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Ellie's Perspective

My phone buzzed at 2:02 am.

“Come over”

I stared at my phone, my chest tightening with frustration. Why does he do this? It’s late and I’m tired, I just want to go to bed.

“No” 

The truth was, I wanted to go. I wanted to see him so bad, but I couldn’t keep letting myself fall into his traps. One second he’s hot, he’s all over me, I am the love of his life and then I blink and I am non-existent, he and I were never eachothers, like I meant nothing to him.

“I’m moving to Toronto”

My heart stopped.

“In 2 weeks”

What.

Those words crashed into my chest. Toronto? That’s on the other side of the country. Why wouldn’t he tell me this before? 

I can’t think. I hate him for how casual he is about this, like this isn’t the end of us, whatever we are. 

It’s 2:35 am and I am stepping out of the cab onto his street, the breeze of the cold air touches my skin. I know I shouldn’t have come, I know he is using me for one thing. I hate myself for always falling for his games, but I hate the thought of not seeing him even more.

Kai opens the door for me, “how are you?” he asks so casually as I walk in.

How am I? Is he seriously asking me that? My eyes wander over to the half packed suitcase in the corner of the room. He wasn’t lying, he really was leaving. 

“So when were you planning on telling me you were moving?” I ask as he closes the door behind me.

He wrapped his arms around me, pulling me in closer as he looked down at me. “It wasn’t confirmed until a couple days ago, the coach offered me a full ride.” I couldn't help but be proud of him, a full ride to play basketball was his dream but at the same time I hated him for the being so casual about this.

He leaned down and kissed me on the forehead. His touch was warm but intoxicating, and it could almost always make me forget why I was mad at him. 

He reached for my hand to take me upstairs to his room, typical. I hesitated, do I really want to do this? The answer was yes, as it always was. I took his hand and followed him.

He held me as I laid on his chest, I let myself sink into him. It all felt so familiar, he would play with my hair, stroke the curves of my body, and say something soft and meaningless and I would let myself believe it every time. 

Because when the morning came, I would leave and we would go back to being strangers, except this time forever. But for now I let myself sink into his touch, even if it was breaking my heart simultaneously. 

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Kai's Perspective

I texted her at 2:02am.

“Come over”

I didn’t need to ask, I knew she would come over even if she didn’t want to, even if I gave her every reason not to.

“No”

Typical. She just needed some convincing. 

“I’m moving to Toronto”

No response.

“In 2 weeks”

I know it's a low move, but I knew what I was doing. I would tell her something I knew would get her to come over, even if she had no interest in coming. I mean technically it was true, I had been offered a full ride scholarship to play basketball in Toronto. 

By the time Ellie got to my house it was already 2:35 am. I opened the door for her, she looked guarded as she stepped inside. I watched her glance over at my suitcase in the corner and watched the heartache grow on her face. The guilt crept in when I saw that, I knew what I was doing to her was wrong but it was so easy, she was so easy. 

“So when were you planning on telling me you were moving?” she uttered as she looked up at me.

I pulled her in and wrapped my arms around her, she felt warm and familiar. “It wasn’t confirmed until a couple days ago, the coach offered me a full ride.” She didn’t say anything, I knew she was trying to stay mad at me and I couldn’t blame her. I had pushed her to her limit so many times and yet here she was standing in my living room at 2 am. I knew she couldn’t help herself when it came to me and I took advantage of that.

I reached for her hand to guide her upstairs to my room, sticking to our usual routine. She hesitated at first then let me take her hand.

I held her in my arms all night as she laid on my chest. I ran my fingers through her hair and whispered things I didn’t mean as I always did.

The thing was, I liked her, like a lot, she was the perfect girl for me. But, I liked the freedom of pretending I didn’t even more and I liked the control I had over her. 

Tonight would be our last night together and when I get on that plane to go to Toronto I would cut her off for good. I know she will hate me but it’s for the better. 

For now though, I let her lay in my arms and let her linger in the illusion that this is something real.

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Kara's Perspective

I had just woken up when my phone buzzed, it was 10:22am.

“I went to Kai’s last night, I’m just leaving now” 

I groaned. She already knew what I thought of him, but of course I was going to be there for her. 

“Come over but bring me coffee”

Thirty minutes later I hear my door open. Ellie walks in with two iced coffees in hand. Her hair was a mess and she was wearing a hoodie that looked to be his.

“Thanks” I said as she handed me my coffee on her way to the couch, all I got out of her was “mhm”. 

I sat down next to her and neither of us spoke. I didn’t want to push her, I just waited. 

After a couple minutes of silence she looked over at me with tears in her eyes. “He’s moving to Toronto.”

My stomach dropped. Of course he was and of course he didn’t tell her sooner, he was just the type of guy to do this. 

“When?” I asked, I could feel the anger displayed on my face. 

“In two weeks, he told me last night when he texted me…” she hesitated, “at 2 am” she muttered trying to hide the guilt on her face. She knew I didn’t like him and that I thought he treated her horribly, it was true though, Ellie was just too naive to see that too.

“Well you went over because you knew it would be the last time, I understand.” I told her, not with judgement, but just the truth. I understood.

I felt heartbroken for her, she always swore things with Kai were just casual but it was all over her face that she was in love with him.

Her watery eyes turned to tears. I reached over and wrapped my arms around her. “You deserve better than him, trust me.” I knew that wasn’t what she wanted to hear but she needed to hear it. 

I held her like that for a while as she quietly sobbed. I knew at this moment that all I could do was be here to comfort her and listen.