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yall can find me @untowonder while i move things around uwu

fresh blog with fresh feels

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yall can find me @untowonder while i move things around uwu

fresh blog with fresh feels

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just a reminder,  but i am going to be archiving this blog,  and rebooting marianne on a new blog sometime this week.

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so I will be remaking Marianne.  I just want to start over,  tbh,  there’s a lot to go through and so much old meta that has no standing anymore.

I’m just going to repurpose an ancient blog so I can still use legacy tbh,  but I’ll still use beta editor for those of you who prefer it.

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yall wanna take photoshop away from me so bad

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       𝐖𝐞𝐥𝐥,  𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐈 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮?  Did mommy make you sad?  Do I just remind you of every girl that made you mad? Make me 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐞𝐜𝐭 ,  make me your 𝐟𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐲.   𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐈 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐭.  Well,  take it out on me.  Am I your dream girl?  You think of me in bed,  but you could never hold me.  You like me better in your head.   𝐌𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐥,  then I’m an angel instead.  At least you’ll 𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐲 me when I’m dead.

       ◤  ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇʙʟᴏɢ .  ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴘᴏꜱᴛ . ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴜꜱᴇ .  ◥

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about to suffer this edit but roxana is so perfect for marianne.

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❝ And once the thought of leaving was in her mind, it grew and grew like reaching vines and could not be hacked down. ❞

　 　 Ava Reid

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Marianne will always become something terrifying and also tragic as she progresses,  even in her most neutral of story lines.  it’s honestly just the way i view her,  something beautifully tragic,  like the aftermath of forest fire,  the hollow ringing which will linger long after the crash of thunder,  the shattering of glass,  the fading notes of some great and terrible screaming match.

in looking glass,  she is the fragile girl torn apart by cruel religious figures,  and the awful belief that she caused her mother’s death,  so this madness gnawing away at her is punishment from an uncaring god.  only to eventually become sucked into the world of the fantastical,  a conduit between two worlds,  already so frayed.

as mary ann in looking glass,  she is one of the eternal queens of looking glass,  and all she touches shall fall to rot.  she is the unflinching,  unfeeling death,  severed from gentle light.

in twist,  she is the lingering devouring hunger of a phantom,  existing both as and beyond those painful,  twisted,  devouring beings born out of despair and magical waste.  the heartless queen born from the desperate heart of Alice Underhill,  the watery love of Charlotte Clover,  and the coppery regret of Red Queen.  ( one could say she was made for Rosehearts,  though who is to say )  is she not proof that phantoms and humans can coexist,  become something more,  something beyond that which one must fear?  but  ...  when you are born of blot,  are you really that different?

and then there is path to nowhere,  where she is but another nameless orphan scrapped up from the rotting and contaminated syndicate,  given new life under Charlotte’s care because she looks just like his deceased sister.  she’s raised alongside Alice,  the heir,  until one day Alice isn’t the heir anymore,  now it’s Mary Ann’s turn.  and as the heiress to a family of ridiculous wealth and prestige,  it is so easy to cover up the fact that she is a Sinner.  ( her head gets tender at night,  and she feels phantom fingers in her hair,  she can hear Charlotte’s all too calm voice in her ear,  reminding her that she belongs to this family now,  as if she ever had a choice. )

for a time,  Marianne always begins her life stuck in this eternal quagmire,  until either she pulls herself free or until someone else reaches down and takes her hand.  but it’s dangerous,  reaching for Marianne.  she might just pull you down.

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i am awake against my will bc SOMEBODY WITH A RIDICULOUSLY SOOTHING VOICE has to stream nitw and i love that game so much

and i am heading into that hallucinatory state of wanting to almost almost maybe possibly nuke this blog and start from scratch

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cermit got me sick, gonna take an official hiatus

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❝ 𝐇𝐨𝐰 𝐜𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐥 𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞.  ...  𝐡𝐦?  𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫?  𝐎𝐟 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐜𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞. ❞

       ◤  only those with express permission may reblog.  ◥        ◤  ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇʙʟᴏɢ .  ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴘᴏꜱᴛ . ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴜꜱᴇ .  ◥

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                𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐊𝐀𝐈　𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐀𝐂𝐓　　 𝐋𝐘𝐑𝐈𝐂　𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒

various lyrics pulled from mihoyo / hoyoverse's  honkai impact  ;  altered and edited for ease of use. feel free to alter pronouns as need be.

𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐧 ❝ Whatever you say, you can’t hold me back. ❞ ❝ I’ll follow my craving. ❞ ❝ Head on, start a riot. ❞

𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 ❝ I was born out of this great divide. ❞ ❝ I need to live my life. ❞ ❝ I'm burned out. ❞ ❝ Our fight still keeps flowing. ❞ ❝ I must struggle to survive so that this beautiful and perfect world comes back to life. ❞ ❝ I need to live my life enough before all the leaves fall to pieces, 'till I'm burned out. ❞ ❝ I must struggle to survive. ❞

𝐛𝐮𝐧𝐧𝐲 𝐣𝐮𝐦𝐩 ❝ Detected potential threat, entering high alert mode. ❞ ❝ How dangerous? ❞ ❝ Her attitude never changes. ❞ ❝ Everything is in her plans. ❞ ❝ A relaxing game for a pro like her. ❞ ❝ Her emotions do not interfere. ❞ ❝ Traps are identified with utmost care. ❞ ❝ Try me! ❞ ❝ War is like a party. ❞

𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 ❝ The world lies in pieces at my feet. ❞ ❝ Help me gain insight. ❞ ❝ Hail my proud queen. ❞ ❝ That wax and wane showed its ebb and flow. ❞ ❝ Selah, selah, are chanting evermore. ❞ ❝ Hear, oh hear all the voices trapped in thee. ❞ ❝ I see myself in your eyes that are colorless. ❞ ❝ Visions pass and emotions run through me. ❞ ❝ Fair moonlight, will you fill my void eyes? ❞

𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐠𝐥𝐨𝐰 ❝ I'm being called upon. ❞ ❝ I'll never let you go. ❞ ❝ I'll never let you go, it's why I did all that for a chance, at least, to live in your way. ❞ ❝ My love for you is my most cherished thing, so stay alive, bravely. ❞ ❝ I wish I could wake up from this dream each time I dream. ❞ ❝ There's a long night coming soon. ❞ ❝ I'd shine as the last shine. ❞ ❝ So stay alive, bravely. ❞

𝐜𝐲𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐥 ❝ Corrupt binary codes are infecting my mind. ❞ ❝ Perform the invocation with numbing freeze. ❞ ❝ Querying for a variable and seizing the time to recompile and trigger my destiny. ❞ ❝ Though my wings've been bloodstained and could never be cleaned, I will try hard to soar to the heaven I dreamed of. ❞ ❝ There is no "exception" in this library for I know I will always go with you. ❞ ❝ I charged up my armor into lightspeed. ❞ ❝ Querying for a variable and seizing the time in a new day coming not so far away. ❞ ❝ I will try hard to soar to the heaven I dreamed of. ❞ ❝ I know I will always go with you. ❞

𝐝𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐞𝐠𝐨 ❝ I think back to the time when I used to feel your hand in mine. ❞ ❝ The tiniest tenderness might melt the ice into tears. ❞ ❝ I remain far from the world that still makes both of my eyes blurred. ❞ ❝ Not a word could I say to wake up a dreamer. ❞ ❝ Call out my name when you see the tide turn me away. ❞ ❝ Long ago buried heart torn apart, so it hurts ... how it lasts 'till I draw one more last final breath. ❞ ❝ Where to go? When to return? ❞ ❝ May it be one for all. ❞ ❝ Once in a while let my shadow stand by your side, filling the emptiness of your mind, and then disappear. ❞ ❝ Dreams can be real when a soul is armored in steel. ❞ ❝ No more fear of right or wrong. ❞ ❝ Call out my name. ❞ ❝ Come play with me. ❞ ❝ 'till I draw one more last final breath. ❞

𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 ❝ What is reflected in my eyes? ❞ ❝ What is reflected in my eyes? Not the moonlight in a starless midnight that showers on the people passing by. ❞ ❝ One's so small and the world's so wide. ❞ ❝ Every step forward echoes a sigh. ❞ ❝ I reach out for the halo far up high. ❞ ❝ Deeply engraved in my memory, silent but not forgotten. ❞ ❝ Someone has gone but their voice within me remains. ❞ ❝ Once I remember all the tales written inside. ❞ ❝ I'll follow what my heart used to believe. ❞ ❝ Crash against the barrier abovе the crowd. ❞ ❝ I want no tomorrow or yesterday. ❞ ❝ These sparkles shine and never fade 'till the break of day. ❞

