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tangina bakit ikaw? bakit ikaw binigay sakin ni Lord!!!!

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getting flashbacks again.

but nope, we don’t deserve a song to celebrate our love. you no longer deserve any word from me. any access on how I’m doing.

best believe im trying my real best to stay in the no contact era.

im no longer sad. whatever im feeling is pain. and tho it don’t hurt that much anymore, my heart is still in pain.

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Let’s try whispering this time.

October 2022, please be a good one.

Please take all my sadness and pain away.

For a while, please stop making me feel so betrayed.

Please?

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I didn’t went through hell just to experience you again. 

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write. write everything down.

when there’s a lot going on in your head, write it.

when you can’t sleep. write about it.

when you feel like sharing things to a friend, write it instead.

write with all honesty. write will all your heart.

until you run out of words.

until you stop.

one day you’ll get surprise of how beautifully that pain transformed you.

just don’t go back to what God saved you from.

promise me!

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hate to break it to you but fuck

IM NOT ONE OF THOSE U DATED JUST FOR FUN AND CONVENIENCE

Its gonna be the last fucking hurt im getting from you.

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ended a month and started a new one

an almost 3 hour park ride that made me thank myself for choosing to fucking let go. paulit ulit. 🥺❤️

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an august 22 to remember

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and if eating alone this late comes with so much peace then im fine with it

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August 15, 2022

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but atleast it’s less painful now.

still a progress.

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August 1, 2022

“In a rate of 1-10, how good are you?” “Five”

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July 27, 2022

Hi Journal,

It's currently 7PM and here I am in Starbucks, Bagumbayan. With the Ex. He was the one who escorted my tita to the airport and I was the one who endorsed him to the fam so here ya go. 

Good thing I brought my laptop with me so I was able to finish encoding. Would like to encode more but I'll be going back na lang cos it's so chill in here.

Today's realization: 

People can lie to your face. Even those who you dearly love. Sadly, they are the ones who can straight lie to your face pa nga.

Jake Cuenca mentioned he never got back to his exes and now I know why. Once a chapter has ended, there's no turning back. 

People move on in different ways and I'm still finding out mine. Before, I used to be cool with still being connected to people who hurt me and did me wrong but this time, I wanna quit that. I wanna be the one who walks away this time. The one who stays mad. The one who gives the distance. The one who does not give a fuck. And it's hard. Fucking hard.

I wish I have the strength to hate people so much that I no longer care what and how they're doing. I wish I can hate this guy in Infront of me so I won't no longer miss him. 

I don't wanna be around someone who keeps manipulating me. Who keeps lying to my face just because he isn't aware I know half of his shit. 

Universe, please help me with this. Please help me be so done. Please help me empty my feelings so I can fully detach now. I wanna be able to look at him and feel nothing anymore. It's been 2 months since the breakup and somehow the feelings lessen naman. But I don't want it to lessen. I want it empty.

Steps to do so:

1. Fully return his investments.

2. Logged out of my dump account that sees everything he's doing. DELETE PICTURES. 

3. Journal every day.

4. Involve me in physical activity.

5. Get disconnected from him. FULLY.

It's draining and sad to love a guy incapable of analyzing his feelings. Whose is never honest even to himself. It's heartbreaking to love a guy who does not understand you. Chooses not to.

K**t, may you get what you deserve. May you find someone who teaches you the lesson of life. That hurting and playing girls around isn't cute. May all the pain you give me and the other ones return to you. This isn't me wishing you bad, but it's me wishing you to finally learn your lesson when it comes to love. 

May the "what goes around, comes around" hit you so fucking hard. 

I lost a big part of me when I decided to share it with you and I'll do my best to get it back. Here's to no longer catching my breath on midnights cause my instincts keep messing with me.

Here's to waking up in the morning feeling free cause there's no one lying and worse, cheating on me.

Here's to no longer getting bothered over someone who doesn't have Facebook and someone who follows multiple girls on Instagram. Go fuck your life and like all those sexy pictures.

Here's to focusing on myself moreeeeee.

Here's to finding a greater love.

I'll forever remember you thru sunset, moon, and city lights, and here's to never taking pictures of them anymore.

Here's to our end game ;)

No longer your muse,

Gianne

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I dont wanna go back here cos everytime i do, i know its bad.

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08.10.21

hello tumblr, my safe space.

it’s currently  1:19 am and i just had my 4th cup of coffee since this morning.

i just posted a pic on my insta feed, a silly video on my ig and fb story and i feel so loud rn. 

I also stumbled upon my story archives and God i missed pre-covid era.

what if covid never happened? nasan na kaya tayo no?

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ayoko na naman sa tao :(