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i'm having a difficult night with anxiety, ever since the car accident i've been struggling and i don't like not being with my boyfriend tonight but my mom wanted to watch a movie with me and the separation anxiety is making me really nervous and unsettled :((( send memes? i could really use a distraction and i think writing might help.

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"i mean, yeah. it's pretty much common sense to think of potential consequences of certain things, like what'll happen if you do something illegal, but ... it's different when you're a girl and everyone automatically assumes you're this naive, vulnerable damsel in distress who can barely function or fend for herself and all the SCARY MONSTERS and bad guys are gonna get you the second you step outside. and then they won't let you go anywhere or do anything without a chaperone. what are they gonna do, hire a team of bodyguards to escort me to my car when i'm 30?!" she laughs halfheartedly with a dramatic roll of stormy teal hues, shaking her head. "i just don't wanna go about my life being afraid of everything, you know?" it's a sad way to live. she's watched it turn her own parents into serious paranoia inflicted homebodies, and she refuses the same fate. she's been dollhoused for too long. "people need to start trusting me."

            "i mean... i get it. but maybe a little caution isn't a bad idea?" as someone who lives his life ensnared by fear, it's a little difficult to fully embrace deana's point of view. still, he's trying his best.

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"it's not healthy or normal to live in fear all the time. personally? i am sick to DEATH of hearing 'there are wooolves out there' as an excuse for why i shouldn't live my life. i'm NOT little red riding hood."

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Who was stealing your ocs? :(

so many of those billy hargrove x y/n fic writers. >:( and even more infuriatingly, they KNEW full well they were stealing cindy and did it on purpose, and taunted me about it because i couldn't stop them and they think they get to do whatever they want.

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send a ‘👄 + character name’ and my muse will talk about that character

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SHIPPING MEME.

are you open to on-the-fly shipping with your muse?

what sort of things does your muse look for in a partner?

what sort of things does your muse AVOID in a partner?

what is the lowest and highest age person you’ll ship with your muse?

how easily does your muse fall in love?

has your muse dated before? if so, how long did those relationships usually last?

would your muse ever get married?

does your muse usually take the lead in relationships?

who are some characters you ship your muse with?

do you tend to write more romantic ships, or more platonic and familial ships?

how long does your muse have to know someone before they decide to ask them out?

what is your muse’s love language?

how easily would your muse get over a bad breakup?

does your muse usually plan out dates or go with the flow?

if your muse is uncomfortable in a relationship, will they address the problem or keep quiet?

does your muse believe in soulmates?

would your muse forgive their partner for cheating on them?

how many ships do you currently have with your muse?

is there someone your muse has a crush on, but who you don’t actually have a ship with?

what would push you to drop a ship?

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my boyfriend is going to need a lot of money to get through this and his job isn't enough. if anyone feels kind enough to donate or send any amount of money no matter how small to help us out, we would deeply appreciate it. https://www.paypal.com/pools/c/93SCT3ib6X

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GIFS ARE MINE, PLS GIVE CREDIT! <3

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i wish people would stop bitching and making a big deal about early-20's adults playing teenagers on TV. in the 1980's , 90's and early 2000's, teenagers actually looked like adults. i don't know what they put in our food or the air but if today's actual teenagers were playing teenagers, we would be watching literal 12 year olds and that's kinda not fun and ruins the vibe, it makes the story and the ships etc. not as powerful or believable, most of us don't wanna watch children on a show meant for a slightly more mature age group. it's not that deep you guys. that's just how film and television is done, and it's for a reason. trust the art. you're supposed to see these faces and use your imagination, and they could very well be teenagers because they're young and they're in the story. it's called acting. you guys, it's just a show. personally i don't think there's anything wrong with early 20's adults playing late teens as long as they look young and it's believable.

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Good now, friend! The sun is shining, the tank is clean, and it's Friday! That means it's time for some encouragement. Take things one day at a time. Focus on now and be present in everything today has to offer. It sure sounds silly to say, but breaking things up into easily managed pieces is a huge help. You've done your best to get to today and for that alone I'm proud of you. Your best is good enough, no matter what level it presents. Every step forward is something to be celebrated, so make sure to tell yourself "I did it"! And be proud! I sure as heck am proud of you! Until next Friday; I'm cheering you on as always.  -- 💜💜 Victoria

"Being proud of yourself is not arrogant; It's a sign of self-respect." - Alice Walker

the sun is shining indeed!!! <3 happy monday! it's been a chaotic week but a lot of things happened that reminded me of how important it is to stay present and appreciate the people you love and the good things you have while you have them, because it can all go away in a minute. thank you so much for your positivity and love!!! sending the good vibes right back <3 love you!

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my boyfriend is going to need a lot of money to get through this and his job isn't enough. if anyone feels kind enough to donate or send any amount of money no matter how small to help us out, we would deeply appreciate it. https://www.paypal.com/pools/c/93SCT3ib6X

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sorry i disappeared, i'm going through some serious shit right now. i don't wanna take up the dash but if you see this, please read it because i need all the advice i can get. this is a serious life or death thing. legal shit.