𝐡𝐨𝐧𝐤𝐚𝐢 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝 𝐝𝐢𝐯𝐚 ❝ Your smile is tainted and your face is cold. There's no more comfort in your lips and cheeks. ❞ ❝ The whirling noise is pulling me within the tainted carcass of this world. ❞ ❝ All the incandescent stars of heaven will die at the end of days. ❞ ❝ Your gentle soul is given to damnation. ❞ ❝ The crimson moon shines upon a town that is smeared in blood. ❞ ❝ All those sweet little dreams are buried deep in memories until the very end. ❞ ❝ The lost and faded truth of bygone memories hiddеn deep in my corrupt body. ❞ ❝ I can hear the voices of the people I miss in this final song. ❞ ❝ I would tremble just to hold them once more. ❞ ❝ A florid moon shines upon a world that is doomed to die ... ❞ ❝ All our pale, fleeting dreams are where the truths are hidden until they fade away. ❞ ❝ All those sweet little dreams are buried deep in memories until the very end. ❞

𝐫𝐮𝐛𝐢𝐚 ❝ Life blooms like a flower, far away or by the road ❞ ❝ Waiting for the one to find the way back home. ❞ ❝ Rain falls a thousand times. ❞ ❝ No footprints of come-and-go. ❞ ❝ You who once went by, where will you belong? ❞ ❝ I feel your sigh and breath in the last blow of wind. ❞ ❝ Not ready yet for the story on the last page? ❞ ❝ It's not the end. ❞ ❝ Life blooms like a flower. ❞ ❝ Find the way back home. ❞ ❝ There is always a long way to go 'til I reach your arms. ❞ ❝ Up against the stream, waterways will join as one, tracing to the source, no longer strayed or lost. ❞ ❝ You will see petals fly when lament becomes carol. ❞ ❝ Could you please hear my voice that hungers for a duet? ❞ ❝ There is always a long way to go. ❞

𝐦𝐨𝐨𝐧 𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐨 ❝ Some deserts on this planet were oceans once. ❞ ❝ Somewhere shrouded by the night, the sun will shine. ❞ ❝ Sometimes I see a dying bird fall to the ground but it used to fly so high. ❞ ❝ I thought I was no more than a bystander 'till I felt a touch so real. ❞ ❝ I will no longer be a transient when I see smiles with tears. ❞ ❝ If I had never known the soreness of farewell and pain of sacrifices. ❞ ❝ What else should I engrave on my mind? ❞ ❝ Frozen into icy rocks, that’s how it starts.  Crumbled like the sands of time, that’s how it ends. ❞ ❝ That's how it starts. ❞ ❝ That’s how it ends. ❞ ❝ Every page of tragedy is thrown away and burned out in the flame. ❞ ❝ A shoulder for the past. ❞ ❝ Let out the cries that have been imprisoned for so long. ❞ ❝ A pair of wings for me,  at this moment,  to soar above this world. ❞ ❝ Turn into a shooting star that briefly shines but warms up every heart. ❞ ❝ May all the beauty be blessed. ❞ ❝ I will never go. ❞ ❝ There’s a way back home. ❞ ❝ Brighter than tomorrow and yesterday, may all the beauty be blessed. ❞ ❝ Wave goodbye to the past when hope and faith have grown so strong and sound. ❞ ❝ Unfold this pair of wings for me, again, to soar above this world. ❞ ❝ I turned into a moon that always tells the warmth and brightness of the sun. ❞

𝐫𝐞𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧 ❝ Too much of the past for one to memorize. ❞ ❝ Too many words remained for one to read through the lines. ❞ ❝ Every night brings a dream but the day, relentlessly, keeps me awake. ❞ ❝ Life is too long to end at a grave. ❞ ❝ Just a drop of water sufficеs. ❞ ❝ Gone are those years of living for a reason. ❞ ❝ Here it comes,  the moment of the scene of lost and found. ❞ ❝ Personas played out on the stage will return to the self when there’s a curtain call. ❞ ❝ Everyone has their own desire leading to the ultimate. ❞ ❝ Still,  I wish to embrace the world with my thoughts. ❞

𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐞 ❝ Say my name when a tree susurrates. ❞ ❝ Once and again telling a story lost in time. The way it starts and the way it ends ❞ ❝ Never again making up stories in dismay with several starts, but just one end. ❞ ❝ How I long to embrace the future breaking out of shades from the past. ❞ ❝ Save your tears for the day so far away, to irrigate the wilderness that's still asleep in the world waiting to be lit. To spread over the riverbeds so dry and dead. ❞ ❝ Let ships that ran aground re-launch their sails. ❞ ❝ Seeds bear new life when flowers dare to fade. ❞ ❝ Petals linger about awaiting one last dance. ❞ ❝ Shaking off all the dust from the past, new stories have yet to start. ❞

