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i just wish you met me before all these bad things happened to me

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i don't wanna be here anymore.

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I always say “morning” instead of “good morning” because if it was a good morning I would have bled out last night

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I wanna peel my skin off just to stop everything from overwhelming me. I'm either feeling everything at once or nothing at all. What the fuck is wrong with me?

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when the autism is being an actual mental health problem instead of making me obsess over fictional characters again:

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Give her good dick & self confidence

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Microsoft purchased France, and changed its motto to "Liberté, Égalité, Fenêtres."

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Self harm doesn’t always happen when a blade touches skin.

It’s skipping meals because you don’t feel like you deserve to eat today. It’s drinking recklessly because you might have the ‘courage’ do something stupid. It’s smoking - not because you need the nicotine - because you know it’s bad for you. It’s banging your head against a wall when you’re angry. It’s crossing the road without looking because you lowkey hope a car might hit you. It’s thinking about all the ways you could break a bone and make it look like an accident. It’s not taking painkillers because you want to suffer. It’s taking painkillers in excess because you know it’s dangerous. It’s walking home the more dangerous way because you’re kind of half hoping you’ll get attacked or raped or stabbed. It’s going for long walks at night and getting chilled to the bone and hoping that you get lost so that you can’t find your way back. It’s seeking out triggering material. It’s all the stupid little ways you punish yourself for existing.

Sometimes self harm happens when you put effort into depriving yourself of things you like or need, and sometimes it happens when you don’t put any effort into doing the things you like or need.

It’s a pattern of self-destructive behaviour, and it doesn’t only happen in one way.

This sort of behavior is classified as “para-suicidal” It’s putting yourself in a situation of danger or destruction with the intention of risking your safety rather than a direct attempt on your life. Kind of, leaving it all to chance? Also doing things to harm yourself or your self worth because you feel you deserve to feel the outcome of those actions.

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Ah, September! You are the doorway to the season that awakens my soul… but I must confess that I love you only because you are a prelude to my beloved October.

Peggy Toney Horton

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i like those people you can joke around with and have so much fun with and then have a deep conversation with and it’s not weird at all

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“a guy once told me “a man is only insecure about a woman when he knows she deserves better” and that really hit me”

— lieinlove

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Some people turn sad awfully young. No special reason, it seems, but they seem almost to be born that way. They bruise easier, tire faster, cry quicker, remember longer and, as I say, get sadder younger than anyone else in the world. I know, for I’m one of them.

Ray Bradbury

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Clothed Dead Naked female

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looking in the mirror repeating my daily matras

i am hot

i am hairy

i am gay

i am scary