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* WHICH GREEK GOD / GODDESS DO YOU REFLECT THE MOST?
LANEY’S RESULT: APOLLO
Apollo has been variously recognized as a god of music, truth and prophecy, healing, the sun and light, plague, poetry, and more. The twin brother of Artemis. He is loyal, fierce, and headstrong. Despite traits such as impulsiveness, he is rather intelligent and graceful.
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❛ i used to be like you. like an exposed nerve of a broken tooth. i used anything i could to insulate:
music, drugs, booze, anything to keep me separated from the rest of the world. i felt too sensitive
for this world. so i made armor, i built barriers and walls and eventually i felt protected. i felt safe.
but i had also never felt so completely ALONE. ⓒ ⓒ
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“She is like a saguaro, a fine and beautiful cactus that lives in the desert. Saguaros can be shot full of holes, carved upon, knocked over, stepped on, and still they live, still they store life-giving water, still they grow wild and repair themselves over time.”
— Clarissa Pinkola Estés, from “Women who Run with the Wolves,” c. 1992
(via violentwavesofemotion)
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👫 - laney
send 👫 for four headcanons about our muse’s relationship.
i. god neither pat nor i expected this from their first interaction, but laney’s like her little sister at this point. her annoying little sister who pisses the fuck out of her sometimes but who she would do anything to protect. there’s just something about how young laney is in the middle of all of this and how good her heart is despite all the shit life’s throwing her way that made pat love her way more than she ever thought she would when they met at gus’s funeral.
ii. pat’s so protective of laney and she would do anything to keep her safe, but she also grew up with people underestimating and doubting her and her abilities so badly she just can’t bring herself to do the same thing to laney or anyone. if laney has a risky idea or wants to help with something that’s potentially dangerous she’ll at least listen and consider it. she wouldn’t put laney in a highly dangerous situation but she trusts laney when she says she can handle something.
iii. pat teaching laney how to shoot or fight though!!!! showing her that being small doesn’t make you a bad fighter and how to know your strengths and use certain weaknesses to your advantage. pat’s a good teacher and she believes everyone should know at least the basics of self defense.
iv. the fact that laney is pretty much the only person pat can really open up with about gus and how much she misses him makes me so weak honestly. gus meant so much for her and now he’s dead and she’s not allowed to mourn him the way she needs to, she’s not allowed to even let people know she’s mourning at all and laney’s one of the only exceptions to that rule. of course it comes with its share of guilt since pat knows what he did to victor and is hiding that from laney, but it’s so important to her to have a friend she can freely talk to about gus and tell stories about him and just, talk about how much she misses him. laney’s one of the only people pat can talk to about that whole part of her life and it’s not so easy to earn her trust, but laney’s definitely done it.
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FOUR DAYS have passed since she learned that Victor would never be coming home, because of the man she once adored like a second father. The man whom Victor likely felt the same way about, until that man opened his throat.
It's with reddened eyes that Laney looks up at Pat, ripping her gaze from the red stained cloth, still slightly visible through the bandage. There are no more tears this time, though- she's cried a thousand times over the past few days, since the last time she spoke to Pat, and she wonders if there's even anything left. She doesn't look away the way she usually does when Pat confronts her over something like this, but instead stares, her jaw set in a hard line.
“ You first. I know Victor's life meant nothing to you, so why does mine? Why not just let me bleed out right here? That would be better than making me live with this. ” She speaks monotonously, detached and cold. “ You'd deserve it. To lose someone because of him like I did. ”
@verdantdesert said: CLOTH : bandaging a wound / i love you prompts.
THE MERE SIGHT of that tattoo, so similar to her own, brings pat pain. it does since the very first day laney had gotten it, and it wasn’t the place nor the time to tell laney that the person she’d gotten a tattoo in memory of was her cousin’s KILLER. now she realizes there's no such thing as a right place or a right time for that.
the initial fear of seeing laney bleeding had worn off upon expecting the wound —— deeper than the girl had probably intended, but not so deep that it’ll need stitches or medical attention. pat has laney hold a piece of cloth to it as she prepares some gauze with cleaning solution, then gently moves her hands away as she starts to work on it; starting on the outsides and slowly making her way towards the center of it.
