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[understandingnonesense]

December 20th, 2017

I dreamt that we were still living in the old house. We brought her body back to Maryland to have to taken care of. The body was on my mom's bed completely covered and I was sleeping next to it. When woke up I looked at it and the sheet covering the body came down slightly so her hair was visible. When I took a step back it looked like her body was moving up and down like she was breathing which seemed odd. Suddenly, her body rolled over to being on its back and the sheet came down to uncover her face. It was fine. It looked like her. She woke up. She looked down at her chest and seemed confused there was no wound there. At this point I assume that I'm dreaming. I get her up off of the bed and bring her downstairs. I ask my mother and sister if they can see her too and if I'm dreaming, which they say they can and that I'm not. She stays in the kitchen talking to them while I can't stop crying on the stairs. Eventually I stop crying and migrate outside because everyone went out to the driveway. For future reference, I asked her what she wanted done with her body when she died. She started thinking about it and I saw my boyfriend walking down the road across the street. I called him over and introduced them to each other. Soon after that I woke up, disappointed that my brain is willing to play such cruel jokes on me. I do miss you. I wish miracles were real. I wish you were just faking your death cause you made enemies at the CIA or with the Russians. I wish I had someone to take vengeance on. I wish they would let me go see your body. I know it's in pieces. I'm sorry we never got to make up. I'm sorry I was so young and stupid for so long.

[understandingnonesense]

November 23, 2017

I had two dreams last night. ‘I’m thankful’ for both of them 😉.

The first one what I remember of it was we were in my kitchen at my old house (me, my boyfriend, his friend, his ex girlfriend, and someone else). I don’t remember what happened leading up to it (I think we were working on the kitchen?) but my boyfriend (E) was sitting in the upper cabinet on the left side of the sink and his ex (D) was below the cabinet. They were just there, staring into each other’s eyes, not saying anything. It was kinda weird but whatever, they have a past. So I ignored it for a while and was taking to his friend (P).

After we were done doing stuff in the kitchen, E and D were both unresponsive, still staring at each other and it was starting to creep me and P out. So I asked P if he could get them to stop cause it was making me uncomfortable. I started waking into the dining room and he went and told them it was time to go. D apologized with 'Sorry, I can’t help but staring at my man. :)’.

I fuckin snapped.

I put my arm around D’s neck and slammed her to the ground. I don’t remember most of what I did now but I kinda beat the crap out of her. Kept going on and on about her man and how they were back together and they loved each other so much and it just kept making me madder. After a bit I stopped and said, 'Fine. But I have a key so I hope you’re okay with me coming over whenever I want and getting into bed.’ and she said 'Oh no he said you were moving out. :)’. I looked at E and asked if that was true, to which he passionately replied 'What? No!’. Then I woke up.

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Second dream I was trying to get my prescription from CVS, but by my old house and not by my current house. First the people behind the counter are very rude and didn’t address me until I spoke to them, despite me looking right at them for minutes. The woman who was 'helping’ me was beligerante for the entire transaction, so I was a little miffed when I was leaving and I think verbalized that under my breath. The friend in the woman behind the counter came up to me as I was leaving and started harrassing me. I left and went about my business.

I came back much later in the evening with my family to once again attempt to pick up my prescription, and as we were walking in I told them about my poor experience there earlier in the day. The woman behind the counter over-heard me and her friend began harrassing me once more. She started acting like she was going to get violent and kept on provoking me, saying 'You ain’t gon do shit’ and other things along those lines. I think I swatted at her and we somehow both ended up outside. We started grappling each other and I remembered my takedown tactics.

I punched her in the head, then the stomach, then back to bring her head down. That didn’t work so I kicked her in the crotch, then back to her head to my knee. When I was done, she was lying in the ground in front in CVS, face and torso all bloodied, unconscious. I left her there and went back inside.

After we were finished in CVS we came out and the girl was still lying there. I started cleaning her up and was about to call an ambulance, but she came around to consciousness and requested to not be taken to a hospital. After some protest from my mother about getting blood in her car, we got her up and drove her home.

I went back to the CVS the next day and the woman behind the counter asked me all sorts of questions about when her friend got home and all that. She didn’t seem mad at me for beating up her friend though. She was just happy that I brought her home?

Then I woke up.

(I'm thankful to have some outlet for my violence, even if it's just in a dream.)

