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so for anyone who's known me long enough this one's been a long time coming

i am leaving the tumblr rpc. i wont delete my blogs, they'll be here because i like my characterizations. but i just can not keep up anymore. emotionally, or mentally, with the state of the rpc. and between the shit people have put me through here, and the general speed at which everything moves- i don't enjoy it. there is also this massive surge of proshipping, and antis, and five hundred other things i shouldn't be expected to keep up on. like this shit is not a job, i do this for fun. and roleplaying on this site is not fun for me anymore. there are just lines you don't cross, and it isn't my job to sit here and babysit people- or obsessively lurk to make sure it isn't happening.

the point it boils down to, is that the tumblr rpc has a lot of problems. ones i am too tired to keep up with. im barely online anymore anyway. i come on to shit post, then might answer like two asks a week.

that said. if you want to keep writing with me? talking to me? plotting with me? i'm perfectly content doing so on discord. in fact i do a lot better without the stress of formatting and icons and whatever else. sooo, here are some places to find me.

discord: bunbite twitter: @Burdybites art tumblr: bunniearts

maybe one day i'll come back. maybe i just need a long break from tumblr as a whole. but right now the state of tumblrs rpc is not fun. and it gives me nothing but anxiety lmao. so byeeeeee ~

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wow all my active muses are november babies ...

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also is now a good time to talk about how unfazed jade is by nudity of literally any kind or form. he is legit naked in the ocean all the time ?? okay okay, you may try to say " oh rhys, it doesn't count, it's not the same. " but it does. it counts.

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i eagerly await the day jade gets a second event SSR

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@ramshacklestar asked: "Jade you remember that time we brought up the picture Azul wanted from the museum right?"

It was a sore topic when thinking back on the lead up and what had occurred shortly after gaining the picture, but Yuu wasn't focused on that aspect of it.

"You know Floyd commented saying you guys were cute and chubby Azul was too but I don't think I ever gave a response. So...here it is, you guys were rather cute when you were young. Now however I would say your mer body is amazing."

" mn... " he hums his assent. the image was a great source of stress and heartache for azul. and, though it was quite devastating, his overblotting came as little surprise to jade. the events leading up to his explosive episode, then savannaclaw's rather surprising intervention... something terrible was bound to occur. it was all very exciting, but it was a shame it played out the way it did.

oh-- not really the direction he thought she'd go with that. it's true, they were all a bit softer when they were children. especially azul, who's mer form still had some subtle chubbiness if you really looked for it. though there would be hell to pay should he ever point out such a thing aloud. " well children tend to need the extra fat to keep warmer in such frigid waters. until we've grown into it, so to speak. " jade accepts the compliment with a smile. perhaps one day she'd be fortunate enough to see his mer form under...better circumstances. " thank you, though, i do try to keep in shape in the ways that matter most to me. "

unprompted / always accepting

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@rebirthee asked: “ the grimoire likes you, ” the book witch regards with a smile, fingers glossing over paper and eyes glowing beneath dim candlelight, “ it chooses to allow you to hear its voice. ” and although it may seem to him like it speaks in tongues, the act is somewhat of a sacred right, hardly offered. “ it had hoped you you would be a bit more frightened though. I told it that nothing truly frightens someone as curious as you are. was I right? ” / hi hello 👋 she appears

the grimoire was very odd. it seemed to follow him anymore, as well as it could considering it had no real form. whispering to him when his thoughts dispersed enough to allow it. jade didn't understand anything it was saying to him. but he humored it regardless, occasionally humming in some uncertain agreement. as he continued to do whatever he was doing at the time.

the grimoire likes you- she says it with a fond smile. and it dawns on him that it's a good thing. that it's intentions are the same as her own, that it feels much the same as she does. yes, it's very odd. to realize an ancient entity seems to hold the same affections for you as the girl you're seeing on the regular.

jade hums, and tilts his head, slowly turning the page of his own book. another guide on trails, though these are not trails from his world. " there are certainly things that do frighten me. " he admits readily. " but voices inexplicably trying to hold a conversation in my own mind is not one of them. " there are certainly worse things to fear, voices can do little to him in the moment. aside from being a nuisance when he's trying to focus on an assignment... " it is a charming attempt though. and i'm quite flattered it's taken such a liking to me, haha... "

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may eel wanters be eel havers

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icb i forgot p*rn bots were a thing,,, go away

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✽ UTSUBOH'S ( @utsuboh ) JADE HAS ADDRESSED THE QUEEN OF RUINATION : 🕯️. | INNER THOUGHTS PROMPT. ACCEPTING !

i. what depth is there to be attached to the mystery of you? : You hail from the sea, do you not? Treacherous mistress some label it, for the sea cannot be conquered or tamed. Nay! All those who seek to pursue this endeavour are only to find their final doom. The sea is unforgiving. On its bright surface, wondrous glimmers may be seen, a spectacle of light and water.

