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“di ko nga alam kung bakit kita hinihintay gabi-gabi, ngayong alam kong matagal mo na akong isinantabi”

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hindi pa rin ako bumibitaw sa pag-asang babalik kang muli, na ang mga mali’y itatama natin unti-unti

nandito ako’t naghihintay at nagbabakasakali

baka sakali

mga puso nati’y titibok pang muli

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Everything ends at night.

I remember it happening all of a sudden. Like how a lightning would strike at a particular place on a very abrupt manner, i wasn't expecting it to occur, at all. Maybe it was just a call of fate, but by that time, i didn't believe that fate has existed for a very long time.

To most of you, when someone leaves, one person will just show out of nowhere and fill that empty void that has been left for us to grieve to. Perchance, it could be, but what saddens me is that, it doesn't happen all the time. That sometimes, we are left with the void to feel it for a very long time, for us to fill the void ourselves and not having to make someone fill it for us.

I will never forget the words that i read through the screen of my phone that night. Maybe i was just delusional, hoping things would change overtime and you would eventually feel the same way towards me. But those words which i wasn't expecting would break my heart in a million pieces, came out on a dead serious tone.

Not a single tear had left my eyes though. By that time, i think i was already numbed by all of the emotions and feelings i've been through. Forcing it wouldn't help either, because crying, for me, would come naturally as a result of extreme grief and melancholy, but it didn't occur to me.

Maybe i wasn't sad at all. Even though i wasn't expecting everything to happen, there's still a little part of me that anticipated all of it. We can never deny that. We still have those instincts that tell us things which we tend to neglect but at times, they seem to be having a whole sense at some point.

I tried to do everything to win you back. Losing was not one of my options, until i learned that winning is not one, too. I tried my best to have you back in my life even though you had ran a thousand times away from me. I tried to keep you in my arms even though you always try to escape from the comfort and warmth of it. I tried to pull you back to me even though you always push me away from yourself.

I guess for now, i'll never beg for you to stay. Everyone has their own decisions to make, and i am sure, i am not the one to make yours. If you want to leave, fine, i won't hinder you from making your own choices. If you want to stay, i would be more than glad to pick up the broken pieces of my heart and fix it just to give it to you.

And now that you're gone, all i do is to find you from every soul i encounter. I can't stop myself from doing such thing, but I can't also convince myself that you're already happier with someone else. They say, time heals everything. But you left me with a wound which time could not heal. You left me with a scar that will forever be with me until the last beat of the heart you just broke.

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Once, I fell inlove with a star

I remember the time when i fell in love with a star A heavenly body that is so radiant, you'll surely be attracted to it in an instant With its birghtness and spark, it wanders in the universe so vast As i laid my eyes upon it, it made my heart beat fast And in the darkness, it gave me the most brilliant light That made my eyes clear, and it gave me a wonderful sight And in the night, I always wait for it to show The only time that I have the chance to see its splendid glow. Once, I fell in love with a star. I fell in love with its uniqueness Thus, despite the undistinguished similarity of all the stars in the universe, I will always be attracted to it, no matter what Because once you fell in love with something, Something can quickly change into everything. I tried to reach for it, regardless of the long-drawn distance settled between us. I tried to be near with it, despite the absolute certainty that we will nevet be together. I tried to give all of my effort just yo make it mine. I really tried, but i faied. Once, I fell in love with a star. A star that made my eyes and heart worn out. A star that made me give my everything even though it didn't ask for it. A star that made me set my hopes high that someday, I could somehow reach it. A star that made me feel blue, alone, and hopeless. A star that made my mind asking everyday if I still deserved to be someone's best. I feel sorry for myself. I watch it while it slowly fell in love with the moon. And every night they wander the immense sky while sharing the light with each other. I watch how it bestow its glow to the most noble being in the universe at night And in the distance all i can do is to stare, With my shattered heart and distressed soul, Pain, the only thing i have to bear Once, I fell in love with a star. A star that left me with nothing but to forget All of my feelings now i'm starting to regret I'm too stupid to find lightness in the dark place that once had loved me I'm such a jerk for letting something blind me with its majestic beauty I feel sorry for myself. Once, i fell in love with a star. A star that taught me how to love the darkness that always keep me company And thank you. Thank you for making me realize my worth as a person, That i deserve something more than you Better than a star, like you Maybe i'm destined for shooting stars, a constellation or even a planet, we'll never know So i'll keep on searching the universe, maybe someday i'll find something and in the night we'll enjoy the darkness together. Once, i fell in love with a star.

