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My lesbian experience with cooking dinner every night

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freud, dostoyevsky and parricide

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think about sibling-centered tragedies too hard and I turn into a mangy dog with rabies

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John Lynch || The Hot Potato (2012)

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Every time I see a duck I think to myself that I want to pick up that duck. There is a sort of quality of the duck that makes it feel like the act of picking up the duck would somehow be analogous to those strange videos where people use knives to cleanly cut through multilayered cakes. There would be a sort of accumulative act even without taking permanent possession of the duck. It would rather be more like pulling the lever on some ancient machine which makes a counter increase by one. The duck is the lever. I hope my meaning is clear to you all?

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while i'm thinking about intimacy and violence and the ways they intersect there's something so compelling to me about allowing someone to hurt you. seeing someone consumed by their rage and pain so completely that it's burning them up from the inside out and saying you need to set this loose before it destroys you. you need to let it out. so give it to me. i can take it. take it out on me. i'm giving you permission. i want you to hit me as hard as you can, for as long as it takes for you need to. the way it blurs the lines between who is the victim and who is the perpetrator. who is in control and who is bowing to whose power and authority. who is truly dependent on whom.

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Angie by Wang Lei and Jiang Kun for Harper’s Bazaar China September 2023

Makeup by Xu Beata. Styled by Frankie Zheng. Hair by Li Jiasu.

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love characters who are like "this is how the world works. this is how it has to be (because if i'm wrong i have to face what i've done // if i'm wrong i have to face whats been done to me) "

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ever since i learned about ghost buildings i haven't been able to stop thinking about them

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pissing you off so you fuck me harder

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The Gazette, Montreal, Quebec, January 10, 1923

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there is nothing more attractive than a silly butch i am so so serious. i would go to war for a butch who is kind of lame

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Jacob Elordi in "Saltburn"

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baby i can be your morally ambiguous person you have an undefined relationship and long and complicated history with who commits crimes and even kills for you so that you don't have to sacrifice your values and your reputation as an upstanding moral citizen by getting your own hands dirty as an act of devotion