unnervinglyferal

[unnervinglyferal]

Regarding the Virgin Mary, tradition typically holds that she knew that she was going to be giving birth to Jesus because she was told what was going to happen by Archangel Gabriel. Some traditions within Marian theology believe that also includes knowledge of her son's death.

This context makes it make even less sense to me, to be honest. If she knew that she had given birth to the fucking Messiah, that's even less reason why she would be disappointed about it. All people know that their children will die one day, but I've seen mothers look at their completely ordinary children like they are the divine miracle sent by G-d. I can't imagine a mother of the supposed Anointed One looking at her child like it's a disgusting vermin.

[unnervinglyferal]

Highly concerning bottle without context

Context is that I refilled it with strawberry lemonade

Oh thank goodness.

[unnervinglyferal]

Amazing how living in a meth house prepares you things you need to know and be used to while having kids. Except this time the obstacle course is random plastic and toy cars instead of broken furniture and shattered glass, I know roughly how and why there's a random puddle of piss on the floor and have the tools and knowledge of how to clean it up, and the tiny people throwing fits of rage are small enough to be picked up and removed from the situation instead of running around with a knife.

[unnervinglyferal]

mUsicals are gOod. dO yOu agree? wHat are yOur favOurites?

I don't actually care for musicals that much. I've seen like 3 of them altogether ever in my life.

[unnervinglyferal]

Is there like a cultural or historical reason for why older christian art depicts mother of Jesus looking disappointed? I mean I have seen mothers who were just that repulsed by the baby they're currently holding, but nothing I've put together about christianity would make that make sense to me. No part of whatever snippets of christian doctrine I've heard explain that.

"Virgin Mary, the sacred ideal of motherhood, gave birth to the greatest divine entity in the world we know from our teachings, a very literal manifestation of G-d. She thought it was gross and asked why can't someone else hold it for a few minutes."

[unnervinglyferal]

Was talking to Mom today

We’ve determined it’s highly likely I’m bipolar

Probably type 2

Makes sense, I have really bad mood swings, tend to go up for a bit before crashing hard

Other things too, like every so often I’ll get super paranoid about something

For I while I needed to close and lock every possible door, for some reason the toilet seat and the cabinet doors counted, I would have a panic attack if they weren’t shut

Or I’ll get super obsessed with something and make it my entire personality, sometimes it’ll stay and continue to be an interest but more low key, most other times I’ll end up dropping the thing like a hot potato

Plus my aunt is schizoaffective, which is schizophrenia and a mood disorder (like bipolar) combined

So there’s a genetic element there

Don’t know how I feel about this

Would explain a lot, including why it sometimes feels like my adhd meds aren’t working, but I really don’t need another mental illness right now

Whether you've got a diagnosis or not, you're still going to be the way you are. Putting a name tag on a bear makes no difference in whether it's a bear or not. If you get a diagnosis for something new and they can try new meds that maybe help, then that's just good. And if the meds are shit, then you just don't take them.

[unnervinglyferal]

fuuuuck art block, fuck writers block, but do you know what's even worse?

HAVING BOTH AT THE SAME TIME.

Sincerely, AAAAAAAAAAAA

Try doing something completely different for a while? Like grab sticks from outside and start weaving a basket or something, idk.

[unnervinglyferal]

The thing about raising your kids is that you can do it the easy way or the hard way. But the hard way is the one that's going to make their lives easier in the long run, and you taking the easy way out with things is going to make everything harder for your kid.

[unnervinglyferal]

Oh

Huh

I didn’t even realize that might’ve been what happened

I have been pretty depressed lately

It is entirely possible that my brain just decided that this was the tipping point

People work in funny ways.

[unnervinglyferal]

Congrats on continuing to care for your family

It’s not an easy job, but you’re doin it

It's a whole lot of running to stay in place and 90% of that running is just trying to keep them alive.

[unnervinglyferal]

So uh

I tried to find an old book series I used to read

Couldn’t find it on the site it was on got frustrated

Looked up the series again but just in google and found it

Author had taken it off the site and published it on Amazon

I then proceeded to get so upset because the books weren’t available (and judging by the fact that the author seems to have been inactive since 2023 will never be available again) that I started sobbing

Then I dug more and realized that the series was never finished and suddenly I’m fine again

Like I’m not even a little upset anymore

Maybe a bit annoyed that it was never finished but I don’t really care

I’m now more bewildered at why my brain decided to completely flip out on me like that

Like you were upset and unhappy about something vague and unknowable, and your brain just picked something and decided "ok this is the thing. I am upset at this now"?

[unnervinglyferal]

I ate a can of peaches

I don’t feel like throwing a tantrum anymore

You needed sugar.

[unnervinglyferal]

How're you coping with the heat today?

Finding playgrounds and other playsites that are in the shade and sitting outside with the kids as much as possible. Probably going to the library today if we can catch a bus.

[unnervinglyferal]

You ever get a craving for something bad enough that you feel like throwing a tantrum?

I’m currently going through that

I really want juice

Or a fruity ice cream

We have none

You need sugar. Your blood sugar is fucked or something.

[unnervinglyferal]

It's stupidly fucking hot in here and my wife is pissed off about it. She's saying she's too fat for this heat and she's angry about that, saying that as soon as she's done breastfeeding she's going on a diet and not eating anything but kale and cardboard until she's at her goal weight. Her great-grandma nonchalantly said something vague about how that might help her with not ending up breastfeeding again, which my wife misinterpreted as her suggesting being underweight as a form of contraception (though to be fair, that's how I first put it together too), and asked her what the fuck is wrong with her.

So the family matriarch clarified that since being fat has gotten my wife pregnant twice in two years, then maybe if she was skinny that would convince me to stay off of her for a few years. My wife threw a rattle at her. Stinkbug laughed.

I take comfort in being aware that it's good the kids think that adults bickering is funny. My daughter isn't scared of adults being angry. She thinks it's funny when her mother is acting silly. Also it's too fucking hot in here.

[unnervinglyferal]

I've completely lost my ability to be cynically detached from the world. I can't just look at it and nonchalantly shrug, aknowledging that it is all a shitshow and everybody is fucked. That's not good enough. That's not okay anymore. I've got kids in here. A better world is possible and I am not fucking leaving before I can be sure that it is done.

[unnervinglyferal]

Toooooaaad

He’s chunky, covered in cobwebs, and pissed everywhere out of amphibious fear

Honestly I'd be pissing scared too if a huge creature of a nature I can barely even understand just picked me up and dusted me off to take pictures.