❛ you wanna tell me what the fuck you were thinking? ❜
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PAT NODS, some relief starting to take place inside of her. only a glimpse of the truck shouldn’t be a problem, especially since this truck will be gone from the face of the earth by the end of the day. and they didn’t see laney. she’s alive and okay. right now, that’s the most important thing for pat.
❛ it’s okay. i’ll deal with the truck. ❜ pat’s thumb draws small circles on the skin of laney’s wrist, hoping to soothe her a little bit. she draws in a deep breath. laney’s counting on her to know what to do right now, to give her guidance like pat was given by gus. now's not the time to freak out.
❛ look, you have work tomorrow at the car wash. i know it’s hard, but you’re gonna be there like it’s just a regular day. you’re gonna say hi to walter and your coworkers, smile at costumers, chat with your boyfriend, whatever you do everyday. this never happened. you got that? ❜
“ YEAH- I got it. ” It's so much easier, sometimes, to just listen and follow orders- Laney hadn't realized how much she missed having an adult around who knew what to do, who wasn't such a fuck-up like her. “ I mean, now I know my boss- my goddamn boyfriend’s dad- is a huge fucking racist, but just play it off, right? ” She grins, but it doesn't reach her eyes.
“ It’s not like he can just attack me in public or anything, because then he’ll give himself up, and he’s supposedly smarter than that. But like- what if he sends those guys after me? I doubt they’re super upstanding citizens, for obvious reasons. I know it’s not likely but like, if one of them took a picture or something? I’m probably fine, but if I’m not, then I’m dead. ”
Laney looks down, laughing to herself to keep from crying. She’s already made things hard enough for Pat, who’s done nothing but help her so far, so she doesn’t want ask even more from her, but- “ Can you pick me up from work tomorrow? I get it if you’re busy, but- I guess I’d just feel a lot safer that way. ”
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CHARACTER SHEET
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𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐬 !
FULL NAME. Selena Begaye Ruiz
PRONUNCIATION. “seh-LAY-na”
NICKNAME. Laney
GENDER. Female
HEIGHT. 4′11″
AGE. 15
ZODIAC. Leo
SPOKEN LANGUAGES. Navajo, English, Spanish, and a small amount of O’odham
𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬 !
HAIR COLOR. Black
EYE COLOR. Dark brown
SKIN TONE. Medium brown
BODY TYPE. Petite average, fit but not muscular
ACCENT. New Mexican
VOICE. Sing-song, melodic, and sweet, but very not quiet.
DOMINANT HAND. Left, although she’s a switch hitter in softball.
POSTURE. Usually very slouched, although she’s perfectly capable of standing up straight thanks to working at Los Pollos Hermanos for nearly a year.
SCARS. A long one across her chest from surgery done on her as a child, after a near-fatal rib injury from a horseback riding accident, and a handful of burns on her arms from the deep-fryer at LPH.
TATTOOS. None (yet) due to her age
BIRTHMARKS. No particularly large ones, although she has many moles.
MOST NOTICEABLE FEATURE(S). Cheekbones, long silky hair, smile
𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐝 !
PLACE OF BIRTH. Gallup, New Mexico
HOMETOWN. Gallup, New Mexico, although she lived on the To’Hajiilee Reservation from ages three to eleven and has resided in Albuquerque since.
BIRTH WEIGHT. 5.8 lbs.
BIRTH HEIGHT. 17 inches.
MANNER OF BIRTH. Regular, although she was born two weeks early.
FIRST WORDS. “Hi!”
