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[v4mpskir4a]

I need to keep telling myself it’s not normal to look at sharp objects and wonder how it would feel to cut my skin open with them

[v4mpskir4a]

I hate how I never have enough scars.

[v4mpskir4a]

you ever just want to cut even if you don't really have a reason just because you miss the feeling of the cuts or am i losing it

[v4mpskir4a]

(Repost)

[v4mpskir4a]

Oh, I'm fine. I'm just stuck in the cycle of

3ating until I feel sick -> 3ating because I feel sick -> the thought of 3ating making me feel sick -> not 3ating until I feel sick -> 3ating so that I can be sick -> scared that 3ating will make me sick...

Yk how it is 💀

[v4mpskir4a]

please can i cut, please? i need to feel okay again. i dont care if is only for a moment, i need to feel okay again.

[v4mpskir4a]

Oh here’s a real quick hc I have for Z… he absolutely loves Britney Spears and hates scary movies and has to hold Ts hand to be able to watch them.

I'm so happy I got my first request for one. I really wanted to make this to a one shot so I'm doing it.

Btw this isn't supposed to be a ship fan fic. Sorry if it seems that their together in here ☹️ Their just best friends in here :)

T walks into the room where Z is "Hey Z, do you wanna go watch a movie with me?" Z looked up to where T was standing "Sure, I guess, what movie?" A scary movie" T said a mischievous voice. "Um... I'm not sure." Don't be a wimp it will just be you and me." Z hesitated before he was about to say something "How ab- "C'mon lets just go" T interrupt. "Its the new scary movie that just came out we don't want the tickets to be all sold out." A movie?" Jesse came in asking. "Shut the hell up Jesse it's just me and T" yelled Z as he got up and pulled T out the room. "I just wanted to watch it with them :( " Jesse said sadly after going back to his room .

Time skip too where their at the theater (I'm lazy, and I don't want it to be long)

"Finally we're here" At least the line isn't as long" T said as he looked at Z who looked as if he was about to die. "Let's get popcorn then we could find our seats" T said getting popcorn for the both of them. "Alright were a little late to the movie all these fans are going crazy over us." T said as they were finding their seats.

"Ooo just in time" T whispered to Z who was trembling of fear. The beginning of the movie was going okay for Z, until the middle part of the movie was playing. "See Z it's not that ba-" BOOM! A huge jump scare was heard. This made Z screamed, this was loud enough for the crowd too hear. The crowd looked over to where the scream was, there were whispers and giggles heard from the crowd. "Z your attractiving attenti-" Z then tightly gripped Ts hand. "AGH!" T yelled at how tight Zs grip was. "Z...y-your squeezing my hand too tight" T said in pain. Z loosen his grip a little to where it's not hurting T. T looked over to Z who was scared out his mind. He could feel his trembling hand. 'I forgot how much he hates scary movies' T thought too himself

Finally the movie was over. "That was a good movie wasn't it?" T said mockingly knowing he hated it. "I hate you" Z mumbled. "Nah you love me" T turn to Z who looked pissed. "I knew you wouldn't like the movie but I got you something else too make up for it" T looked excited to show him. Z gave T a side glare. T then pulled out 2 tickets for Brittany spears concert. Zs eyes widen "No way, You actually got tickets to Brittany spears!" Seeing Z happy was adorable to T. "I been wanting to go for a while" So it could just be me and you." T smiled at Z. "This means so much! Tysm T!"

Extra:

"Look who's finally back." Robaire said. "Where did you two go?" Tae asked pissed off because they never ask if he wanted to go. "No where! Um...just for a walk?" T said nervously. "For 3 hours?" Jesse said while raising his eyebrow. "Um, yeah?" Right tell them Z" T shoved Zs arm. "Uh...yeah, we did" Z laughed nervously. "Then do you mind explaining these photos?" Robaire questioned the both of them. "What photos?" T asked confused. Robaire then begin to show the photos too them. "WHAT!" screamed T "WHERE DID YOU GET DOES?" Yelled out T. It was a photo of Z holding Ts hand. Z looked embarrassed and flustered from the photo. "Aw, look at them embarrassed, how adorable" Tae said teasing. "Shut up tae!" T yelled at him. "Lets go Z" T grabbed Z and dragged him out the room. "I'm definitely printing these photos" Robaire said as he's walking to the printer. "They are something" Jesse said.

I'm so sorry if this was pretty late, I've been busy all day and haven't really had time to write. My apologies if the grammer is bad its my first time writing something like this. I know it's pretty short but still, I tried my best. Please tell me if I need to correct anything or how I could improve on writing🙏. But again sorry if there's any grammer mistakes.