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[vent14124114]

Renee Herbert

IG: ReneeHerbert_

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12.17-12.22

buy

turkey breast, avocado, hashbrown, feta, corn tortilla (60per), salad

Sun - 12.17.23

Soy cap (60)

2oz feta (140)

2 egg (160)

oil (20)

2 corn tortilla (120)

100g avocado (160)

*600

two slices whole wheat (160)

50g brie (167)

2oz turkey (60)

apple, mustard, arugula (30)

*560

shortbread (200)

iced coffee

= 1220

Mon - 12.18.23

soy cappucino (60)

x2 hashbrown (240)

100g avocado (160)

1 slice whole wheat (80)

18g jalapeno lime crunch (110)

lime, cilantro

*650

만두국 (500)

30g choco (160)

*660

= 1310

tues- 12.19.23

grocery shop in the morning

Soymilk cap (60)

100g banana (90)

16g PB (90)

*240

wed

Thurs - 12.21.23

Soy cap (60)

2oz feta (140)

2 egg (160)

oil (20)

2 corn tortilla (120)

100g avocado (160)

*600

chicken soup (boil in morning, have for dinner)

*500

Fri - 12.22.23

2oz feta (140)

3 egg (210)

oil (20)

2 corn tortilla (120)

*490

chicken soup (300)

*300

gingersnap (30)

snowball (120)

macaron (160)

linzer (150)

half a sugar cookie (80)

half a tahini choco chip (80)

thumbprint (100)

*690

=1480

Potato, chicken breast

Buy beef kebab(220), cuke/tomato

Salad, chicken shawarma

만두국

Chicken soup

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Current goal: ~1lb/wk

By Aug 19, 117

By Oct 23, 110

reasons

Dr said it will reduce scar appearance

To shrink my boobs!!!

Imagine tiny Keira Knightley boobs

Wear teeny tiny swimsuits

Wear tiny crop tops in summer

Get that androgynous look

To shrink my boobs

Look good in ic's grad pics (April, May)

Look hot and buy whatever clothes I want in Asi

Buy any clothes and they look good

Center on adding and maximizing enjoyment of food

ADD: veggies, fruits, whole proteins

Be mindful with: drinks, desserts, processed foods

How to enjoy food?

Mindful eating

Put everything on a plate to savour it

Consider whether more than one bite will actually give you pleasure (taste, not binge)

At least a few bites with no phone

Be hungry before eating (food tastes better)

Control portion size

Make sure to eat to satiety-- hungry after meal means binge later. If truly hungry, eat more.

S

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Wk 12.8-12.16

1920, 1540, 1060, 1320, 1370, 1340

fri - 12.8.23

Hojicha (70)

라면 +misc (400)

Mnm (70)

*540

Half not fried chicken sandwich (480)

Chicken lemon farro soup (300)

*780

Pudding (400)

Snacks (100)

Choco (100)

*600

=1920

sat - 12.9.23

iced gingerbread (170)

Cheese ball (80)

*250

Shrimp gyoza (220)

Shrimp toast (120)

Tofu (70)

Lamb dumplings (300)

Noodles (50)

*760

Sulbing (450)

*450

15g choco (80)

=1540

sun - 12.10.23

Soy cap (60)

Steamed egg (210)

*270

protein shake (150)

Farro (300)

56g spam (180)

*630

rice krispie (130)

persimmon (30)

iced coffee

*160

=1060

mon - 12.11.23

Soy cap (60)

*60

tortellini (300)

Greens (5)

Tomato (15)

1/3c farro (110)

*430

Matcha latte

*140

Chicken soup (400)

Olive bread half (100)

Icecream (90)

Tea

Cookie (90)

*680

= 1320

tues- 12.12.23

Soymilk cap (60)

100g banana (90)

16g PB (90)

*240

1 steam egg (80)

chorizo greens (40)

half shrimp pouches (240)

140g orange (70)

*430

chicken soup (350)

olive bread (100)

peppermint cone (90)

yogurt (160)

*700

= 1370

wed - 12.13.23

waffle (200)

half teacake (150)

almond milk sweet latte (180)

*530

Drink slushy (100)

*100

Tortellini (300)

carrots (60)

Chicken thigh (200)

*560

=1330

thurs - 12.14.23

protein shake cap

*150

chia pudding (180)

30g bloob (15)

7g coconut (30)

1.5 steamed eggs (120)

*340

32g french shortbread (160)

=

fri - 12.15.23

Soy cap (60)

