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— Franz Kafka, Letters to Milena

[text ID: I wish the world were ending tomorrow. Then I could take the next train, arrive at your doorstep in Vienna, and say, 'Come with me, Milena. We are going to love each other without scruples or fears or restraint because the world is ending tomorrow.' ]

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― Franz Kafka, Letters to Felice‎

[text ID: I mustn't look at you too much, or I won't be able to take my eyes off you at all.]

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“You will freeze in place if you remain this way. You must not, dear. You have to move.”

— Rainer Marie Rilke, letter to Sidonie Nádherná von Borutín, August 1, 1913, translated by Ulrich Baer

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Ottessa Moshfegh, My Year of Rest and Relaxation

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— Haruki Murakami, 1Q84

[text ID: We cannot simply sit and stare at our wounds forever. We must stand up and move on to the next action.]

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more on my substack <3

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at night I wake up and have nightmares. The nightmares that were gone 2 years ago. Remember how I would tell you I had nightmares because you didn’t give me a hug goodnight.

They’re back again.

Every morning I wake up anxious and uneasy. I’m scared of life without you. I’m so so so scared.

I love you. I’ll pull through and take care of myself. This I promise you.

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“가지마”

“안갈래”

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I gave you all I had to lose

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Love really isn’t the same without you.

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“I just want to see you smiling and cheerful like you always were.”

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why didn’t you say goodbye

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Anger…and a whole fucking lot of pain.

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i mean, isn’t that what most of us want in the end? to have someone not look away?

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that’s the thing about growth isn’t it? you can’t just have some massive breakthrough and think you’ve completely turned around. You have to consistently put in effort. To change your old ways and habits.

You have to suffer and choose the choices that are a little less wrong, everyday.

And hopefully, one day, we won’t feel like this anymore.

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“will you miss me?”

*nods*

“can I kidnap you?”

*nods*

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damn. I really dont give a fuck huh? progression and growth is just a fucking scam