SIBLINGS. None, although she grew up with cousins whom she considers siblings
PARENTS. Manuel Ruiz and Christina Begaye Ruiz (†)
PARENTAL INVOLVEMENT. Laney was very close to her parents as a child, but her mother’s disappearance when she was eleven essentially tore her family apart. Her father became emotionally distant and depressed, and when he moved the two of them from To’Hajiilee to Albuquerque, Laney was also cut off from her mother’s family, leaving her essentially without support. They have a relatively decent relationship and Laney very much loves and admires her father, although it saddens her that they aren’t as close as they should be.
𝐚𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 !
OCCUPATION. Formerly a fry cook and cashier at Los Pollos Hermanos, currently a clerk at the A1A Car Wash
CURRENT RESIDENCE. An apartment in Albuquerque, shared with her father
CLOSE FRIENDS. Many, including Walter White Jr./”Flynn”
RELATIONSHIP STATUS. Timeline dependent, although she does end up dating Walter Jr.
FINANCIAL STATUS. Working class
DRIVER’S LICENSE. Not old enough yet, although she has a learner’s permit and often (illegally) drives by herself. Her father knows, but it’s really the least of his worries since Laney is a very good driver.
CRIMINAL RECORD. Nothing officially, although she has a record at her school for marijuana possession.
VICES. weed.
𝐬𝐞𝐱 & 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 !
SEXUAL ORIENTATION. Bisexual
ROMANTIC ORIENTATION. Demiromantic
PREFERRED EMOTIONAL ROLE. submissive | dominant | SWITCH.
PREFERRED SEXUAL ROLE. submissive | dominant | switch.
LIBIDO.
TURN ON’S.
TURN OFF’S.
LOVE LANGUAGE. Aside from just saying “I love you”, which Laney is not at all hesitant to do, she shows affection through physical means (hugs, cheek kisses, etc.), by engaging with another person’s interests, and notably, by sharing her food.
RELATIONSHIP TENDENCIES. With both friendships and romantic relationships, Laney tends to be very enthusiastic and seemingly open, although she hides her true feelings from almost everyone she meets, preventing her from being truly close to others.
𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐞𝐨𝐮𝐬 !
CHARACTER’S THEME SONG. Season 2 Episode 3 by Glass Animals, or Teen Idle by MARINA
HOBBIES TO PASS TIME. Drawing, video games, smoking with friends, driving in the desert, sports
MENTAL ILLNESSES. ADHD, undiagnosed bipolar II disorder
PHYSICAL ILLNESSES. Celiac disease
LEFT OR RIGHT BRAINED. SUPER right-brained
PHOBIAS. Small spaces, isolation, being unseen or alone.
SELF CONFIDENCE LEVEL. Either incredibly high or incredibly low.
VULNERABILITIES. Naive, trusting, impulsive, impressionable, immature
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PAT GETS UP from the couch so she can kneel down in front of laney, eye-level with her. she rests her hands over laney’s arms, trying to comfort her, to get her to stop shaking. ❛ it’s okay. i’m just glad you’re okay. ❜ she can barely process the rest of the information, her head still rushing with adrenaline at the mere thought of the risk laney put herself through, that she almost got herself KILLED. ❛ give me the keys. i’ll get rid of the truck. i’ll leave you and your dad some money to buy a new one. ❜
she turns laney’s hands around to inspect the scrapes in her palms. is this how gus used to feel like whenever she’d do something risky or get her ass kicked? he’d put her in dangerous situations before, but he worried when things got too far. ❛ laney, look at me. did they see you? is there anything on the truck that they could trace back to you? ❜
SHE PULLS a shaky hand out of Pat's grasp to fish the keys out of her pocket and hand them off. “ God, this isn't gonna be easy to explain to my dad. Sometimes I wish I could tell him, or anyone else, but... we’re alone in this, I guess. ”
With a deep breath, she continues, “ I don’t think so. I booked it as soon as I realized, so I don't think they got a good look at me or the truck? I’d be surprised if they got the license plate. Which is good, since I’m not old enough to drive, anyway. ” Back when her life was normal, being caught for that would’ve been her greatest worry, not being shot by white supremacists working with her boss.
