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girlfriend who GETS the TV static. Youre telling me youve never seen it dance? Youve never seen patterns in the interference? Your girlfriend has never been so excited when she points and says "LOOK LOOK LOOK" and you see it too but you dont know what it is? Youve never felt it tap into the senses you didnt know you had and all the memories come flooding back of your life in 8 dimensions?

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Sex Isn't Real And You Can't Have It

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Claus Johansen - Solopgang (1921)

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I wish I was a cis girl because I would be a really good ally

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Visible Spectrum

digital illustration/collage/SSTV scans

(2024)

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i was tagged by the loveliest @pinkmoondoll9shihtzu, thank you so much ♡ ∿ last song: "shine (glimmer)" by oxbow. favorite color: i've been working with primary blue (0000FF) and black as my favorite colors for half of my life at this point, and it shows. last TV show: i got a dropout subscription recently and have been chipping away at watching episodes of whatever at random, so kinda a selection of the whole platform i guess. last movie: i rewatched wes anderson's fantastic mr. fox last night, a movie i'm mostly into for the filmmaking than the substance itself. i was dared to record a minecraft movie on VHS tape, and it's currently playing in the background, along with "shine," being transferred in real time without me paying much attention to it, but it's absorbing itself into my subconscious before the proper watch. last book: in my attempts to try and fuel inspiration for photography again, i bought a beat-up copy of digital diaries by natacha merritt, the first photography book exclusively containing digicam pictures as far as i know, and they're all nudes. as far as novels are concerned, i finally was prescribed stimulants a few months ago and they're working so smoothly, so i feel interested and capable of trying to focus on a narrative book again, but i think the last time i finished one was norwegian wood by haruki murakami, and that was three years ago at this point. favorite flavor: i've barely publicized my experiences with disordered eating over the past year, but flavors are still weirdly intimidating! it's a hard thing to describe how hard it is to choose one. tea or coffee: tea! bottoming with a caffeine sensitivity makes that an easy choice. relationship status: partnered in an open relationship ♡ neurodivergent transfemmes apathetic towards their own genders will spark the world some day or another. last thing i googled: my attempt of spelling murakami's name to make sure it was correct . . . and it wasn't >:) looking forward to: i've slowly been surely been picking up the pieces of my life and brain and body again, and simmering in the process has proven itself to be surprisingly but naturally effective, so i'm just looking forward to hang out, to be honest.

i tag hmmmm ummmm @love-lich @landfill2007 @adelinadzhedivna @askefraskoven, if y'all want to!

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Zhu Xinyu (朱新宇) — A Night Without Words (oil on linen, 2024)

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"You survive this and in some terrible way, which I suppose no one can ever describe, you are compelled, you are corralled, you are bullwhipped into dealing with whatever it is that hurt you. And what is crucial here is that if it hurt you, that is not what’s important. Everybody’s hurt. What is important, what corrals you, what bullwhips you, what drives you, torments you, is that you must find some way of using this to connect you with everyone else alive. This is all you have to do it with. You must understand that your pain is trivial except insofar as you can use it to connect with other people’s pain; and insofar as you can do that with your pain, you can be released from it, and then hopefully it works the other way around too; insofar as I can tell you what it is to suffer, perhaps I can help you to suffer less."

- James Baldwin, The Artist's Struggle for Integrity

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Persona (1966), dir. Ingmar Bergman

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I creased in laughter.

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