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I'm letting you go

Like a kid ungrasping from his balloon

I know it was too soon

Such the stars abandoning the moon

I'm setting you free

Like a gun releasing a bullet

Marking someone's last breath-

Saying hello to his awaited death

I'll sacrifice my love for you

Like a life guard saving someone

Diving into the ocean's horizon

No ideas if his life's already done

I'm bidding my last goodbye

Like a man who will never return

I hope you will find the right lantern

That'll light up your whole damn tavern

I'm telling you, it's hard But i need to.

For i should've not played with your card

But i loved you.

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What if?

What if we meet someday When all of my feelings for you are faded away What if you realize I was really the one Will you regret that you took the tiring run? What if we never really drifted apart And we loved each other just from the start What if we didn't have to lose each other Should you have stayed for the better? What if we were granted an opportunity By this playful thing we call destiny What if everything for us fell into places Will you still choose me and ignore the rest? All these things keep bothering my mind Things that i can't really leave behind 'Cause i was a dollar, you wanted a dime This love filled with "what if's" all this time

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Roller Coaster

Taas, baba- tayo'y naglalakbay Magkahawak- mahigpit, ating kamay Puso'y puno ng lungkot at saya Isama pa ang damdaming di natin matantiya Paikot-ikot, tayo'y tumatakbo Walang kahahantungan saan nga ba tutungo? Paulit-ulit lang ako'y nasasaktan Puso ko ay lubha nang sugatan Paulit-ulit na nagtatanong Pagsasama natin san ba hahantong? Nalilito sa pintig ng puso Hindi tiyak sa nararamdaman ko Kailan ba hihinto? Ang pagibig sayo Dahil umasa'y hindi ko gusto Ititigil na ang pantasiya ito Na ikaw at ako, pwedeng maging tayo Mabilis, sobrang bilis Koneksyon ko sayo'y ayaw maalis Dahil ikaw lang ang nagpapasaya Sa damdamin kong wala nang pagasa Nakakahilo, gusto kong masuka Gusto nang ihinto ang nadarama Ngunit di kaya paano nga ba? Ang puso kong sobrang saya Huminto na ang makina. Lumayo, iniwan akong mag-isa Umaasa sa walang kontrata Ugnayan nating aking sinamantala Sumaya- ngunit panandalian lang Pagkababa, ako nang iyong nilisan Salamat sa roller coaster ride Na ating pagmamahalan

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Pushed away

Answers aren't always necessary For the questions that's been inside my head Now my sadness is too heavy to carry And my hopes are hanging on a thread I asked if i could stay But the only thing you say is "Leave" You keep on pushing me away And now i am left here to grieve But i kept on insisting Hoping that you would change your mind I never stopped in believing Cause i'll never leave these feelings behind But you were too certain with your decision You said that i deserve someone better Maybe my love is destined for oblivion A boat that shouldn't have been set on the water All i ever wanted is you Nothing more and nothing less I'm left here with nothing, not even a clue To look for someone that can be called the best. Thank you for shoving me away, For showing me my true value I'll remember you at the end of every day Everything that is now making me blue

