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Clarification of the Rules

So there are two questions I want to address quickly before we just roll into the collection phase. That is “Why is it called the ‘Useless’ Future” and “Why don’t you use this to your advantage to like, win at roulette or stocks or whatever you fuckin liar” so here are some quick bullet point facts about these dreams

1. I have no control of when these dreams happen and for the most part as an adult they only happen rarely.

2. I have no control over what I see

3. It’s always from my perspective and I don’t follow stocks

4. Even if I did my memory is shoddy, I don’t remember most of them but I always recognize it in the moment

5. The one unifying theme that I can divine is that they all are utterly mundane in the extreme. They are actually so completely banal that honestly, I get absolutely no advantage from seeing the future this way. Hence the “Useless” future.

6. Nothing that I think in the present gets sent to the past. Think of it like a fancy separated limousine, present me is in the driver's seat experiencing the moment and making decisions. Past me is in the metaphorical passenger's seat (room?cabin?) Past me does remember when present me physically says or does things though as far as I can tell though as soon as something ventures into “spoiler” territory the “feed” stops (assuming it’s a clip and not an image). Regardless even if it didn’t as stated in the main explanation words in those dreams are nearly impossible to associate with their meanings let alone forming those meanings into a coherent sentence.

7. This isn’t really a fact but like, as far as I know, I've never had a Useless Future dream about stocks too so we get stuck in this logic loop of “If I follow stocks, then it won't get sent back, so I don’t follow stocks” and “because you don't follow stocks you never have the chance to send it back” so it’s sorta a self-fulfilling prophecy type deal. This is the fun part of it because this type of shit only happens in fiction so having something that is in a certain sense “real” is fun to think about.

8. By “clips” and “images” the gist is that a clip is a dream where past me saw a whole scene play out where things moved, and things happened. Images are more common where instead it’s an instantaneous moment instead of a few second clip. Clips feel weirder to live through than images because clips I sometimes recognize before the clip is over, giving me the chance to actually have precognition and predict future events. Usually, clips include dialogue.

9. “Why not defy fate and act against what you saw? Especially if it’s one of those clips where you recognize them before they are finished” This is very closely tied to one of the clips i’ll mention soon.

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What is the Useless Future?

So I want to preface this by saying that I have absolutely no way of PROVING that what is happening to me is truthful since 100% of these came to me in dreams. So you’ll just have to take me at my word that I am telling the truth.

So we’ve all heard of the concept of Deja vu. it’s the concept that you are living a moment in your life that you feel you have lived before. This is an important distinction I want to make that we will return to later. Deja vu is a feeling and a vague one at that. You feel like you’ve lived this before but you haven't and you aren’t entirely sure your right.

That’s not what the Useless Future is

So let's rewind time a bit to the murky time period of around 2006-2010 (so at the time I was between 8 & 12). Occasionally I would have strange dreams, not in the nonsensical way of normal dreams where you flee from dinosaurs onto a motorized mini carousel with a lifesized doll on it in your bedroom. No these dreams were different. How exactly to quantify “different” is difficult but the best way I can describe it is it felt real, and it felt like there was a fog in my mind. Again, not in the same sense as a normal dream. In a normal dream, your hazy logic is nonsensical, erratic, illogical. This was more primal and yet more logical than that. For an example, if there were people present in these dreams I would see them and vague associations would pop into my head like “friend” or “not friend”. Emotional is how I would describe that information, however, unlike a normal dream, I could also make more logical queries. 

For instance, going back to the same example, if I saw someone I was also lucid enough to think “I don’t recognize that person, What is their name again” and I would try to think of their name. Whenever that would happen however I couldn't draw up the information. Whenever I would try in my head it would feel like a combination of the feeling of grasping at mist, my head filling with a fog, trying to press two magnets together, and the feeling of deciding that after 30 years, your car keys really are lost. It’s this utterly surreal blend of absolute acceptance that I won't find what I'm looking for, and this cloudy, nebulous, soft force that pushes against any of my attempts to anyways. Imagine reaching into a cloud that is elastic. it’s wet and soft and swirls around you, but since it’s elastic when you reach out into it compresses, and gently pushes back with the same force you put into it. It’s both impenetrable, and yet it surrounds you and curves and distorts when you push on it like pushing on a piece of jello. 

For the most part, these dreams consisted of things that made no sense to me. People I didn't know saying words that I both knew were English and that I understood, and yet I couldn't divine any sentences or meaning from what’s said. Rooms, scenery, and other props I don’t recognize. Sometimes it would just be images or a small clip of something. Eventually, they would end just as any normal dream would end.

Fast forward to between around 2011-2012 and the present and every now and again something strange would happen. I would be going about my normal daily life and I’d see something and this jolt would go down my spine and flare out into my body and I’d recognize with perfect clarity and absolute certainty

I’ve seen this before

Going back to earlier, this was NOT in the hazy feelings and manner of deja vu oh no. It was like the moment when you recognize an old, close friend on the street after losing touch for years. You see things and it means nothing, then you recognize them and it's like THAT that suddenly the connection is made between what you saw and what you saw, between the person in front of you and the one you remember. All these associations and emotions and memories flood in and you feel like you’ve been pulled back to that moment. With time this phenomenon in my life has been popping up with greater frequency.

That is the Useless Future.

Thus this blog, which will be a collection of these moments. Now it’s 2017 as of writing this and my memory, funnily enough, isn't actually that great, but as of recently, I've taken to recording these moments in hopes of divining some unifying themes. Since I spend a lot of time on the computer some of them tend to be screenshots from various bits of media I consume, sometimes they are moments that occur outside and thus require me to pull out a camera and photograph the area. Every post will have a caption as to which specific parts of the picture hold more meaning than the others. I’ll also throw in a couple posts now and again on any thoughts, theories or clarification about this. Feel free to send me asks or reblog, like, etc this if you so desire. Also if this also happens to you PLEASE let me know, I’d absolutely love to hear from you.

TLDR; As I child I’d dream of very specific moments in time and present me occasionally lives those moments in time and recognizes it from the past. This blog exists to record that. If this happens to you let me know. It’s not Deja Vu.