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[valnyan]

I'm Going to Be Honest.

I escaped a very, very abusive workplace.

I don’t say that lightly. It was more than just a toxic environment it was a sustained campaign of emotional manipulation, verbal hostility, gaslighting, and psychological cruelty. My manager, the person in power, systematically broke me down. And when I finally got out, I was left with PTSD.

What’s worse? He’s faced no consequences.

The company protected him. They still are. I tried to speak up. I documented everything. I followed the process. But it turns out the process is designed to silence people like me, I was disposable.

Now I’m here. No job. No income and no closure. Just trauma, and the feeling that I’m screaming into a void that doesn’t care. I’m so tired of pretending I’m okay. I’m not.

So I’m reaching out.

Are there any radfems out there any women who have survived this, who know this system and how it works who can help point me in the right direction? Legally, emotionally, practically. Anything. I need help navigating this. I don’t want to disappear quietly. I don’t want him to keep doing this to other people.

I’m in Therapy, But I’m Still Lost.

If you have resources, solidarity, or words of advice, please share them. Please pass this along. I’m trying to find my way back to myself.

I’m struggling. Financially, emotionally, and physically .

I feel like I have limitations now, like I broke somewhere, and I don’t know how to put the pieces back.

If there are any radical feminists, mutual aid organizers, survivors, or anyone who can help point me toward financial support, legal guidance, or just solidarity, please reach out. I need help. I’m not lazy. I’m not giving up. I’m just hurting.

If I asked anyone else about what I’m going through, they’d probably just tell me to ‘pull myself up by my bootstraps’ or, I don’t know, start an OnlyFans"

Please don’t scroll past, Even just helping me be seen is something.

Edit: i have made a ko fi account and any bit helps with, rent,bills and food.

this blog’s full of satire now, but i’ll also be sharing more honest feelings and stories here. they’re free and i’ll be uploading some zines and other little freebies too.feel free to ask about commissions! just dm me.

i can do different styles pixel art, over-the-top anime, canvas-style painting,zine pages, you name it, most ill do is like 30-50 usd But average would be like 12-15 usd.

i also take writing commissions—standard rate is 1¢ per word.

thanks for reading. <3

I have to pin this post cause well...im broke so here a link to a great rad fem library

If you say:Your a transphobe because of terf chan!

Answer: please read the following.

Also if you think im transphobic read this

Terf chan memes are free to use, but please considering donating to my ko fi it you like the girl, also don't use my art to make any physical merch to sell.

Thanks!!!

Stickers and other prints are here!!!!!

[valnyan]

Calling radfem artists and writers for @amireallymeangirl.

TW

@amireallymeangirl is a very very kind radfem who came to radblr to look for support. She has been having an extremely hard time because of her endometriosis which resulted in a hysterectomy. She feels dysphoric as a woman and posted that she felt suicidal. In a response to this, "blackpill feminists" have flooded her inbox telling her to commit suicide. some blackpills have posted that they hope she kills herself or dies in her operation. They successfully bullied her off tumblr, making her feel more alone than ever.

@amireallymeangirl came to Tumblr to look for a sense of community. I ask that radfems show your support by submitting a drawing, a story, or just kind words to help her go through this

I'll go first. I'm not an artist, and my pencil was running out of led around 20 hands in, but I attempted to draw a uterus made of hands tearing itself apart to represent to feeling of pain that comes with endometriosis. The addition of hands was to represent that her body was ejecting it and reaching out for help. I made this in attempt to ease her dysphoria after her hysterectomy by making it feel unnatural.

I'm entrusting this in better artists because my vision ended up looking quite morbid

I'm officially out of led, and no pencil sharpener so ill stop here and leave the rest off to u

Look at the people who want to support you, @amireallymeangirl

Contributions

Art:

Contribution from @melancholy-symphony here

Photography:

Contribution from @niiwa-angel here

Posts:

Contribution from @colombinaa here

" I want you OP to know that you have my full support. This speculations are disgusting and horrible to read. Whoever came up with them is a heartless monster rotten to the core. I know what it's like to have nothing working for you anymore. I sometimes fear of having to get a hysterectomy in my future, as it's in my family history and my situation has been bad since my first menstruation. To go through such a surgery is so hard on the self. I may have not experienced one, but i saw it firsthand, with my own two eyes, and i saw what it does. I know that sense of guilt around having female-specific health problems, especially people's dismissal of them and of your pain. That look they give you... like they're deciding whether they wanna put you and your weakness in an asylum or to tell you to shut up and go back to work. Because of all of this, i want you to know that i see you OP, and i hear you. Your experiences and feelings are 100% valid. I also want you to know that me, and many other women on radbir, want you in this world. You deserve a place on Earth and i don't want you to think otherwise. You have all my love and support. ~~~ To see that you have deleted all your posts after your concerning words is very worrying. I know you may have simply decided to get off this app, which i think is what’s best for you right now; still, i am preoccupied. So if you read this, please know that i want you here on this planet. It is your right to live. You are loved and wanted by many. I’m sending you lots and lots of hugs, sister. You deserve life."

Contribution by @monsteradarling here

@amireallymeangirl is a woman with a great, warm heart, with intelligence to envy. She's thoughtful and kind, a sharp tongue when it's needed, and a softness when it comes to caring for others.

What she's been put through has been downright evil. I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy, never mind someone as genuinely lovely as her.

If you read this: those thoughts and desires aren't you. They're the cruellest attacks from a vicious voice that you don't deserve. Take all of the time that you need to heal, with all of the support that you need. You're not alone, and there are people here that really care about you. Don't ever be afraid to reach out for help. Love to you. x

#amireallymeangirl

Asks:

Contribution from anonymous

Contribution from anonymous

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[valnyan]

Year of the snek

I did that one in about 20 hours over this month. It's was nice to be able to spend time drawing for once, even if I still rushed it to post it this month.

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Happy holidays, belated

I started this one when I was home sick last month, finished it this month.

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Trick or trea-

Sorry, it's rushed. I was ill and had to take days off, I was feeling a bit better today so I drew that in about 10 hours.

Pardon, c'est fait à la vas-vite. J'étais malade et j'ai du prendre des jours de congés, mais comme aujourd'hui je me sentais un peu mieux j'ai dessiné ça en environs 10 heures.

ごめん、これ急ぎちゃった。病気から何日休んだけど、今日少しよくて10時間ぐらいこの絵を描いた。

[valnyan]

Coffee

I don't think I suck at drawing anymore.

I'll add a proper description and tags later.

[valnyan]

Thanks for the heads up, I didn't know about that. Even though it would be stupid to train an AI on my shitty pictures.

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Year of the Dragon's Dogma

Did that in about 15 hours within two weeks. I wish I had more time. I wish I was faster.

J'ai fais ça en environs 15 heures sur deux semaines. J'aimerais avoir plus de temps. J'aimerais être plus rapide.

これ、2週間に15時間ぐらいで作った。 もっと時間があればよかったのに。 あたし速くなればよかったのに。

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Water soaker battle

Sai decided to break and lose my work twice when I was tracing vectors, so I started using Krita but I'm so used to Sai's tools. The vectors in Krita in particular I just decided to not use it at all.

Sai a décidé de casser et perdre mon travail deux fois pendant que je traçais les vecteurs, donc j'ai commencé à utiliser Krita mais j'ai trop l'habitude des outils de Sai. Le vecteur en particulier j'ai juste décidé de ne pas l'utiliser.

Sai、二度ベクターを書く時に壊れようと決めちゃったから。Kritaを使い始めたんだけど、Saiの道具に慣れすぎるね。別にKritaのベクター、使わないと決めた。

[valnyan]

Happy new year

I don’t know how I managed to finish that but I did. The kimono are less horrible than last year. It took two months but I could only draw a few hours a week.

どうやってしあげたがしっていない、でもやりちゃった。 今年は着物が去年より酷くなくなった。 2ヶ月かかったけど、一週間に数時間しか描けなかった。

Je ne sais pas comment j’ai réussi à finir mais j’ai réussi. Les kimono sont moins horribles que l’an passée. Ça m’a pris deux mois, mais je n’ai pu dessiner que quelques heures par semaine.

[valnyan]

Very belated chrsitmas

I’m a bit less busy, I’ll try to upload a lunar new year picture next, hopefully this month, but beside that I’m not sure how long it will take for the next picture.

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We’re wolves

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Summer timelapse

I should have posted that in august, I may post some halloween drawing in november if I manage. I will try to keep a one drawing a month schedule but I’m so fucking busy.

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花見

Done in three days.