[understandingnonesense]

January 23rd, 2017

Dream starts out strange. A dream within a dream. We are on an island and can't get off and can't get home and there's no service. A strange older man keeps following us and antagonizing us as we try to escape. We eventually make it on top of my bunk bed in my own room and Jo falls asleep. By doing so he actually woke up in the real world. You don't remember the dream when you wake up so I tried to scribble a few words onto my arm so I would remember when I woke. We waited for Jo to wake us but he apparently had other priorities. The second part I was in this apartment/airbnb/hostel and I was trying to find a good place to take a bath. There were so many bathrooms in this place, more than apartments. I had a foldable bathtub in one bathroom so I put it away. The third was me and some other people in a town square. E had all his guns from going shooting and we were hanging out near his truck. Eventually something started going down and E was nowhere to be found. At this point we were on the top floor of my old house. Luckily~ all the guns were unlocked and full of shells so I grabbed one and had to show the others how to use a shotgun. (it worked in the dream, but you can't load the weapon when it's cocked. Just remembered that when I woke up) The others went off to go fight enemies and I got separated from them looking for more ammo and dealing with some goober zombie guy. I would shoot but my shells weren't doing much damage (like in most of my dreams) and when I checked the empty shells, they were spring loaded instead of combustible. Me and zombie guy made piece and went to find the others. We found the secret elevator in the bathtub. All of the lower floors were filled with resident evil and silent Hill type monsters. We could not even try to fight them as we had nothing but melee weapons and a gun with no ammo. The other group triggered a cutscene so we were transported to the very top floor on the snow level to be reunited with them. There wasn't much fighting happening before I woke up. This isn't very detailed cause a lot of the details are pretty vague to me right now.

[understandingnonesense]

December 14, 2016

It starts off with me playing baseball with some people, but I'm not actually a player I'm the umpire. I'm waiting my turn and then the teams switch and instead of umpiring I run out to the outfield to catch. The next thing I remember I'm in this (my old) house/hotel thing with these rich guys, one of them being the guy who played the friend in the queen Latifah and Steve Martin movie. So we're in the bar and we're drinking, having a good old time. Right outside the bar there are a bunch of women in tight dresses lined up and poking their butts out. Me and the boys go out to inspect this line of ladies and give them all a nice smack on the ass. One girl has a particularly nice ass, so I pulled her dress in the front to make the fabric cling to get ass tighter. I call friend guy over to have him look and I bend the girl over. Her dress is a little too short at this point and she's not wearing panties so we have full view of the most delicious little plump, hairless pussy I have ever seen. Friend sticks a finger in to get a feel and the girl lets out a small moan. I do the same with the same result and I start giving her pussy a little rub. At this point I just wanna shove my face into her thighs. I hear my sister coming up the stairs from the lower level so I quickly whisk this girl up to my room. We're on the bed and playing around and touching and I'm eating her. Eventually we just wanna start banging and for some reason now she has a dick. It's cool though cause I'm soaking wet at this point. So I saddle up and start riding but for some reason now her torso is in a computer screen. After she came she turned into a man and started trash talking me. I got real pissed off and dragged him outside with my arm around his neck. I break a piece of wood and try to stab him in the heart but the wood is too floppy to make any penetration. Nothing was working. And then I think I woke up. A new fire about me. (I saw some boobs on my dash and just really wanted to motorboat them so I figured I should write this down before I forgot)

[understandingnonesense]

December 6, 2016

So the part that I remember from last night’s dream was mostly in my house but the first part of it wasn’t.

What I remember first is playing some sort of video game type activity but like a full physical tournament. It reminded me of number crunchers but all the players’ avatars were these square looking pacmans in different colors and the goal was just to eat up a bunch of flat rectangles in the arena. You couldn’t actually start eating until you collected all of the pieces to your pacman and they slid around the outer edge of the arena as various sized cubes. I think I was the first one to collect them all and I started glowing white and zooming around eating up all the rectangles. The amount of time you can eat is pretty limited though and once your time is up your avatar splits back up and you have to collect the pieces again.

I think there was a short part in between these two that I was lucid dreaming only in the fact that I knew I was dreaming.

In another part of my dream I was in the basement of my old house. E said that he was looking at my phone and was disappointed (but clearly wasn’t too broken up lol) that I didn’t send him messages saying that I really wanted to see him like I did for others. In the dream I was thinking that was some bullshit as I tell him that all the time.

After he was saying that a bunch of other people came into the house including A and some other people I don’t know. All I can really remember what just hanging out on the couch between the two of them and at some point starting to lean over a lot on E and when A noticed he got upset and went upstairs, or out to the backyard. (I think the first part of my dream was still out in the backyard at this point, but not after this)

At a certain point the mood shifted because my sister said that there was a group of cult extremists that were going to drop a bunch of bombs everywhere disguised as red of purple teddy bears. Everyone in the area we were in was getting scared and at a certain point someone started handing out guns to everyone to be able to defend themselves/our group because the impression was that people/zombies were going to try to kill us. I loaded up the shotgun looking thing and handed it to E asking if he wanted to do it. He took is and handed me an automatic weapon(that looked like a sawed off shotgun) and told me that if we really did get invaded that maybe the both of us could blow off some steam by just mowing down a bunch of zombies.

