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Not going cold turkey off my risperidone but considering tapering on my own. I've gone without a dose all day after a night shift and I've felt so uncomfortable and foggy without it. I don't know what I need at this point. Everyone calls it a chemical lobotomy but I feel stupider without it in this moment. I just don't know what I need. Going to take 1mg tonight and see what happens

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Its too hot to go out and swing do instead I'm nipping at the heels of anyone that dare come near my cage. Pacing back and forth. And other antagonistic behaviours

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This was my sound of the summer last year. And maybe this year as well

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Finally bought black out curtains after a year of working night shift with nothing to block out the light in our bedroom. Hopefully it will block out some of the heat in the daytime as well

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Mixing things up by doing my shot a day early. Why not, what's there to lose. I'm it, baby. That's life

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In case anyone was wondering, Larry is the happiest most loved and cherished old man cat there is. Here he just got a bath

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Like the days are too damn long

I low-key miss the cover of the night starting at 7pm. Lolllllllllll

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I low-key miss the cover of the night starting at 7pm. Lolllllllllll

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Scrapie, even.

Chronic wasting disease

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I honestly belong in a fucking sterile laboratory but I became a nurse instead. Fuck me

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Chronic wasting disease

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Also there's this behavioral staff member that always shows up completely fried but she's the most experience and often most competent person in the room at all times so I turn a blind eye to it. Go girl do your thang. Youre braver than I am

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Gay guy wearing headphones on grindr image meme

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The majority of work we do is Good and Needed but what's nagging at me is how we treat this one kid with high support needs autism and aggression who also happens to be over 6' and 250lbs and has caused over 50 (reported) staff injuries in the two months he's been with us. His mom doesn't want him back so he's basically stuck in limbo with us because no where will take him due to how aggressive and strong he is. We basically keep him in one hallway where his bedroom is so he doesn't harm other kids or staff and whenever he leaves his designated hallway we often resort to restraining him. Hes unhappy being here and always asks to go home, which is probably the best place for him but his mom just doesn't want him. It breaks my heart because he can't help how tall and large he is and the way staff have to treat him like he's constantly a safety hazard (which to be fair, he is) means he receives limited positive attention of affection of any sort. It's just heart breaking. I'm not going to act like I'm mother Theresa and that I could get on his level and talk to him in a way where he won't harm me, because he's tried before. But it's just a tough situation. I feel a lot of conflict about how we are asked to approach these kids. We wear PPE like kevlar sleeves and helmets to protect us from injury and end up looking like riot police when we go to interact with these kids. It just doesn't feel right to me, when I'm trying to talk to a child going through a difficult time and I'm dressed like a soldier would be. It's not a way to build rapport or trust, assuming that these kids can understand that (I feel like the majority of them can). I don't know. I really like my job but I often go without wearing PPE and experienced staff will side eye me. Maybe I'm too soft for this world

I'm experiencing moral conflict about my job

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I'm experiencing moral conflict about my job

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I love being 24 in my bedroom