100g banana (90)

16g PB (90)

*240

double meat single cheese (580)

*580

~6oz breast meat (260)

half 햇반 (170)

= 1250

sat - 12.16.23

eat out - 1100

2 steamed egg (160)

15g choco (80)

= 1340

CHIA PUDDING (175)

28g chia seed (140)

Almond milk 1/2c (15)

7g honey (20)

BANANA PANCAKE (355)

41g dry oat (150)

Egg (80)

100g banana (90)

Baking powder tsp (15)

Spray oil (20)

CHEESE PLATE (310)

Crackers, 5 (100)

28g brie (100)

200g tomato (40)

30g Blue cheese olives (50)

Costco olive (20)

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12.1-12.7

1750, 1910, 2240, 2000, 1300, 1490, 1400

12.1.23

Coffee

Yogurt bowl w bloob n granola (200)

Goldfish (150)

Peppermint cones x2 (160)

Rice and bean soup (500)

Almonds (100)

만두국 (450)

찰떡파이 (150)

Cotton candy (40)

=1750

12.2.23

Coffee

Squiggly knife cut noodle (300)

Egg (60)

Cabbage (50)

Chorizo (50)

Chili oil (100)

560

Mini cookie (70)

Almond (30)

Tea

100

x4 blue cheese olives (60)

brie (90)

Apple (40)

Olive (20)

210

Bean n rice soup (450)

Cookie (100)

Almond (70)

Popcorn (100)

Cone (80)

Popcorners (140)

=1910

12.3

2 eggs scrambled w tomato (200)

Latte (160)

360

Squiggly noods w sesame oil (330)

Soyrizo (50)

Egg (70)

450

Cones (160)

Desserts (400)

Pizza (600)

Choc oatmilk latte (140)

Almonds (60)

Snack (70)

2240

12.3.23

공감 (90)

Soy milk cappucino (60)

150

Tomato egg (250)

Farro salad (250)

Mnm (140)

640

3 tacos (600)

Milk tea half half

600

1400

12.7.23

Farro salad (300)

Salmon (125)

Egg (90)

Mnm (140)

655

Almond (40)

Protein shake (150)

190

만두국 (500)

Tiramisu bits (60)

Guac (90)

=1490

12.7.23

Soy hojicha (150)

Farro (300)

Guac (90)

Tomato n orange (60)

600

Cabbage (150)

Brussels (150)

Tortellini (300)

600

Mnms(140)

Almonds (60)

200

=1400

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Lunch ideas

- Miso branzino, rice, smashed cucumber, roasted eggplant

Channa masala, yogurt, roasted eggplant, cuke tomato salad

Chicken thigh, roasted potato n carrot

Farro/squash/onion/parsley, braised kale,

Shakshuka

Yogurt frittata (need to try out), w feta, spinach, onion

Chicken soup

Black bean stew w soyrizo, corn salad,

Bacon okinomoyaki (small), soy sesame salad, pickles

Crispy chicken thigh w cabbage and bacon, white bean salad

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I am not going to count while out for the next month and half. I'm going to eat delicious things.

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8.9-8.14 (wed-mon_

~1000cal avg

8.15-8.21 (Tues-mon)

~1400cal, 64g

x3 workouts

8.22-9.5

Craziness, I felt so hungry and crazy

I think my period must be coming, ate whatever Ip wanted (also NM)

9.6 - fuck, I'm in NYC in three weeks!!! How did I get to 140?!

- limit snack, drink, and meal size

9.13 - turns out the weight gain was just period bloat, and we're back on track. also my breast surgery was scheduled!!!!!!!!! October 26 baby!!!!! i weighed in at 136.5, let's see if we can hit the 129 :)) go on walks!

9.20 - good work, keep it up. Want to hit 129 (and ideally 127)

Went to NYC, XD I'm at 140, JK it was bloat I'm at 137.5 (probs gained 1-1.5lb while eating like crazy in NYC for 10 days which is honestly not bad)

✅10.6

김치찌개 and 밥, twice (500)

Popchips (130)

유부초밥

Bean shakshuka (400)

Apple (60)

Popcorn (150)

Chocolate (600), lol

✅10.7

Matcha latte (50)

Dim sum

Charcuterie

Alcohol and snacks 😭

✅Sun 10.8

1/2 vada, 1/2 dosa, idli, chutneys (800)

Sulbing (500)

Goldfish (120)

Lemon yuzu (200)

Chicken wings (300)

Tuna cabbage thing (150)