𝐨𝐚𝐭𝐡𝐬 ❝ All over the street, shining the old neon in endless rain, what have you had to become? ❞ ❝ How many times do I wanna wake you up? ❞ ❝ I've given you up. I'm going on my own way, alone. ❞ ❝ Who we are, and how far we've gone? ❞ ❝ Let us heal the misery and plant the seed we have promised. ❞ ❝ Time is up, go grab your arms. ❞ ❝ No matter how hard we have to become, we shall fight forever! ❞ ❝ I heard it from no one, it just occurred to me. ❞ ❝ What have you had to become? ❞

𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐥𝐞 ❝ Carved on stones buried deep in the earth and long submerged beneath waterfalls. ❞ ❝ Tell us what to believe, without any doubt. ❞ ❝ Without any doubt never let us down. ❞ ❝ Tell us when to depart for a promised truth despite the day of doom. ❞ ❝ A bloodline stretches out one more inch with every heartbеat. ❞ ❝ We have grown up before taking the heart of grace. ❞ ❝ We still struggle against the fear of being unarmed. ❞ ❝ No one would be able to look down upon this world. ❞

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𝐈 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐬  //  𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐆𝐨𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐬𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐧 𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐬  //  𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐯𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥

    ❝  𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐬𝐥𝐞𝐩𝐭 𝐚 𝐡𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐥𝐥  ❞

    𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰,  𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧,  𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐞𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮             ( 𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐈'𝐦 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞,  𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐮𝐬  ... 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 …  )

  ◤  𝚍𝚘 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚐 . 𝚍𝚘 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝 . 𝚍𝚘 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚞𝚜𝚎 .  ◥

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On again, off again, 'round and 'round they go. What a strange addiction.

gift for @untowonder. do not reblog or repost.

"Here I thought we might have gone past this." Fox paid no mind to the look she gave him, sinking low and gently lifting one of her legs up onto his shoulder. The brand-new cloth of her stocking was warm and a little bit scratchy, catching on the fabric of his shirt.

"Allow me." His voice wavered faintly then, eloquence left to flounder in the wake of desire. Turning his head, he pressed a soft kiss against her thigh - right where the pale skin puffed up over the lip of her stocking. Another followed that one, and another, creeping higher bit by bit until his lips grazed the thin cloth of her underwear.

Parting his lips, the tip of his tongue swept along the hottest part of her; prodding gently at spots he knew she was sensitive. His hands cradled her thighs, blackened claws carefully massaging the skin and muscle as they eased up to her hips, dipping to briefly cup and lift her backside as he drew back enough to catch her underwear between his teeth and drag it down.

He smiled, wide and shameless and a little maddened as his fingers slowly left her skin to hook into the garment to tug it further down; off one leg and then the other, dropping it over the side of the bed to be forgotten.

He took his time marking a path up her thighs again, dotting kisses and the occasional graze of teeth over her skin. His fingers framed her hips and gently squeezed, lips pressing against her mound before his tongue darted out to tease the damp flesh between her folds.

Ignoring the throb starting to grow between his legs, he rolled his tongue against her clit in lazy circles; dipping down to lave at her entrance every so often, a low hum building in the back of his throat as he lifted her hips a little bit to make it easier.

Glancing up, the corners of his mouth quirked when one violet eye peered at him over the curve of her hand fondling her breast. Closing his eyes, he tuned out everything else to focus on what his mouth was doing, curling his tongue and gently easing it past the tight ring of muscle to slowly thrust into her warmth.

The quiver of muscle under his hands and rock of her hips against his mouth was reward enough, and he kept the pace up, twisting and stretching his tongue as far as it would go to tease the bundle of nerves that made her jump and grind into him.

Thin, deceptively delicate fingers curled into his hair and tugged when the tremors became stronger and he withdrew obligingly, closing his lips around her clit and gently sucking; hands tightening their grip on her hips to keep her still until the damn broke - her thighs clamping shut around his head and deadening his senses to anything and everything that wasn't her bucking into his mouth.

He relaxed his lips enough to lick at her clit again, savoring how she rutted against his tongue and smeared her release over his face even when the tugging on his hair became sharp and harsh.

He stopped when her hips jerked sharply again, another orgasm tightening her legs around his head until it was almost impossible to breathe; smiling to himself in the dark made by the cage of her limbs.

He'd missed doing this.

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the shock and horror of Mary Ann not being swayed by Enfer's art

but Mary Ann also holds art in all forms at a great distance due to her upbringing and the source of her manic episodes. it's almost like she is an artist who despises art, both paintings and sculptures, and certain other mediums, but can't drag herself out of the murky waters.

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tell me why wouldn't you kiss marianne / mary ann (depending on verse )