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okay, i have been thinking about it & i will put billy on my multimuse @godstrayed for the time being to keep all my things in one place & more active/organized.

( i will keep this blog just in case i ever want to return to solo muse life! i am just busy right now to juggle two. )

That being said all threads will be moved there / some memes answered from that blog. So if you would like to continue interacting please do not hesitate ♡

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okay, i have been thinking about it & i will put billy on my multimuse @godstrayed for the time being to keep all my things in one place & more active/organized.

( i will keep this blog just in case i ever want to return to solo muse life! i am just busy right now to juggle two. )

That being said all threads will be moved there / some memes answered from that blog. So if you would like to continue interacting please do not hesitate ♡

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okay, i have been thinking about it & i will put billy on my multimuse @godstrayed for the time being to keep all my things in one place & more active/organized.

( i will keep this blog just in case i ever want to return to solo muse life! i am just busy right now to juggle two. )

That being said all threads will be moved there / some memes answered from that blog. So if you would like to continue interacting please do not hesitate ♡

[v1ctimplagued]

okay, i have been thinking about it & i will put billy on my multimuse @godstrayed for the time being to keep all my things in one place & more active/organized.

( i will keep this blog just in case i ever want to return to solo muse life! i am just busy right now to juggle two. )

That being said all threads will be moved there / some memes answered from that blog. So if you would like to continue interacting please do not hesitate ♡

[v1ctimplagued]

okay, i have been thinking about it & i will put billy on my multimuse @godstrayed for the time being to keep all my things in one place & more active/organized.

( i will keep this blog just in case i ever want to return to solo muse life! i am just busy right now to juggle two. )

That being said all threads will be moved there / some memes answered from that blog. So if you would like to continue interacting please do not hesitate ♡

[v1ctimplagued]

okay, i have been thinking about it & i will put billy on my multimuse @godstrayed for the time being to keep all my things in one place & more active/organized.

( i will keep this blog just in case i ever want to return to solo muse life! i am just busy right now to juggle two. )

That being said all threads will be moved there / some memes answered from that blog. So if you would like to continue interacting please do not hesitate ♡

[v1ctimplagued]

okay, i have been thinking about it & i will put billy on my multimuse @godstrayed for the time being to keep all my things in one place & more active/organized.

( i will keep this blog just in case i ever want to return to solo muse life! i am just busy right now to juggle two. )

That being said all threads will be moved there / some memes answered from that blog. So if you would like to continue interacting please do not hesitate ♡

[v1ctimplagued]

okay, i have been thinking about it & i will put billy on my multimuse @godstrayed for the time being to keep all my things in one place & more active/organized.

( i will keep this blog just in case i ever want to return to solo muse life! i am just busy right now to juggle two. )

That being said all threads will be moved there / some memes answered from that blog. So if you would like to continue interacting please do not hesitate ♡

[v1ctimplagued]

okay, i have been thinking about it & i will put billy on my multimuse @godstrayed for the time being to keep all my things in one place & more active/organized.

( i will keep this blog just in case i ever want to return to solo muse life! i am just busy right now to juggle two. )

That being said all threads will be moved there / some memes answered from that blog. So if you would like to continue interacting please do not hesitate ♡

[v1ctimplagued]

okay, i have been thinking about it & i will put billy on my multimuse @godstrayed for the time being to keep all my things in one place & more active/organized.

( i will keep this blog just in case i ever want to return to solo muse life! i am just busy right now to juggle two. )

That being said all threads will be moved there / some memes answered from that blog. So if you would like to continue interacting please do not hesitate ♡

[v1ctimplagued]

okay, i have been thinking about it & i will put billy on my multimuse @godstrayed for the time being to keep all my things in one place & more active/organized.

( i will keep this blog just in case i ever want to return to solo muse life! i am just busy right now to juggle two. )

That being said all threads will be moved there / some memes answered from that blog. So if you would like to continue interacting please do not hesitate ♡

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JUST ONE WORD & I WILL LET THE WORLD BURN.

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❝  The devil's got my arms And it pulls me back into the night. ❞

Multi-muse: Stiles Stilinski, Henrik Mikaelson, Mikael,and Jim Hopper | Must read rules before interacting with my blog | credits for promo:@lumiiicreates

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✨ as he should. ✨

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　Billy finds it unnerving and uncomfortable. It’s like being put in front of a mirror to have all one’s mistakes, shortcomings and failures staring back. It’s evident as day he’s in the wrong. He is always in the fuckin’ wrong. And yet; even if he wanted to, he doesn’t know how to fix it.

‘Cause saying sorry feels like choking. Admitting he’s a fuck up feels all too permanent and he’s so damn stupid—always doing these self-destructive and implosive things. Will Armin even like anything he has to say? Would he even understand? Or would it just all sound like echoing bullshit?

His hand goes through blonde unruly hair and he sighs, eyes flickering to the ceiling because he can’t keep looking at Armin in the eyes and seeing that damn disappointment. It’s soul shattering but self inflicted and easily preventable if he could just keep it together for one fuckin’ second. His teeth sink into his bottom lip and his head shakes, the pressure accumulating in his chest and staying stuck there–deeply rooted and tragically snagged on something, like a part of him entwined in his hurt.

“I don’t even know how to begin–“ he mutters after a second, “I don’t know how to fuckin’ try. I do it all the time. Push, pull, twist everyone around me to see what fuckin’ shape they’ll make. I wait to see if they’ll leave—and they do, I get why; just reaffirms that thought. Everything- I get so mad. All the time. Over everything. Not being able to know what you’re thinkin’ it makes me feel sick. I want to know if you’ll leave, if you’ll stay, what’s going to happen next– do you understand? There isn’t a soul alive I’ve had the capacity to not hurt. Everything I do, everything I touch with these goddamn hands Armin; everything and everyone I cross paths with. I fuck it up.”

His eyes move back down, hands sliding to his sides and his back straightening. It feels like panic. Like something lodged in his throat and burrowed deep into his stomach– “I don’t know how to love you. I don’t know how to love anyone.”

Armin’s expression doesn’t change, the emotion in his eyes doesn’t shift — it’s almost eerie, really, the way he can so easily make himself unreachable.

“Billy,” He starts and then stops, like he’s trying to find a way to make his words cut a little less but his tone does very little to belay his thoughts, “I don’t think I could possibly be anymore disappointed than I am right now.”

It’s not said aloud but it’s there, whispered between his consonants and breaths — even the possibility of a severing, of a leaving, would not be enough to shake him further.

“I don’t beg, Billy, which is why I’m asking you directly.” He’s capable of being gentle, he’s got a degree in being gentle and calm and understanding but he finds it hard to make those feelings come to the surface, to settle himself.

Billy undoes him. He doesn’t want to say it, but he does and he feels as if that’s a testament to something but he sets the thought and the feeling aside to be picked apart and explored later on when he’s alone.