For a while it didn’t seem like anything was going to happen so I went upstairs and started talking to a woman who I knew was interested in me. We got pretty close and eventually I was on top of her on the kitchen floor. She was a thicker black woman and for some reason I was this random black dude. As I was rubbing her down and taking her clothes off she joked that it would be funny if the apocalypse started while we were doing it. As I was pulling down her tights I heard a woman shouting through a bullhorn signaling the start of the raids; talking about ‘making the bright cities a little brighter’ or something along those lines. I helped the woman I was with get her clothes back on and told her “Girl you jinxed it.”

I quickly got up and I was me again. I started running all through the house yelling “Everyone get in the basement now!!!” There were probably 5 people down in the basement including A and E so I didn’t bother checking on them cause they’re capable. I could see cars driving down the street and stopping at different houses and I got really scared. I ran around the house, turning off all the lights I could and closing all the curtains, trying to not be seen through any windows. I went upstairs and my sister was getting a tent ready as she didn’t think we would be safe in the house. My mom was in her room working on something.

I ran back downstairs and started into the basement when I saw a man had gotten into the basement where everyone was sitting (which meant something had happened to E as he was guarding the basement door) A girl sitting in between two people on the couch was screaming of him to leave her alone. The man was undoing his belt and pants and I ran back upstairs as (I’m pretty sure) he shoved his cock into the girls mouth. I prayed for her to forgive me and be strong as I ran to the kitchen, which was now the kitchen in my current house, to grab a knife. I picked up the big pink knife and as soon as I got back to the top of the stairs for the basement I woke up. Not in like I opened my eyes but I couldn’t see the dream anymore and I couldn’t get back to it to save everyone.

My heart was beating slowly but it felt like it was banging on my chest. I wonder why my brain wouldn’t let me see anymore.

[understandingnonesense]

April 30/May 1, 2016

Last night I dreamt that I was in a hotel room with my (ex)boyfriend. Someone came in and stole all the 20′s from our wallets and whatnot.

I also dreamt that someone was giving me problems at a street festival. So I took out my knife and stabbed them. Over and over and over. And you know what? They actually died this time. I remember my hands were red and sticky afterword. I had no remorse for taking their life. They deserved it. It felt good.

[understandingnonesense]

August 21, 2012

So this is what I can remember from a dream that I had while I was taking a nap during the day. Something that you'll hear me say often; I don't remember exactly what happened, but...

So the first thing I remember was that we were at a hotel. I think we were there for some kind of anime convention. It was a small hotel and it was Friday afternoon so exciting things were going to be happening soon. I was wandering around when I saw people setting up for the formal ball that some conventions have. It looked absolutely gorgeous. I was on the 2nd floor and I needed to find my way back to my hotel room on the 5th floor. It seems like that should be simple but I it was much more complicated.

I looked around for a little bit, and then I asked someone for directions to the 5th floor. This person happened to be a drag queen. So she helped me out. She told me how to get to the 5th floor and the proceeded to escort me there.

On the way to the 5th floor, which was a very round-a-bout route, I saw fancy decorations, masks, streamers, sparkles, beautiful dresses, people dancing... I was simply in awe. I was very underdressed for the formal ball so as I entered my room I made the request to my mother that we go back home so that I might find proper attire for the ball. I don't remember us actually leaving for home, but somehow we were back there.

Our house was a combination of my grandmother's house, and also the White House. We had a wonderful staff, tons of rooms, people all over the place, and a family of dignitaries visiting from India, who were staying in the house overnight to receive our hospitality.

The family had a mother and a father, three daughters and two sons. We showed them to the guest room, which was also a giant event hall filled with many very soft and comfortable beds, a large beautiful bathroom, and all the amenities you can think of. After showing them to their room I left with someone and began searching around the house for something.

I saw and, was introduced to many people while I was walking around the house. I most distinctly remember the grounds keeper, to which I commented on what a beautiful job he had done, and a man in the kitchen who's shoulder I touched to let him know his work was phenomenal. For some reason this man asked me if I was Andrea from Reboot and I told him that I wasn't but I knew her.

