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Adam: A Post Mortem Part 1

Adam: A Post Mortem 

Adam the Lion is Loud and Proud but in his own way a protector and leader. 

Abe the Auroch is a quiet strength who aids the people and helps to feed with by pulling the plow. 

Henry the Dragon is the quiet observer and keeper of peace, acts only when needed, but can also be a flooded river of fire. 

You can tell that I spent way too long thinking of how this would work. And all from the rewrites that were happening during the pre-premiere interviews. Rufus was giving different ages for Adam depending on the page updates he was receiving. The Oldest date would have put it well older than Egypt. More around Sumerian and Akkadian times.

One idea I had was to somehow play with those three dates. Maybe there could be a way that those are the times he came closest to taking over? Like he's some kind of Vampire King Whack-a-Mole. Every few thousand years or so he pops up again starting shit. It just never gelled in a way that would work. 

Ishtar's Gate is maybe the most infamous example of cultural art from Adam's (RP) people. 

Given that he has so little left of his home, I figured that after a while, he'd cling hardest to the stories. Because the stories he has can't be blown up or taken to the British Museum. Sure there was once a long time ago his name meant Lion Eater, but back then, it would have had a double translation to traitor. After a while, Adam might even start to act like those old stories.

That's the one thing that I wish I had been better at. Adam the unreliable narrator because time is making him a little bit crazy. Adam actually doesn't care about 95% percent of the bullshit he sees. He has chronic and incurable Deja Moo. (He's seen this bullshit before) But he still wants to connect with and be involved in the world, personally.

Like sure, I had a template. But I'd adapt one particular story to everyone's character. 

Not a single post describing Adam's backstory was the same. There are little changes and different parts of his home village would be mentioned, depending on the character. You can go to the tumblr archive for Adam. They are all different and adapted to the other player's character. 

Because 1) Adam is a little bit crazy. And 2) that's how memory kind of works. Depending on who we are talking to, that will bring up certain bits of our past that we otherwise would not have thought of.

Adam was lying yet telling the truth the whole time.

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OOC: Coming soon a post MortU. of Adam. Don't be sad. Explanations will come, as well as a character analysis.

Adam is a character who will still be with me for a whole now... But for now, it's not fair to everyone to keep keep giving the halfassed. I want to, but not now.

https://youtu.be/AFSYeyCPqpg?si=lwGEQejpbmvYxag4

Life just threw me a curveball. I'll get into it soon. This is not goodbye. But a deep pause. Trust me, Adam won't get out of my head. Here's like Nakht.

The last I can do for those who still care is to offer the coming "post mortum" where I get into what I was trying to do in playing when certain themes and rropes. And I welcome any comments about your final on Adam and how i played him.

My Step-Dad isn't doing very well, and my brother isn't talking about it well, but more soon.

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ooc; guys this is appreciated but creepy af.

WHO SENT ME A CAST A CREW BAG?! And ffs let me please send you a gift in return....

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https://www.facebook.com/reel/313322904751646?s=yWDuG2&fs=e&mibextid=Nif5oz

Adam in a nutshell

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Ooc: I get maybe three hours a day

on the desktop now. And Tumblr isn't helping. They've gone full App Only. And the app is half the functionality of the desktop and if you are on a phone or tablet browser (even in desktop mode and yes, I've tried it with both safari and chrome) then the mobile version is nuked by half of even the app.

It's just.... I'm too tired to deal with that. I want to rp... Adam, Abe, and Jack all want to come out. I just can't try to make double nerfed sites work right now..... not while being a caregiver and running the Shoebox.

It just sucks that 75% of this site is unusable....

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So Tumblr is just denying access to pages on cellphone now? Literally app or desktop only.... fuck your tablet browser. Be is safari or chrome... it's app or nothing.

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Sorry, kiddo. I couldn’t let anyone stop this, including us.

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For those of you who have stopped because you are tired.... imagine how the people you matched with feel, after generations of this, and just how many times they, their parents and their grandparents and their great-grandparents have all see the people who told them that they were with them to the end suddenly get tired.....

One step forward two back.... and people wonder how I keep happening.......

I do regret the part I played in the civil war.

Truly.

It's not enough to say it was my twisted humor. A joke I was playing on the whites by seeing how far they would go, willingly serving vampire masters as long as they had the illusion of power over another.

I should have known better and I should have done better. I was 5000 years old, and had seen history unfold time and again. I knew how it would go, the pain it would cause.

Henry was right, I acted like a human and need to make up for that. I was so set on hoisting whites on their own petard I became blind to the real terror I was causing and for that I am truly sorry.

For those who think the flag is heritage you need to take a good long look at what happened. It was not romantic, it was not noble, it was not a way of life. It was terror. It was horror. It needed to be stopped then and it needs to be stopped now.

This is not about individual instances - it never was - this is about a systemic problem that needs to be addressed and corrected.

To the whites who are marching in support; don't you dare stop. Don't you dare allow this to become a fad. Or something that happened because you were in self isolation and needed to get out. Don't do that to your friends... again.

Do you know how surreal this must seem for those who have live with this only to see you now? Where were you last year? Will you be there next year?

Things must change.

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Strange bedfellows.......

Humanity never fails to disappoint me.... y'all heart this shit out of Florida?

It was bullshit, selfishness and greed and nothing good and even today that they can't admit that I was trolling the hell out of them....

It's crap.

I set a trap way back when and some ignorant fucks are still falling for it.....

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Humanity never fails to disappoint me.... y'all heart this shit out of Florida?

It was bullshit, selfishness and greed and nothing good and even today that they can't admit that I was trolling the hell out of them....

