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Hello beloveds, it is I: The Li Cu guy. I'm not sure if I'm coming back 100% but I was thinking about Li Cu. Tragic little guy

I can't remember if I ever made a post on this or if it was just smth mentioned to a mutual in DMs, but I think Li Cu would struggle with becoming his own person. He has two father figures (imo)

His own father, a man battling alcoholism and subjecting Li Cu to frequent abuse.

And Wu Xie, a man that put him through the worst experiences in his life, but also someone who, at the very least, seemed to at least care about whether he was alive or dead, which wasn't exactly something he was familiar with.

To Li Cu, these men can feel like nightmarish projections of his future. He wonders if he, too, will eventually distort - giving in to cruelty and violence, abandoning and hurting the people closest to him.

He lost Shen Qiong. Probably blames it on selfishness. He needed to survive. He needed to lie to Shen Qiong. And because of his betrayal, she died. He's haunted by her face. Haunted by the fact that she didn't have to die. Just to make sure he lived.

Su Nan as well. She essentially sacrificed herself for him. And for what? For him to inevitably become someone too lost in their own hatred?

He fears becoming someone he hates. He fears what he percieves as his inevitable future.

He's never had control of his destiny. It's always been chosen for him. Resignated to the ebb and flow of others' whims, what reason does he have to believe that he can dig his heels in, reject the idea that he'd ever give in to malice?

And meanwhile, chances are the people around him already see him as someone who can be better. Who will be better. Even if he can't see that himself.

Anyway hope everyone's been good

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Still thinking abt the funny tomb raiding fandom. Love those guys

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UNMUTE THIS 💀💀

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wait are y’all an ocean guy, lake guy, or river guy. i am a river guy tbh

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The Lost Tomb (but it’s The Great British Bakeoff)

Guess who’s back from the ether?? Whomst<3 and do I have some plans *lightning crashes* but first, memes

NPSS, probably when writing the series:

The Iron Triangle:

Everyone’s favorite shitshow, Wu Xie:

Literally Hei Xiazi in Ultimate Note:

Wang Meng, my love:

Li Cu’s essay on “what I did during my time away from school”:

Me when there’s a new lost-tomb-adjacent show trailer:

Wu Xie vs. Everyone In Wu Xie’s Life

Liu Sang:

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being a fic writer can be hard because sometimes you’ll get a random scene in your head and be like “oh this is neat! can i get some context?” and the characters go “lol no, figure it out” and so you need to shake your own brain like it’s a piggy bank like come on, there’s gotta be some more quarters in here . . .

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Tag yourself

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this is the big debate on facebook today but frankly starting with 3 is the only thing that ever felt right to me and everyone else is wrong

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what is your eye color. what is your favorite color. what is the color that appears most frequently in your wardrobe. what color is your favorite blanket. what color is your water bottle.

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I love that the internet saw people comparing women and other alienated groups of people and went, “they’re dating,” and, “they support each other.” We’re improving as a society.

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i thought your boyfriend was cute so i encased him in amber

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[gripping the edge of the sink with trembling hands, eyes bloodshot] i do not need to be good at the things i love to do them

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do you see this shit my liege

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That post about death note being "everyone's first anime" (untrue statement) made me curious and now I want to gather data for science

Can you reblog this and tell me where are you from and what was your starter anime?

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Lighthouses are an underrated form of wizard tower. A grey-bearded old man spends all of his time tending to a light that must never go out, for if it does it will bring disaster? What else could that be?