After all my wandering about, I realized the time and that I had wasted the entire Saturday of the con at the house and not at the hotel. I rushed around looking for clothes and getting ready to go and I walked past the room where the dignitaries were staying. I saw the three daughters emerging from the room and asked them if they would like to join me at the convention. They politely declined as they had business to attend to in the morning. One of them looked outside and caught a small glimpse of the light snow that had begun to fall outside. They were very excited to see the snow so we all ran outside and looked up with our tongues stuck out to catch the snowfall.

It was very intriguing. We started having fun in the snow; gathering up handfuls of the frozen water and tossing it playfully at each other. It was all fun and games until one of the daughters decided to throw a snowball at a passing red van. I told her not to be she did it regardless. 

She hit the van and they screeched to a halt. Feeling bad, she went over the the van to make sure that she hadn't hurt anyone inside. After a few moments of standing around the van, the strange back door opened and she proceeded to crawl inside. I knew this was very bad so I began to run after the van.

I managed to grab onto it before it pulled away, but as soon as I did it started to move. Trying to open the back door again wasn't going to to so I made my way over to the side door, where I began to hear talking coming from inside the van. As I crawled into the van, I somehow was holding a frying pan and I saw shadowy figures in the back. Once I had my footing, I swung my frying pan towards the back of the van and managed to hit a deranged looking blonde white woman. The girl was in her arms looking frightened and slightly unconscious. I swung at the woman once more and managed to knock her out... or kill her. I'm really not sure. The girl passed out at this point.

While the girl wasn't in any immediate harm, the van was still moving, so I made my way up to the front. Sitting in the passenger's seat was a scared looking black woman with wavy/curly hair and natural highlights. In the driver's seat was a slightly large black man with a close cut and a couple of hats on. I ordered him to stop the van, but thinking that the woman in the back was still alive, he refused. The woman in the passenger's seat begged him many times to stop, but he refused. It was all about the money for him.

I reached for my purse and pulled out a small multi-tool which happened to have a little knife on it. I threatened the man and the woman with the knife in order to have the van stopped. I even  gave the man a couple of small cuts, but still he refused. I yanked his head back by his hat and told him something along the lines of "That girl back there is my responsibility and I am not afraid of killing you to keep her safe. Do you believe me?" All while I had the knife pressed against his neck. Yet for some reason he still didn't believe me. I asked him if he would believe me if I killed the woman and he said yes. 

I grabbed the woman by her hair and started cutting along her throat slowly. I did this a couple of times and slashed her along her shoulders. She wasn't anywhere close to dying so the man still did not believe that I was going to kill anyone. At this point I was so fed up with the man I didn't know what else to do.

I let go of the woman, pushed the man's head against the window of the van, and stabbed him brutally in the side of his neck. He made an awful gut-wrenching sound as his wind-pipe started to fill with blood, and he attempted the say something which I can not recall. As the lost control of the steering wheel, I saw ambulances and fire engines traveling on the opposite side of the street and held down the horn to get their attention. The man let out a soft "no" of defeat and the van slid into a snowbank next the a pole on the side of the road.

The last thing I remember is being outside the van, covered in blood, knowing that I had protected the girl from whatever they had planned for her, unsure of my own future.

Then I woke up because I heard my cat about to throw up on my bed.

Thanks for reading!

[understandingnonesense]

First post - May 20/21, 2012

Hey. This is a blog about my dreams! I'll try and post them as soon as I wake up because that's when they're the freshest in my mind.

I figured I'd start with last night's dream because it was one of the good ones.

So the main theme of this... I was getting married to my boyfriend. We were so excited, running around telling people that we knew what was happening. But, when the day of our wedding came along, I began to get cold feet; not because I wasn't sure if I wanted to marry him, but because I wasn't sure I wanted to marry him so soon. The reason for this was that we're both so young and we were also very unprepared for the wedding. For one it was in a little chapel in a shopping mall, we told people about the wedding, but we didn't tell them what time or where, and neither of us were dressed for it.

So I expressed my concerns to him, telling him that maybe we shouldn't get married at that time, but he surprised me. While I was unsure, he was VERY sure that he wanted to get married then and also that he wanted to marry me. I took it as him being young, stupid, and in love, but I really felt how much he loved me.

I guess from that he somehow convinced me to go along with our little makeshift wedding. Our friends and family started showing up, we were all there, and it turns out my mother had even bought me a really beautiful dress. I started to try it on, but before I could see how it looked on me I woke up. And that was that.

Also, in little mini side adventures in my dream there we're a bunch of kids running around in a town near my grandparents house and some kid got her hair stuck in a radio/television cable, and also there were aliens from space that were concerned with pluto but put it back where it was and left the first dog on Pluto to watch over it.

I hope you enjoyed last night's dream!