today. 

Curious about what the other had said about wanting to do more, Duri pressed the issue. “What would you like to do that you haven’t already.” It wasn’t an argument he was after but he definitely wanted Insoo to look at it from all angles. “You know it’s possible to put your thoughts and actions in box. Restrict what you can and cannot do. If you have the resources, both financial, well mostly financial. Think through what you’d like to accomplish for those who lost their job.” More interested in the conversation than the food at this point, Duri continued, “Both your heart and mind are in the right place. Just be strategic and don’t limit yourself. Use your influence for something that will help those who don’t have the resources you do.”

Duri had never considered that the thoughts or opinions of others would bother Insoo. He’d been proven wrong. Each time he was in the artist’s presences, he was learning more and more to separate Insoo from his stage persona. The real man, was vulnerable, almost fragile in a way. There were times when he offered Duri a glimpse and quickly returned to the visage of unbothered, indifferent social companion but he could see it. “You do know the netizens make their money with idle gossip and lies that aren’t true. Their entire existence is built on drama and not the good ones that premier new episodes once a week.” He was careful with his words but he wanted Insoo to understand how he saw the situation. “They’re trying to create this false image of who you are, so people like me, will feel better about our boring existence. When people like me just need to realize you’re human and deserve at least some part of the day when you don’t have to be perfect.” Motioning towards the food and everything around them, “Relax and forget the image you’re always expected to portray.”

Glancing towards the screen, Duri considered an answer to the man’s question. It wasn’t that he was against animation, he was however curious about the other option. “We can save Wreck It Ralph for next time. Let’s try Notting Hill today.” Narrowing his eyes in thought, “That’s a place right, Notting Hill. Don’t tell me about the movie. I want to be surprised. So don’t spoil me.” 

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👀

[ 👀 for a dirty thought and/or fantasy my muse has had about yours ]

"Hmmm.... Being hugged - cuddled by him. Like, hmmm... We're together and he actually cares about me. That's all."

[ this one's very simple. sigh. ]

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"be honest..."

would you go all the way with your client if you get paid the right amount?

"Without the money, I'd still go all the way."

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[ he’s pretending he didn’t see the comment.. ]

Spit or swallow? For you and for your partner.

"whyy are you asking me this??? is this really important??"

"i've - never had anyone swallow mine..... that's - i guess it's understandable, right? i've done it once. i was wasted... but i think i wanted to do it."

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SEXCANON

[ he looooves being cuddled... more than actual sex. foreplay is his thing and the biggest turn-on is him being nuzzled and kissed on the neck... he likes being in his robe, sitting on a partner's lap... well, at least that's what he likes to do with his 'companions.' slow, lazy kisses is his thing, too, and being told how good he smelled... fingers through his hair... soft massages... all those things are his favorites... ]

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Duri - ⇕, ☠

回

[ insoo wants to know if he can just copy his answers from others? no? okeee....... ]

⇕ - [ Duri ] And a name to ask if they would sleep with them.

[ no. kidding. oh, no, insoo's hand accidently swayed in front of duri's crotch, opps, somehow he ends up jerking duri off. i'm just gonna write him drunk one day and let him have fun. my poor son all frustrated and lonely and horny. ]

☠ - [ Duri ] And a name/ topic to hear what they hate the most about it/them.

[ insoo doesn't hate or dislike anything about duri... just that, why does he have to be so good looking?? also, why so confident?? also. maybe he can take his shirt off more often when he's around insoo. that's insoo's request he'll never make out loud. he feels like one of those old queer men who's wrinkly and ugly and he feels like men like duri wouldn't want to touch him. like, of course, that's a dumb thought but with all the 'hiring duri as companion' thing, it certainly feels that way to him. ]

回 - For a phobia they have.

[ no, good thing he doesn't really have phobias. but he has anxiety and, yeah, it can be bad sometimes. ]

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Duri - ⇕, ☠

回

[ insoo wants to know if he can just copy his answers from others? no? okeee....... ]

⇕ - [ Duri ] And a name to ask if they would sleep with them.

[ no. kidding. oh, no, insoo's hand accidently swayed in front of duri's crotch, opps, somehow he ends up jerking duri off. i'm just gonna write him drunk one day and let him have fun. my poor son all frustrated and lonely and horny. ]

☠ - [ Duri ] And a name/ topic to hear what they hate the most about it/them.

[ insoo doesn't hate or dislike anything about duri... just that, why does he have to be so good looking?? also, why so confident?? also. maybe he can take his shirt off more often when he's around insoo. that's insoo's request he'll never make out loud. he feels like one of those old queer men who's wrinkly and ugly and he feels like men like duri wouldn't want to touch him. like, of course, that's a dumb thought but with all the 'hiring duri as companion' thing, it certainly feels that way to him. ]

回 - For a phobia they have.

[ no, good thing he doesn't really have phobias. but he has anxiety and, yeah, it can be bad sometimes. ]

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my muse cannot lie ! send :

[ feel free specify a context for each symbol ]

💓 - And a name to ask if they would start a relationship with them.

⇕ - And a name to ask if they would sleep with them.

✮- And a name to hear their real feelings for them.<

☠ - And a name/ topic to hear what they hate the most about it/them.

✂-  For  one of the wrost mischief they did.

₪ -  For a kink.

回 - For a phobia they have.

✦ - For a guilty pleasure.

◎  - Next to any question to have it answered sincerely, no matter how personal or embarrassing.

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2,6,12

[ he said his answers are gonna be plain and boring so he's like, 'answer for me...' sighhh ]

2. how often does my muse engage in sex?

[ oh, boy... ahm.... when he had his last companion before duri, he had some.......... nowadays things have been very, very dry. like. yup. no crop growing. nothing. ]

6. does my muse consider themselves skilled at sex?

12. are there any common sexual acts my muse doesn’t like? ( ie. oral, fingering, etc )

[ huh. as far as he remembers, he liked everything done to him. the acts weren't particularly out of the ordinary or ya know, so exciting he passed out - he lowkey wants an experience like that - but yeah... i can't answer this for him and he prob can't answer this one properly either coz he doesn't have much to go on by. ]