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This is Money Snake. She only appears every 312 years. 

If you reblog her picture within the next twenty-five seconds you will have good luck and fortune for the rest of your life. 

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Sooooo um I’ve been thinking about setting up a go fund me to get the money I’d need for top surgery and a partial hysterectomy. The thing is that I’m not sure if that would be a good enough reason to set one up. Here’s the thing for those who may tell me to get a job, I have knee/hip issues that make it hard for me to stand or walk for to long without having shooting pain in my knees and hips, I can’t even stand up from the ground without the assistance of my boyfriend, a wall or my cane. I also can’t do a sit down job due to my hip liking to roll out of place multiple times. My hands also like to lose strength sometimes when I’m holding stuff making me drop things a lot.

The first thing I’d want done is the partial hysterectomy, (I don’t want a full one since I want to keep my cervix for reasons that I’m not gonna say but iykyk) the reasons for that being that I’m sick of having a period. The cramps get so bad sometimes that I’ve woken up from them. I’m sick of worrying about the possibility of pregnancy if the protection broke (I don’t take/have birth control due to the risk of them negatively affecting me because I take antidepressants). My boyfriend and I have talked extensively about our thoughts about kids, and I stated that I don’t ever want to give birth to a child. The reason why I don’t want to give birth to a kid is that I don’t want them to be burdened with my mental health genes. Now the reason why I’m not getting bottom surgery is because I personally don’t want to have bottom surgery. I’ve learned to accept some parts of my body through therapy and with some therapy with my boyfriend (a.k.a. letting him touch my chest underneath my shirt). And yes I’ve done my research on bottom surgery, all the success and mishaps that can come with the procedure (also I don’t want to take testosterone because of the body hair growth that will happen, I’ve tried having long armpit and leg hair but I found that I can’t stand the feeling of it on my own body) just because I don’t want to take testosterone doesn’t make me any less transmasc. Anyways rant over about that, I’d like to hear some feedback on the topic of starting a go fund me since I’ve never actually done something like this before and I’m nervous if that would be the wrong thing to use it for.

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Sooooo uhhh I learned that my asexuality was a trauma response and that I’m actually demi……My therapist and boyfriend helped me figure that out. I would have posted this in June but tumblr was being a c*nt. And I know that asexuality isn’t a trauma response for everyone, but in my case it was. It was due to what methods my birth mother possibly would do to get drugs. I’m not in contact with my birth mother, she has hurt me emotionally due to her neglect of me as an infant. She lost her custody of me and my older half sister when I was still a baby. My dad married another woman who is my stepmom but I call her mom. So for clarification! My oc Valen is ace and I the person behind the screen (Mike <- fake name btw) is demisexual. On a different note I’m out to my parents as trans ftm! Yay!

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Soooooo uhh I know I don’t have a lot of people view my blog but I got a boyfriend! We started dating 2 weeks before thanksgiving. He’s really sweet and gentle with me. I love giving him hugs and cuddling, he’s warm and squishy! I call him teddy bear and love, while he calls me bunny and honey. We actually started as friends in high school and we finally got back in touch early November. I love that he helps me feel more comfortable with trying more intimate things for example hickeys on my neck

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ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

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I’ve been replaying Pokémon Y while chatting with a friend, they suggested I try to make a creepy/dead Sycamore on gacha since I’ve never drawn professor sycamore before (tbh it looks terrible .-_.-) also Lysandre is currently having a nightmare of dead Augustine

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Made my version of William having dr*g trip while hiding in the bathroom from Michael

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Nothing like turning one of your ocs into a femboy 😂

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The fur baby requires the milk of almonds

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William wants cuddles (I FINALLY FUCKING REMADE SOME OF MY CHARACTERS! But the only down side is that anytime I switch out a character the colors get swapped. For example if I were to switch William for say Elizabeth in the extra slot section Elizabeth would have William’s colors instead)

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I don’t like the conditioner in hair dye boxes cause now my hands smell like chemicals

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I turned 19 yesterday so yay! And my parents bought me a small pie and cake to celebrate

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I currently want to cry because I lost all my Gacha club characters due to the app crashing when I was working on one of them now I have to remake all of them

Yeah I’m an adult who uses Gacha club, it’s fun and I like making different concepts of my ocs on there. Yes it’s a stupid reason to cry over but I would spend days making the characters because I wanted them to look good. The longest I time I spend on a character was a month and it was for William Afton and Henry Emily, they took me the longest because I was looking for the right hair style, color, clothes and accessories for them. I even cycled through all of the skin tones just to make sure that I’d like the end product.

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I’m self projecting on a child killer so that’s fun, Nothing like making William Afton be an age regressor. (I age regress too so that’s why I made William a regressor as well)

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IM ALIVE AND GOT SUCKED BACK INTO THE FNAF FANDOM!

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I don’t have access to a proper shower so yeah…..

Croissant, are you telling me I’m beneath you cause I act like a dog?

What? No! 🙀 I said not such a thing! You are my big Fluffy buddy. You sometimes stink, but I like you anyway.

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Looks like I’ve found others who don’t like strum……can I be your nephew?

"strum is annoying as hell."

[klara pinces the bridge of her nose]