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One of my headmates cut some of the hair near the front of our head because fae has the "bangs-covering-one-eye" hairstyle. I don't particularly care, except it keeps making me think that someone's moving closer to me when it's actually our hair moving. Annoying.

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empaths: ‘we advocate for abuse victims.’

also empaths: will actively demonise disorders which are most commonly caused by repeated childhood abuse and neglect.

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why say "ok boomer" when you could say "ok bootlicker" and target capitalist shills of all ages with a single phrase

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Friendly reminder that pwCluster B disorders aren't inherently evil. That includes pw Narcissistic Personality Disorder. That includes pw Antisocial Personality Disorder. That includes pw Borderline Personality Disorder. That includes pw Histrionic Personality Disorder.

If you genuinely believe any of these disorders are evil or actively demonize them, get off my blog!!! "Narc abuse" is fucking stupid. Grow up and don't blame your abuser's behavior on a disorder, especially if they don't have that disorder!!!!

Reblog (or make a comment and/or like /nf) if you support Cluster B disorders and hate ableist bigots! Happy Disability Pride month!

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I wish y’all could be more normal about people with low/no empathy.

I struggle with it because I consistently fail to connect with others, and have low emotional intelligence.

I know right from wrong, but am almost always unable to feel your feelings with you, and “put myself in your shoes” per se.

I’m not a bad person, I’m just unable to connect the same way you do.

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Host didn't think to grab his work branded coat when he was leaving the house. Unfortunately, what he didn't take into account was that I'm having to go in and out of fridges. This is fucking annoying.

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This post was prompted by the fact that I can feel myself starting to mildly dissociate. I'd bet anything that it's going to be Host driving home tonight.

On the list of things I'm bitching about tonight:

I fucking hate how most of the time when I front, it's while at our job. Since I'm one of the only people capable of getting things done, I use that time to write down a list of chores that need to get done when I get home.

Then, because of course, on the tail-end of the shift, 9 times out of 10 I end up switching out, and then Host goes home, does nothing, and falls asleep.

This is why we have our parents constantly yelling at us about dishes, why our room is a mess, and why we stink and have greasy hair.

At the absolute least it seems like we may be getting officially diagnosed with ADHD soon, so maybe the medication we'll get from that will help kick some of the others in gear.

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On the list of things I'm bitching about tonight:

I fucking hate how most of the time when I front, it's while at our job. Since I'm one of the only people capable of getting things done, I use that time to write down a list of chores that need to get done when I get home.

Then, because of course, on the tail-end of the shift, 9 times out of 10 I end up switching out, and then Host goes home, does nothing, and falls asleep.

This is why we have our parents constantly yelling at us about dishes, why our room is a mess, and why we stink and have greasy hair.

At the absolute least it seems like we may be getting officially diagnosed with ADHD soon, so maybe the medication we'll get from that will help kick some of the others in gear.

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Being autistic is fucking annoying. Not being on our antidepressants right now doesn't help either. While I'll readily admit that in source I was far better at masking than I am in reality, it's also annoying not being able to maneuver through social interactions.

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I have to currently because I'm at work, and I'm bartending, and I want to get good tips. But its so annoying. Plus I haven't been in front as much recently, so I don't have much bar experience, meaning I have to rely off of everyone else's memory of how to bartender.

Only 5 more hours.

I despise masking. It's wrong, just feels forced, and I shouldn't be obligated to do so.

So I don't.

Then I get people asking me "Oh, Host, are you doing alright? You seem like you're in a bad mood."

No, I'm doing fine, minus the fact I now need to keep up appearances. I shouldn't be bothered for having a flat tone, lowered sense of emotions and a "resting bitch face" due to not wanting to fake emote.

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I despise masking. It's wrong, just feels forced, and I shouldn't be obligated to do so.

So I don't.

Then I get people asking me "Oh, Host, are you doing alright? You seem like you're in a bad mood."

No, I'm doing fine, minus the fact I now need to keep up appearances. I shouldn't be bothered for having a flat tone, lowered sense of emotions and a "resting bitch face" due to not wanting to fake emote.

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More proof that capitalism was never "freedom" or "small government".

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This bedroom is an absolute mess. I don't even have time to put a dent in it before having to leave for work. This is annoying.