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An assortment of Björk CDs

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VERTIGO + 💐 dir. Alfred Hitchcock

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it's father's day. time to return to this post.

this isn’t meant to be a sad post or anything, i promise. if anything, i can’t help but do a lot of thinking and reflecting today, as well as father’s day when that holiday comes. and that’s because i went no contact with my parents a couple months ago, although if i’m being quite honest, i stopped talking to them, lost all respect for them, realized how allergic they are to self-awareness and growth quite a long time ago, and it wasn’t until my partner and i both planned and put said plans into effect that i felt i could finally separate myself from the people i both no longer recognize and, from now until my final breaths, will refuse to recognize as my parents. and with all this, it’s interesting to go about holidays like today’s and be parentless, to see others celebrate this holiday, celebrate their mothers & pay tribute to them, reminisce old photos, etc. and remember i don’t have anyone i’ll be paying tribute to or reminiscing about, be it this year or every year going forward.

and like i said, this isn’t anything i’m sad or rueful about; going no contact was the best possible decision i could have made, and i needed to do this to preserve my own wellbeing. i don’t regret anything, i don’t regret where i am right now in terms of parental relationships. and if i mourn anything, i mourn a healthy, salvaged relationship of a completely different timeline. i don’t look at these countless tributes feeling a pang in my chest. i don't any sense of jealousy, nor do i wish being in the same place as my friends. if i feel anything, now or several years down the line, it’ll just be a recurring thought of ‘oh, right, it’s [parent-based] holiday today, right. huh… okay then. on with the rest of my day.’

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One of my favorite movies of the year.

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this isn’t meant to be a sad post or anything, i promise. if anything, i can’t help but do a lot of thinking and reflecting today, as well as father’s day when that holiday comes. and that’s because i went no contact with my parents a couple months ago, although if i’m being quite honest, i stopped talking to them, lost all respect for them, realized how allergic they are to self-awareness and growth quite a long time ago, and it wasn’t until my partner and i both planned and put said plans into effect that i felt i could finally separate myself from the people i both no longer recognize and, from now until my final breaths, will refuse to recognize as my parents. and with all this, it’s interesting to go about holidays like today’s and be parentless, to see others celebrate this holiday, celebrate their mothers & pay tribute to them, reminisce old photos, etc. and remember i don’t have anyone i’ll be paying tribute to or reminiscing about, be it this year or every year going forward.

and like i said, this isn’t anything i’m sad or rueful about; going no contact was the best possible decision i could have made, and i needed to do this to preserve my own wellbeing. i don’t regret anything, i don’t regret where i am right now in terms of parental relationships. and if i mourn anything, i mourn a healthy, salvaged relationship of a completely different timeline. i don’t look at these countless tributes feeling a pang in my chest. i don't any sense of jealousy, nor do i wish being in the same place as my friends. if i feel anything, now or several years down the line, it’ll just be a recurring thought of ‘oh, right, it’s [parent-based] holiday today, right. huh… okay then. on with the rest of my day.’

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Never trust a soul in Night City.

Cyberpunk: Edgerunners (2022–) dir. Hiroyuki Imaishi

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Yoh Yoshinari's (吉成曜) cover art for Cyberpunk: Edgerunners (OST) vinyl coming January 2024. (*sobs at the beauty*)

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Cyberpunk Edgerunners NIGHT CITY MAGAZINE Staff Art Book

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Stop wriggling I’m tryna get ya!

R E B E C C A ┃ CYBERPUNK: EDGERUNNERS (2022)

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crying at these comments on the instrumental cover of 50 cent’s P.I.M.P

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You're petrified by your own fucking standards - and your fear of failure! This is the truth. ANATOMY OF A FALL (2023) | dir. Justine Triet

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My Valentine Cards

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"war and peace is boring" bro in the first 50 pages pierre gets banished from petersburg because he tied a cop to a bear and threw them both in the river

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My one major struggle when reading Russian literature is that I get so stressed out whenever a character makes stupid decisions involving money, like please, Rostov, don’t gamble away forty-three thousand roubles, my blood pressure is rising here

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creatively? i hate myself, and i've been feeling this way for quite some time now

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TWILIGHT PRINCESS • TEARS OF THE KINGDOM