Corn cheesecake (200)

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9.24-25

Sun 9.24 (~1220)

Cinnamon latte (300)

Kale n squash (200)

Avo (60)

Egg (80)

Popchip (130)

Oatmilk (50)

Tomato sandwich (350)

Watermelon (50)

Mon 9.25

Tofu (160)

watermelon (70)

Sausage (70)

Passion fruit bite (80)

Coffee

Poky (200)

Rice cake (60)

Cheese (20)

Chicken (350)

Tomato (50)

Watermelon (60)

Tues 9.26

Starbucks (150)

Burrito (1500)

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9.17-9.23

✅Sun 9.17

3 eggs scrambled (230)

Almond milk latte (150)

Pastries (500)

Protein shake (150)

Bread n butter (400)

✅Mon 9.18

Chaat

미역국/밥 etc

Cake

✅Tues 9.19 (~1300)

11:30 dentist

Random stuff

✅Wed 9.20

Cortado (40)

Mochi waffle (220)

2 eggs n tomatoes (200)

Protein shake (150)

Dinner

✅Thurs 9.21 (~1700, I was hungry)

salad w avo, tomato, turkey (250)

Tofu w ground beef (150)

Sausage (80)

바밤바 (100)

고구마 (250)

Protein shake (150)

Pop chips (140)

Pocky (200)

Seaweed soup n rice (230)

Pumpkin cone (90)

Chocolate (70)

✅Fri 9.22 (~1450)

Tomato sandwich (330)

Tofu (70)

Olipop (35)

Sweet potato (150)

Coffee

Popchip (130)

Protein shake (150)

Braised kale (150)

delicata squash (50)

Smoked salmon (100)

Cone (90)

Olipop (40)

Popcorn (100)

Salami (60)

Raspberries (50)

Sat 9.23

Olipop (40)

Ediya (100)

Cheese (100)

Dinner w s

Drinks

Dessert

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9.10-9.16

✅Sun 9.10

Sherina pancakes (900)

Matcha latte (150)

Protein shake (170)

Chicken sausage (120)

Pumpkin cone (90)

Cottage cheese (100)

✅mon 9.11

✅Lunch

Gyudon leftover w egg

Chomps stick (60)

Coffee

✅Dinner

Italian chopped salad

Olive bread

Fudge bar (100)

Coffee x2

Rice cake thin (60)

✅tues 9.12

✅Lunch

Burger salad

Figs

바밤바 (100)

Chomps (60)

Coffee

✅Dinner

Sausage ttteok stirfry

Leftover salad

Grapes

Pumpkin cone (90)

Blueberries n Greek yogurt (100)

Rice cake thin (60)

Coffee

✅Wed 9.13 (1300)

✅Lunch

Macchiato (50)

Half cocoa biscuit (300)

Half cheddar monkey bread (300)

✅Dinner

Buldak (220)

Top w egg (160)

Ground beef (100)

Zucchini (30)

blueberries (50)

Pumpkin cone (90)

✅thurs 9.14 (~1250)

✅Lunch

Grapes (80)

Hotdog (500)

Lemonade (15)

Protein shake (150)

✅Dinner

Buldak (220)

W 1 egg (80)

Ground beef (50)

Zucchini (30)

바밤바 (100)

fri 9.15

✅Lunch

Sausage spring roll salad

Protein shake (150)

pop chips (130)

Coffee

Chloe ting

✅Dinner

Shakshuka

sausage n broccolini

fresh bread

바밤바 (100)

✅sat 9.16

peach oolong tea

Leftovers

Bday dinner

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Sun-sat 9.3-9.9

✅Sun 9.3

✅Lunch

Breakfast sandwich

Hash brown

Canele + coffee

✅Dinner

된장 fish

Smashed cucumber

Tea rice

Choux w fig and cream

✅Mon 9.4

Egg salad

Tomato sandwich

Cup ramen

Ube mochi

엄마아빠 brunch leftovers

Watermelon

Protein shake

✅Tues 9.5

✅Lunch

Breakfast sandwich w salsa

Hashbrown

Tomato cuke salad

Mini cookies

✅Dinner

고추장 chicken

밥

Choux w blueberry and whip cream

Ice cream

Popcorn with butter

Watermelon

Spoonfuls of frosting

✅Wed 9.6

✅Lunch

Dr.ink, and pastry (500)

egg w chorizo, spinach, mushroom

Half of olive bread

Black coffee

✅Dinner

순두부찌개 (300)

밥 (200)