“ Um... I’m not sure, but White might know what my dad’s truck looks like, my dad’s picked me up and dropped me off at work a few times. It’s not like there’s only one red Dodge Ram in the world, but if he actually saw me, then he might make the connection.... ” she trails off and shrugs, turning away once more and squeezing her eyes tightly shut.
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Do you actually have chips in your bag? I will take a look.
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A SMILE GROWS on her lips as she works on carefully wrapping her busted hands up in bandages. ❛ you wanna know what the first rule to being a badass is? quit the low self esteem. ❜ it saddens her to hear laney talking about herself like that, even if the younger girl often masks her self-deprecating comments with humor. ❛ i don’t put up with anyone i don’t like outside of work; and i’m not at work right now, am i? you’re good company, kid. anyone ever tell you that? ❜
it hurts her sore ribs to put her arms up too high, but pat doesn’t think anything’s broken. she’s had her ribs broken enough times at this point that she can tell when some real DAMAGE has been done. ❛ thanks. i don’t—— always feel like that, though. at work, it’s like everybody’s bigger and stronger and tougher than me. but knowing how to fake confidence goes a long way. people respect you when you take yourself seriously. ❜
she inspects laney for a second —— the girl is definitely not what comes to her mind when she thinks of a FIGHTER, but there are things they could work on if laney wants. ❛ i can teach you a few things if you want to. just some self-defense. you’re small, but that makes you faster. i’m not that big myself. there are different things we can use to our advantage. ❜
PAT'S WORDS WARM HER, even if she was basically fishing for compliments. “ I’m either the best company or the worst, or so I hear, ” Laney replies with a half-grin, “ But I don't know if I can take myself seriously, since I don't really take anything seriously. It’s a good thing that I won’t get shot for that with my job. Well, ” she corrects, “ at least probably not, I don’t think White is that crazy. ”
She pauses to think over Pat’s offer, chewing her lip. “ I’m definitely fast, I know that. Last season I didn't do track because I wanted more hours at the restaurant, and the team was shit without me. ” Her cocky smile widens when she recalls that bit of information. “ But, yeah. I guess, doing this stuff and being around legit dangerous people, it would probably be a good idea for me to learn how to fight. And who else is gonna put up with me long enough to teach me? ”
Laney forces a serious expression before commanding, “ But not right now! You’re way too fucked up, and I don’t want you turning into a full-body bruise. So I don’t even want you thinking about fighting until you’re healed, got it? ”
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SHE’S STILL TREMBLING, the events of the past hour and a half meaning that it'll be a while before the adrenaline high wears off, as she shakes her head. She turns away slightly when Pat sits, her face hot with shame and nearly-spilled tears.
“ Yeah, I’m- I’m fine. I scraped my knee and hands a little when I tripped but that's just what I get for running in heels, I guess. ” She laughs, because if she doesn't, she'll lose her mind.
“ I just... I know you’ve been occupied with the cartel assholes, so you haven’t had time to keep up with White. So I knew I needed to help. ” Laney groans in frustration and buries her face in her hands. “ God, they fucking- Pat, they had swastika tattoos. I knew White was bad, but I never thought he was a fucking neo-Nazi! And now they've seen my dad’s truck.... fuck, I’m sorry, Pat, I’m so fucking sorry. ”
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THE ANGER in her chest dissipates almost instantly at laney’s small voice. pat hadn’t meant to snap at her —— it happened, as it often does, but it had come from a place of concern as well as frustration. she’d made things worse rather than helping, but pat just shakes her head with a sign, coming to sit by her side.
❛ i’m SORRY, okay? i was a dick. i’m really sorry. ❜ it’s something she doesn’t say often, and definitely not to just about anyone. ❛ are you okay? you HURT? ❜ she looks at laney in search for any injuries. ❛ you can’t put yourself in harm’s way like this, not even to help me. what the fuck were you thinking? ❜
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