Ah, but do elders in every part of the world not warn? Do they not tell you to be wary of beautiful things, for one may never know their deceitful nature? The sea (your home), thus, becomes a harmonious contradiction of many elements. Is there a treasure chest to be found at the bottom of the core of you? Or unexpected horrors? It is no secret: many are the tales in which a foolish sailor, lulled in by siren's song, is taken to their demise.

So, tell me, charming one, you who hail from the sea, what depth is there to be attached to the mystery of you?

ii. you bare your sharp teeth. i bare my own to your sight. : We both are the monster mothers warn their children about throughout those bedtime stories, are we not? We are required to exist in these oh so palatable forms, akin to a beast in a cage. Of course, we cannot let the world see us as we truly are, can we now? Who shall think of the children? Of the shrieks of those who cannot embrace horror, despite their courageous declarations while they lie still in the shelter of the light?

Oh, but reveal yourself to me! Show me your nature! I want to witness you, the true you, not the mask you craft, much like me, so that we - deities forbid - produce a sense of agitation in the eyes of this world's dwellers. Tell me, darling: is it not driving you to the brink of madness? To exist not as you truly are, but to cut yourself into an acceptable form only so that you may be permitted to continue to dwell on this land? Does it not seem to you we live in a perpetual farce, a masquerade? Oh, but reveal yourself to me! Reveal yourself to me! Reveal yourself to me!

You bare your sharp teeth. I bare my own to your right. I laugh. Is this all there is to you?

iii. though you are closest to home i am to find in this far away realm, for a moment do understand i must leave. : It is not with a light heart I tell you of that which I must do. Understand, fellow horror, I cannot permit for the one who has brutally shattered my sense of home to continue to exist! I shall morph into the plague that constricts the very air out of his lungs, I will become the pyre that hungers, hungers, hungers. In order for my crime to be achieved, we are to part ways.

Though you are closest to home I am to find in this far away realm, for a moment, I ask you to understand I must leave. I hold no term to capture the burden beginning to reign in my chest. My thirst for revenge clashes with the existence of this strange warmth in my chest only you alone can stir inside me. I cherish all the memories I have of you, no burning of mine shall ever hold the power to alter this truth. Is this what those inhabiting this world name to love another, to exist in a state of offering another a place in your heart? When have you even crawled there? When have I begun building you a tower in my soul's kingdom?

iv. skeletons lie upon the bottom of the abyss : I find myself drawn to the song of the sea. A flame continues to burn within me. Everything burns! My blood, my mind, my very essence. Water is meant to be the element that wields the strength to put out fire. And, yet, the entirety of the sea cannot hope to put me out! I exist as a primordial roar, an all-encompassing ravenous fire.

Then, from the waves you emerge at last. The corners of my mouth nearly involuntarily turn upwards, forming a smile. Do you know me still? Can you recognize me? Or have I never shown myself more true to your sight than I do now?

Skeletons lie upon the bottom of the abyss. Of this we are both aware. I, too, much like you, am a graveyard for my hands are not the hands of one whose resolve favours the worship of life. I am death, ruination, fire, unbridled wrath, limitless passion. My dead are turned to ashes. Yours lie deep beneath the sea. Even for all that, do we not exist in accordance to everything our nature implies?

I reveal the morbid nature of mine ; only to find it reflected in yours. And, perhaps, this is the cause for which I have permitted for your sharp teeth to become acquainted with my skin. Why I, too, have not hesitated to bite into you. I presume home is where you may lay naked (not in a physical sense), where you may be seen, where you may exist as your most repulsive self, and be embraced nonetheless. Oh, my love! I could hoard you like treasure! I would give you the Moon, I would drink the sea if only to know you ever so close to my heart, where you, in my never once humble conclusion, belong.

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the new tumblr layout actually scares me so nvm

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saw sb complaining abt floyd looking like jade in the latest art

and im like hey

my guy

theyre identical twins, that tends to happen

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anyway, on a more serious note. jade does not wear anything super nice or formal or what have you, if he isn't doing anything. honestly? i think he just wears the most comfortable things he has. like sweat pants, and a t-shirt or something, when he has nothing to do. which is pretty rare but... still. boy sits at his desk and reads, or fiddles with a terrarium he's got plans for.

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HE DOESN'T WEAR THE FEDORA TO CLASS, IT'S PART OF HIS WORK UNIFORM DAMN

imagine pulling up to starbucks and your barista is dressed like that 😩😩😩

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caeli u can't just say that jfc

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