Shrimp (250)

Black coffee

watermelon

popcorn

✅Thurs 9.7 to

✅Lunch

Black coffee

Spam/chicken spring rolls

Cabbage salad

Starbucks apple oatmilk shaken (120)

Popcorn (200)

✅Dinner

Gyudon

밥

Roasted broccoli

Choux w roasted figs and cream

Black coffee

Chicken broth

Yep, period came

Fri 9.8

✅Lunch

Coconut shrimp x4 (250)

Cabbage salad

Leftover 순두부 and 밥

Black coffee

Blueberries

Venti almond milk shaken (150)

✅Dinner

chorizo, spinach, onion, beans stew

Roasted fingerlings

Blueberries n lil whip (60)

Protein shake (170)

sat 9.9 (1600)

✅Lunch

Toast with peanut butter and jam (300)

Chocolate latte (350)

Egg drop soup (120)

Croissant (160)

Sardine (40)

✅Dinner

Pizza (350)

Blueberries (40)

Popcorn (250)

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8.9.23-8.15.23

Wed (300)

Yogurt bowl w blueberries n cereal (300)

Thurs (800)

2 tortilla, 1/2 avocado (150)

4 olives (120)

1/2 container coconut water (80)

1/2 짜장면 (330)

Egg yolk taste test (150)

Fri (~2000)

- 3 tortilla (150)

One avocado (120)

Sweet potato puree/yolk (100)

Salad (100)

Soup w yogurt (100)

Bread (250)

Potato (150)

Mush tortellini (200)

Shaved strawberry

Choux (350)

Few glasses of wine, cup of soda (500)

Sat (1440)

1 corn tortilla w chili oil (80)

Little almond milk w sweet (50)

2/3 짜장면 (460)

Choux (350)

Pine nuts (100)

Quesadilla (230)

Peach n prosciutto (170)

Sun (300)

Honey haze(300)

Mon

Let's not be stupid -- have food, focus on protein and veg, try to limit stupid snacking and dessert

Egg white scramble with cheese and herbs

Pasta, salad

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8.15.23-8.21.23

화요일

250 egg white scramble w butter parmesan chives (25g)

190 Protein shake (30g)

200 붕어빵

700? 감자짜글이 and 밥 and 김치전 (9g)

150 Greek yogurt ranch (18g)

Cherry tomato, pepperoncini

=83g, 1490

수요일

lele, 10g

Protein shake (30g)

Salad, chickenless wrap, rotisserie chicken (25g)

= 65g

목요일

300 Kimbap (8g)

190 Protein shake, blended w ice (30g)

600 감자짜글이 and 밥, (9g)

100 misc fruit

50 cottage cheese (6g)

1240

=55g

금요일

Coffee + half egg sando (10g)

600 chicken + salad (20g)

170 protein shake (26g)

1470

=56g

토요일

160 Egg salad (16g)

Black coffee

200 1/3 cookie

900 Hummus and pita (15g)

1260

=30g

일요일

120 Greek yogurt and blueberries (18g)

1000 Tartine, wintermelon tea (5g)

180 2 egg salad (15g)

170 Protein shake (26g)

134 2oz rotisserie chicken (15g)

1600

= 74g

월요일

220 1.5 egg salad (9g)

110 Toast (4g)

50 cottage cheese (6g)

150 Melon

70 붕어빵 반

160 ghost chips ahoy (25g)

400 3 spring rolls (20g)

50 국화빵

125 twix

100 2oz chicken breast (18g)

50 misc

150 tomato toast (4g)

1635

=87g

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I'm going to be sick

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We're getting dinner together soon and I'm 😶🤠🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡👹

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On the other hand I genuinely think my friends are so so beautiful, not just because of their face but because their essence sings out from their skin and I can feel their beauty all the time. I know this because I love them, and I know they love me and therefore likely think the same thing of me. However I'm a horrid selfish arrogant person and in the end the opinion I value the most highly is my own, and when I think I am ugly there is no one who can convince me otherwise. So at any rate I never say these things out loud because that would be pathetic and I KNOW they will tell me I'm beautiful and extol upon my virtues but I also know that I will think they are lying to me.

And it bothers me too, that I place so much value on a temporary trait like physical beauty; in theory I preach body neutrality and I dislike that beauty holds so much sway on society and I want people to be treated the same no matter how they look. I disavow beauty as a trait by which to measure value, but the social conditioning is stronger than I am. Because no matter how much I believe and say those things, I still want to be beautiful.