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any love i showed you is yours to keep

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shutting in. 

heather havrilesky // “last one up”, paul oxborough // from a letter to theo van gogh, vincent van gogh // on the beach at night alone (2017), dir. sang-soo hong // shauna niequist

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Grow together typa love

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Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934

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I’ll let it go! I’ll let it go! I’ll take a walk around the city.  Pretend I don’t think about you.  I’ll let it go. I won’t worry about you.  You told me it would be fine so I’ll try to believe that.  I’ll ignore the dull ache in my gut that tells me to go check on you.  I’ll watch the fucking sunset and I will not let your name cross my mind.  I don’t think of you. I don’t think of you.  I do not think of you! I will not worry. It will hurt but I’ll be fine.  And I don’t fear losing you.  I’ll lie to myself and pretend I don’t care.  I don’t care. I don’t care. I don’t care. 

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Riley Samels on Instagram / Etsy

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lorde - hard feelings/loveless

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Blythe Baird, Pocket-sized feminism

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I don’t want to fuck this up

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david shrigley

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I have been thinking of the ways we tell people things. My father's hands shake, but he holds the phone up so I can watch the video from six feet away. My mother emails me the recipe of her beef stroganoff at 6 in the morning with the comment - woke up and didn't want to forget to do this! On the highway, we sing so loudly my voice grows hoarse; on the beach I sneak nice rocks into people's hands so they have something to hold, on the floor we all sit quietly in the same agreeable silence. We are all saying the same thing.

My friends say "Oh you know, keeping busy." This means they are having a hard time but making themselves survive it. I ask them to help me walk me dog; this is me telling them it's okay sometimes to just be present and talk about young adult fiction. When I cancel again because I can't get out of bed, she tells me she's on her way with cookies.

I point out the sunset. She shares her fork before I ask for it. He calls me at 1 AM just because I'm on the road alone, we talk about stupid shit. She waits for me to get indoors safely before driving away. He says - nah, forget it, I'm happy to do it for free.

People are saying it, you know? They say it often and loudly. Sometimes, you know - you just have to be listening.

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Foundation Skateboards ad. Thrasher Magazine (Sept. 2018)

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