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Upang matapos na ang lahat

Madalas akong mapaisip sa mga bagay-bagay Mga bagay na mas mabuti pang iwanan na lamang Kaysa hayaan itong patayin ka na lamang ng lubusan Natakot na ako Unti-unti na akong naging duwag sa pag-ibig ng 'sang tulad mo Pag-ibig na hindi mo alam kung ginto ba o tanso Dahil nakakalito na kung minsa'y ika'y kusa na lamang mabibigo Ibibigay sayo ang mga bagay na hiniling mo Ngunit ipagkakait ang mga bagay na karapat-dapat mapasayo Gaya ng pag-ibig nya Gaya ng oras nya Gaya ng mundo nya Ngunit sa lahat ng hilingin mo Ang ibibigay nya sayo'y poot at luhang di mo ninais Lungkot at pighating di mo naman ginusto Pero binigay nya sayo Hindi mo hiniling ngunit pinilit nyang gustuhin mo Kahit na masakit Kahit na labag sa kalooban mo Wala kang nagawa at kinain ka na lamang ng mga salitang nais mong ibato sa kanya Upang kahit sa ganitong paraan Ay maramdaman nya ang sakit na ibinuhos nya sayo Maramdaman nya ang sugat na hanggang sa ngayon ay hindi pa naghihilom Nang sa gayon ay makita nya ang mga peklat na ang dahilan ay siya Na matagal mo nang tinatago dahil mas ginusto mong makasama pa sya Dahil gusto mo pang ipaglaban ang isang digmaang matagal mo nang ikinatalo Dahil mahina ka Dahil mas malakas sya Dahil ayaw mong sumuko Kahit na alam mong sa simula pa lamang ay wala ka nang tsansang manalo Ngunit sinubukan mo pa rin Dahil akala mo'y magbabago pa ang lahat, Na ang tatlo sa una'y magiging apat Ngunit anong napala mo? Wala, diba? Wala. Kaya wag ka nang magbakasakaling mababalik pa ang lahat. Dahil natapos na ang salitang "kayo" kaya ang salitang "paalam" na ang nararapat Pinilit mong maghanp ng tuldok na tatapos sa aklat Aklat nyong matagal ng nilalamat Ngunit di mo ito nakita Di mo ito natagpuan Kaya naman patuloy mo pa ring binbalik-balikan ang mga pahina Sinubukan mong magkakaroon pa ng karugtong ang istorya nyong matagal nang tapos na Pinilit mo pa rin magbakasakali Na ang aklat na dapat ay nilalamon na ng apoy Ay itinago mo dahil umaasa ka pa Na ito'y masusundan pa Ng isa pang pahina Ng isa pang kabanata O ng isa pang libro O kahit na ano, basta ito'y tungkol sa inyo Ngunit wala talaga, wala Kaya naman sa paglipas ng panahon ay natutunan mo na ring maging matibay Mula sa mga bagay na makakasakit sayo Dahil ayaw mo nang madapa ang puso mo Dahil ayaw mo nang magsulat pa ng panibagong libro Dahil ang gusto mo lang ay ang librong inakda ng puso't isipan nyo Hindi mo na kaya Kaya't ang bolpen na iyong tangan ay sinaksak mo sa iyong puso Kaya naman umagos na ang lahat Lahat ng masasakit na salitang matagal mo nang itinatago Hinayaan mo lang itong dumaloy At kung sakaling may makakakita man nito Malalaman nya ang laman ng iyong puso Na ang pait at lungkot na matagal mo nang itinatago Ay kumawala na Kaya naman iniwan mo na ang huli mong hininga Pinikit mo ang iyong mga mata Upang matapos na ang lahat Upang matapos na ang lahat.