Saturday my boyfriend and I went to the beach, he had a beatbox and some captain morgan there but we left 3 hours later. we went to the mall for food and so i could use a restroom and when he was turning into a parking lot he made a little too wide a turn trying to avoid hitting the curb trying to turn in, and accidentally sideswiped a car that was in his blind spot, and the impact pushed him into another car that was turning out of the parking lot aisle. it was a really shitty situation but even I didn't see the first car on the right of us because i was looking to my right the whole time looking for a place to use the restroom. if i saw danger coming, i would've alerted him. i had to go use a restroom badly so i quickly got out of the car and found one, and i called him on the way so he knew i wasn't abandoning him or fleeing because he gets anxious and he was already scared to death. he wasn't answering his phone and i panicked thinking when i came back he'd be gone. thankfully his sister called me because she didn't know what was happening but he wasn't answering her calls either and she was worried, so i answered and told her what happened and i ran back through macy's and the whole shopping center and i panicked because several police cars were there blocking the whole entry, both parties were snapping pictures with their cell phones and he was sitting on the curb with his hands behind his back. then both parties involved in the accident left. they asked me questions and for my DL, but they didn't test me. and they didn't test anyone else involved in the collision. i told them what i experienced without lying and nothing i said could've gotten him in trouble. there was one cop who appeared to try and distract me from my boyfriend by asking me personal questions, how we met, where we both work, (how was that relevant? he didn't need to know) and i'm sure pumping me for info and dirt he could use against him and being a shark. i didn't take the bait and just "chit chatted" with irrelevant silly stupid things. then they made him take the field sobriety test... not giving him an option to consent or decline... and then they arrested him and took him in the cop car... and the look he gave me when they cuffed him was absolutely gut wrenching, it just broke my heart and i was doing so well keeping my cool no matter how fucking terrified i was but when he looked at me in tears and mouthed "i'm so sorry, i love you", i lost it and started crying.

but here's the thing. they refused to tell him his BAC which is deceptive and also wrong, and they did not test him again when they took him back to the station. they violated his rights by doing that, which can actually be in his favor because they didn't want evidence that he was okay so they could get away with charging him. but can they charge him for DUI with insufficient evidence? also it was pretty weird how both other parties in the accident weren't tested or questioned, they just snapped pics with their cell phones and left so quickly. nobody in the incident was injured. they separated us and wouldn't let us talk to each other, i tried to say something reassuring and a cop asked my name, barked at me and called me out harshly in front of everyone, 2 other guys came and tried to make me get off the curb when they took him in the cop car with handcuffs and when i walked by a cop blocked him so we couldn't make eye contact. i don't know if the guys were civilians or undercover cops but they made me go into starbucks and got me a water and left me there. today he called the DMV for an administration hearing to fight for his license and his mom found a lawyer this morning and made an appointment for them to talk to him at 2 p.m. but it's 5:20 and i haven't heard from him and i'm honestly freaking out but anyway.

i'm so nervous i'm sick to my stomach and i want to scream. i'm so, so afraid of him going to jail, i don't want to lose him but something tells me they're not gonna go easy on him and i've never been more scared of anything in my life. he's a good person, he's the sweetest soul with the biggest heart and he may have done something really stupid by driving drunk but he doesn't deserve this.

what chance does he have? we're in california. could the cops' failure to test him a second time be in his favor? does anyone have any information that could help?

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hi this is cyndi palmer and i love her, you should too

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please reblog if you love oc’s / fully support your oc rp partners 

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NAME? . . . stephanie

PRONOUNS? . . . she / her only !

MOST ACTIVE MUSES? . . . lisa, cyndi, lydia (@bansheas), patti

RP PET PEEVES? . . . the bullying, sending hate, PLAGIARISM / stealing ocs (it's happened to me), taking someone's OC and using it for "x reader / yn" fics, the ostracism / deliberate exclusion if you're not in a "popular" clique, liking someone's starter call but never getting anything ever because i'm not deemed "cool" or popular enough

EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS? . . . 12!

FLUFF, ANGST OR SMUT? . . . anything as long as it's dramatic, something to keep building on, there's chemistry and it makes me feel something.

PLOTS OR MEMES? . . . both are great! memes are fun and have potential to evolve into threads and grow, but plotting is more specific and to the point and we can keep expanding on ideas and those small details and that can be really exciting. i do like direct communication, it's easier for me to process and helps me focus.

TIME TO WRITE? . . . in the early mornings, late evenings or on the days i don't see my boyfriend.

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES? . . . it really depends on the material, what i have inspiration for and how my muses respond to them, but i can promise i will never give you the bare minimum! sometimes i'm "into" more things than others, or another muse is louder, but whatever comes out will be written with pure love.

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S)? . . . cyndi, lisa, lydia and jane in different ways. cyndi with her sensitivity, intuition, obsession with beauty / fashion, her dreaminess and energy, her creative way of looking at things and how "venusian" she really is - she has aphrodite / venus vibes in the way she does everything with love. she has this deeply sensitive piscean energy that i vibe with. also she's got a thing for the "bad boys" and hahaha yep :))) lydia with her infinite levels of sass, bougie princess attitude, to-the-point straightforwardness, drama, "extra"-ness, high standards, can be a little bit of a brat when she doesn't get her way, knows what she wants and won't stop until she gets it but also highly sensitive and cares deeply for the people closest to her, and scary intelligent in a way that intimidates most of her peers. jane in the sense of being "different", the experience of having been bullied, having psychic abilities, being smarter and stronger than most "adults" give her credit for. she can seem superficial but she really isn't at heart. she has a way of "seeing through" people and knowing their secrets. yeah.... same. that's why i was drawn to these characters, i can relate. malia because she's a little socially "behind" after such a very different life experience and missing out on key adolescent milestones but also doesn't care about social norms, very blunt and has her own way of making sense of the world and other people, does and says what makes sense to her, a little rebellious, a little moody and mysterious but also funny, still healing from trauma that colored her life in every way but finding herself and knowing she can still have a good life. devi because she's always getting into one mess after another but still manages to have a good sense of humor about it. i would say loryn from valley girl, too, being a hopeless romantic but no one really knows who she is so i removed her from my muse list. cassie for having a big heart that's easily hurt, very emotional and sensitive, being a "lover girl". patricia for craving something different, adventure, wanting to live on the edge and have a taste of forbidden fruit, mystic psychic vibes.

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