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i am the highest weight ive ever been and i look disgusting, genuine double chin and everything, I have to work out and stop eating, food is such a comfort i have to find comfort in bones again

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relapsed.

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cant wait til im down back to 55kg

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AAAAAAAA

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doing this cuz its fun LOL

1. 158cm and 61kg

2. 158cm :3c I wish I was taller,,

3. god I wish I had a flat stomach and visible ribs

4. Constantly dizzy

5. im doing it for me and my crush, I believe I will be more likeable when im thinner, i also want to prove that I can be thinnest in the family and skinny in general.

6. yes, I had BED when i was 14 and its stuck around, im mostly bulimic atm with attempts at restricting

7. they don't know! They just think I randomly lose weight every summer LOL

8. abs and thighs atm, mostly leg lifts, then yoga and anything to help constipation, oh and jumping rope and walking for tons of calories burned

9. god yes, I know I look disgusting when im heavier but damn, can people keep it to themselves...

10. My joy for cooking

11. idk i like any bonespo twitter account :3c

12. Lots of fruits and vegetables, thats the main part of my diet

13. unhealthy LOL, ive never been able to lose weight in a healthy way

14. 45kg, ive had that goal since I was 11 but I hope to reach it this year <3

15. im vegan! been for 7 years now! it def helps me lose weight I think

16. when i was around 10 or 11 :] saw the number 45kg and,, been addicted ever since

17. yes lol

18. fatty foods,, like chips,, i can never stop eating them if I start

19. yesterday :")

20. Mid restriction with a focus on fibres

21. usually small in tops and medium in bottoms atm

22. 46kg :")) damn I miss that weight, i gained because i recovered lol

23. YES, Especially victoria secret models,, and nickelodeon actors were SO thin I was so sad and confused why i didnt look like them

24. I feel like they are for anyone who has an ED and doesnt want to recover yet :]

25. Yes im a big time purger, first times i barely got anything up but felt sooo proud, first time i got most of it up was magical, forever love you carbonated beverages and icecream

26. fitting into clothes and looking amazing, getting compliments, being able to cosplay again and look good, have my mind shut up for once

27. I eated it.... :( or purge/ chew and spit

28. YES! i would love it i would look so gorgeous

29. im actually really accepting of everyone being beautiful :") just not me LOL, for myself ill be beautiful when im skinny

30. i grew up in germany, i own a cat, im the skinniest in my family,im second tallest in my family, im nonbinary and bi, ive never been healthy abt weighloss, im always a big time purger i barely can restrict, i got to my lowest weight by restricting tho, I love doing questionaires all in one go so my stats are still the same, I suffer from OCD which is very related to my ED :]

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i just need to be her

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_kirilova_kat

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Doodled some tasty desserts for a warm up and now I hunger

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hunger is a feeling

skinny is an art

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QUOTES TO MOTIVATE YOU AND ME ALIKE:

❝ You are not a dog. Don't reward yourself with food. ❞

❝ Because everything looks better on skinny girls. ❞

❝ What you eat in private, you wear in public. ❞

❝ Suck it up and one day you won't have to suck it in. ❞

❝ Whatever the problem is, the answer is not in the fridge. ❞

❝ Calories will never make you happy. ❞

❝ Hunger is your friend and it won’t betray you like eating will. ❞

❝ I made myself fat, I can make myself thin. ❞

❝ Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels. ❞

❝ Eating will not solve anything.” ❞

❝ Junk food is cheap but thin is priceless. ❞

❝ You are not hungry, you are bored, learn the difference. ❞

❝ Do not reward yourself with food, you are not a dog. ❞

❝ You’ll never get skinny if you keep on eating. ❞

❝ Hunger hurts, but starving works. ❞

❝ Calories won’t make you happy. ❞

❝ Starving is willpower. ❞

❝ Pleasure to the lips adds pounds to the hips. ❞

❝ Did you chose fat or skinny today? ❞

❝ Hunger will not betray you like eating will. ❞

❝ I'm not losing weight, I'm getting rid of it. I have no intention of finding it again. ❞

❝ Girls don't just simply decide to hate their bodies, we teach them to. ❞

❝ When you feel like quiting, think about why you started. ❞

❝ Your body can stand almost anything. It's your mind you have to convince. ❞

❝ Don't say it didn't work, when in reality, you weren't being consistent. ❞

❝ A month from now... you can either have a month of progress or a month of excuses why you didn't. ❞

❝ The fact that you aren't where you want to be, should be enough motivation. ❞

❝ Do it for yourself. ❞

❝ Please, just don't eat. It's not worth it. You've almost reached your goal, hun. ❞

❝ You need to restrain yourself. It's not that hard, I promise. You'll never get there if you don't. ❞

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She began to be reassured by these pains,tangible symbols of her success in becoming thinner than anyone else. Her only thoughts in her brain was being the voices sayings...

-Don’t eat!! You want to be fat?

-I want thighs that don’t touch...

-Look at yourself in the mirror! Disgusting...your arms and thights...ugh...so chunky...fat pig!!!

-I want my collarbone noticed...

-Don't eat!!!!

-I want ribs that show...

-Don’t eat! You want to be skinny or not?

-I want to be skinny and fragile...

-You can’t handle just a little suffer?worthless...

-I want my spine to stick out..

-Do you know how many calories in that?

-I don’t want to eat.You can’t eat!!!!

-I want both legs to bow...

-Don't EAT YOU DON’T DESERVED!!!!!

Eating becomes a fear, attempts become impossible.The voice inside your head, is overpowering, overwhelming. Nothing comforts your intense anxiety and self hate gone...

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Don’t eat that cookie, Don’t eat that chocolate bar, Don’t eat that cake, Don’t eat those chips just don’t. you’ll end up regretting it. Think of how disgusting you’ll feel after, Think about your thinspo, future outfits for when u reach ur bmi, the attention you’ll get, how happy you’ll be, HOW IN CONTROL YOU WILL BE IF U JUST STAY CONSISTENT!!💗

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keep an open mind and a closed refrigerator.

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You must break the pattern today or the loop will repeat tomorrow…

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you can suck in your stomach, but you can't suck in your thighs, face or arms </3