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I watched him at a distance. I watch him as he try to get his mind clear by writing all his cluttered thoughts on a piece of paper. Every word that is scribbled down reflects all his emotions and feelings that has been a part of his soul ever since. People might think it's vacuous, but he found solace writing all his sorrow when no one has time to hear every bits of it. He was hurt. I can feel it. I remember watching him endure all the pain while thinking of someone he loved who pushed him away just because of an absurd reason. It was depressing. I was astounded, thinking- how could someone make you feel special and miserable at the same time? How could someone make you feel everything and leave you like nothing ever happened? Bullcrap. A single question has been bothering his head all this time. He kept asking his self ways on how could he move on with such lugubrious, unrequited love of him. But then again, he often go back to all the stupidity he's doing for that single person who will never really see his worth. And then he thought, maybe love wasn't meant for him. Maybe he was meant for all the pain, the anguish, the loneliness and all the sadness the world has to offer. And for a single thought, maybe he doesn't deserve love at all. Love, as everyone of us may not know, is just a non-sense thing which desperate people crave just to feel valued and important. His heart has been covered with layers of fear and fright, scared that he could repeat all his inevitable mistake for the second time. His dauntless and brave personality has been replaced by a coward and craven soul. He was scared that he could commit the same err he'd done for that one person. But he'll definitely try again, i know it.

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Summer

I always hated the sun For it reminds me how it makes People thirsty Dehydrated Wanting for some company I always hated the heat For it reminds me of Different person wanting to Vent it all out To someone So they could get rid of it I always hated the vacation For it makes people bored Longing for something to do Everything is fun about it Until All they do is break People's heart I always hated summer breaks For it is when i got my heart broken By people who were up to do Something But i wasn't expecting They'd be smashing it, Completely Not for once, though

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Siguro?

Siguro hindi ko na maaalala ang mga gabi kung saan nag-usap tayo tungkol sa mahigit isang milyong ideya na kusang lumabas mula sa kulubot nating mga utak. Mabubura na rin siguro lahat ng salitang sinabi mo sakin na nagbigay ng ngiti sa nanginginig kong labi at nagpalutang sa puso kong napuno ng saya't galak. Baka siguro masanay na rin ako na lubusan ka na ngang mawawala sa aking tabi sa tuwing kailangan ko ng katawan na mayayakap. Di ako sigurado pero baka matanggap ko na rin na hindi talaga tayo itinadhana sa isa't-isa at panahon na para pakawalan natin ang inipon nating ala-ala. Baka bukas di na kita hahanapin at di ko na rin tatanungin ang aking sarili kung ano nang ginagawa mo, kung nasan ka na, at sinong kasama mo. Siguro makakagisnan ko ring mapag-isa sa mundong ito at mahahanap ko ang sarili kong matagal nang nawala sa aking pagkatao. Malay natin pero baka tuluyan na kitang makalimutan at lahat ng bagay na minahal ko sa pagkatao mo, baka siguro gumising na lang ako't wala ka na sa utak ko. Hindi ako sigurado sa lahat ng bagay sa mundo. Pero kung papipiliin ako sa mga bagay na sigurado ako, sasambitin ko pa rin ang pangalan mo dahil alam kong minahal mo rin ako kahit papano.

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Forlorn Hearts

We always gamble our hearts Hoping to win something Filling up our carts Anticipating for the bliss that it may bring We were ignorant with the reality Always blinded with lies People are too pity To the one who chases mice "Aren't you tired?", they used to say From the ache that you had known Your heart, vanished to gray Sadness, the only thing that you own From all the people that you had All you get is a worn out heart I know everything felt so bad Don't worry, you'd done your part Love is the only thing you wanted But people are so cruel, i know They cut your heart, 'til it bleed red Then leave you, off they go You just want everything to be right Sick and tired of every lapse Always seeking for the light Used to fill up all the gaps I know you have cried a lot Overthinked things too much I know all you want is a dot For you to unattach "It's hard", you always say So you keep on coming back Like the waves crawling on the bay Trying to wait for their luck Stop, that's a counsel from me Quit acting so foolish, oh dear You are too precious and worthy, For you to shed a tear Everything will work out Not now, but in the end If it went east instead of south, You just have to comprehend.