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If y'all could read this fic in my brain you would be so impressed.

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Do not write fanfiction. One second you're normal and the next you're downloading a calendar from 2004 and tearing your hair out over what specific date every event in your fic happens

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Martha Gellhorn, from a letter featured in The Selected Letters of Marth Gellhorn

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"if you love what you do, you’ll never work a day in your life" except i do love writing, and yet every time i open my document, i feel like a victorian child being sent to the coal mines, so where’s the lie.

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writing? oh, i’m definitely writing. in my head. during the most inconvenient times. like in the shower or when i’m about to fall asleep. actual typing? no, no, we don’t do that here.

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doesnt my job understand i have a blooming fanfiction writing career to work on

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They should invent a type of writing that lets me copy and paste directly from my brain

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Do I actually want to write this fanfic or do I just want to wallow in the delicious daydream like a pig in the mud?

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do you ever not write for so long that you’re almost afraid to? like what if I’m dumb now

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i wish i could scoop out all the words and stories inside my head with a butter knife and spread it onto a document and that was it

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No no no you don't understand. I don't want to write a fic. I want to have written a fic. These things are not the same.

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“Oh my god you’re a writer? Can I read your stuff?”

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the problem with being creative is that you start to feel very guilty when you haven’t created anything in a while

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born to write gay fanfiction forced to have real world responsibilities

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my dream as a fanfic writer is to write a story which people want to talk to me about and send asks about afterwards and discuss things the characters did and the symbolism and meanings behind certain lines and I'll be all "hehe thanks" but irl I'll be in literal tears because I wrote something that means something to someone

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everyone: what's your goal in life?

me: to write a story so soul snatching, so gut wrenching and so devastatingly beautiful that it leaves you crying at 3am when you have a 8am lecture/shift and it inspires people to write entire essays, to write entire fanfics, mood boards and playlists based on it.

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love is stored in the friend who reads your fanfiction