It's crap.

I set a trap way back when and some ignorant fucks are still falling for it.....

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Self-Esteem starters

"I'm just not good enough. I always mess things up."

"Don't be so hard on yourself. You have so many incredible qualities."

"I'm afraid to take risks. I don't believe in myself."

"You have so much potential. You're capable of achieving great things."

"I feel like everyone is judging me. I can't shake this feeling of inadequacy."

"Remember, you are unique and deserving of love and acceptance. Don't let others' opinions define you."

"I can't seem to do anything right. I'm a failure."

"Nobody is perfect, and everyone makes mistakes. Your worth isn't determined by your failures."

"I don't deserve happiness. I'm not worthy of love."

"You are worthy of love and happiness. You have so much to offer the world."

"I believe in myself. I know I can conquer any challenge."

"Your confidence is inspiring. Your belief in yourself is admirable."

"I'm proud of my accomplishments. I've worked hard to get where I am."

"You should be proud. Your determination and hard work have paid off."

"I know my worth. I won't settle for anything less than I deserve."

"I embrace my uniqueness. I love who I am, flaws and all."

"Your self-acceptance is beautiful. You radiate self-love."

"You're capable of so much more than you think. Believe in yourself."

"Don't underestimate yourself."

"Thank you for seeing the best in me. It's something I struggle with."

"I've seen you overcome challenges before. I know you can do it again."

"Thank you for reminding me of my potential."

"You deserve happiness and success. Don't let self-doubt hold you back."

"You'll never amount to anything. You're just a failure."

"Your hurtful words won't bring me down. I know my worth."

"Nobody cares about you. You're not important."

"I'm not good enough. I always feel like I'm letting everyone down."

"I don't deserve happiness. I'm constantly making mistakes."

"You're being too hard on yourself. We all make mistakes, but it doesn't define our worth."

"I'm so insecure. I can't help but compare myself to others."

"Thank you for believing in me when I struggle to believe in myself."

"Don't underestimate your impact."

"Sometimes it's hard to see my own worth, but your words help me see myself in a different light."

"You're so incompetent. I don't know why anyone would rely on you."

"Your words hurt, but I won't let them shake my confidence."

"I deserve to be treated with respect and kindness."

"I've noticed that ____ has been struggling with their self-esteem lately."

"They seem to doubt themselves and their abilities."

"____ seems to lack confidence in their work, even though they're talented."

"____ has been struggling with their self-image."

"They constantly compare themselves to others."

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In other news, with 100% of the vote.... thankee sai to you, you glorious bastard, who's still along for the ride....

Keep on (neutral and half crazy via 5000 years old) won

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OOC and a very serious note.

if friends and acquittances could stop self-deleting themselves from life for the next 60 days that'd be great.  TALK TO ME. I'VE FUCKING TRIED AND SURVIED.  TALK TO ME.  I’LL GET YOU THROUGH THIS SHIT WITHOUT JUDGMENT.  I’LL BE YOUR TOUR GUIDE OF HELL AND GET YOU OUT OF THE FOG. 

two in 40 days... 

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OOC: I've been thinking of rebooting Adam. But I'm not sure how to go about doing that. Because it's been so long since the move and since I'm playing a heavily head-cannonened movie only character, I doubt I'll find a crew willing to go to all in that far again. So maybe a half retool?

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OOC holy fuck nuts batman

So a surprise move and my mum having a stroke, and my step-dad.... I shit you not, this actually happened.... strained so bar trying take a shit that he LITERALLY..... MEN MIGHT WANT TO SKIP THIS

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Literally actually 100% real, blew his intestines into his ball sac.... by the time they could operate to repair a "Hemorrhage of the Scrotum," his nuts were the size of an American Football due to his much of his lower intestines had forced into the area.....

What the fuck even is my life.....

When y'all met me was a disappointment of a folklorist who specializes in vampireology and damn near giddy about mixing the Emo President and Psydo-Hulk with my day job.

Now we're talking about me vanishing due to Mum having had a stroke and Matt literally blowing his guts into his nuts. Shit that I had only heard of via Thomas Morris and yes, I'm considering writing to him.

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Adam right after the war:

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New Years 2022

What can I say? From November on I've seen a fair number of humans express the same concern ... that it did not feel like Holiday Time. Whichever you celebrate, it did not feel like a regular holiday. No one wanted to celebrate or have a family dinner. It felt like the world was simply going through the motion of the holiday, a Great Pretend, if you will. Just going through the motion and putting on a brave face in the hope that maybe a spark will kindle. Maybe they might feel a moment of the holiday.

Folks, we've been here before. I've been through plague time and again. We'll get through it, I promise you. There will be a time when you'll feel the Holiday again. Hell, there were even Covidiots during Black Death. Surly you've heard of that plague. And yes, there were dumbasses who acted like idiots. We got through it.

Plagues do tend to bring out both the best and the worst. Would it be wrong if me to point out that the history of Cholera and Tuberculosis have much more to do with the average humans perception of vampires than My Kind does? As far as I am concerned, you guys are doing great this time around... not a single grave has been opened and a corpse dismembered, a heart eaten, this time around. You're making progress. That's a good thing.

A funny thing happened on the way to coming up with my annual statement... even I ran into a hard moment. It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel right now. It really is. If the best I can come up with is that there hasn't been any grave desecration and cannibalism.... the bar is pretty damn low, isn't it?

But we've been here before. Your ancestors made it out. You will make it out. Keep the trust and know that you are not done yet. You've kicked Death in the bony pelvis before and you can do it again.