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I’ve grown and learned a lot. But I’m still all sorts of fucked up as I’ve always been. I have a better understanding of who I am but it doesn’t necessarily make things easier. I spent the last few days anxiety-filled. I’ve purged probably the most I ever have. And I feel sicker than ever. When will this ever stop. When will I ever stop.

I’m homesick for how life used to be and I’m so afraid of what it’s going to be.

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You’ve got a war in your head And it’s tearing you up inside.

The Waterboys, This Is The Sea (via wnq-quotes)

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I still wish it was me.

findme-oceans–away, 12:20am Wednesday, September 6, 2017 (via wnq-writers)

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You listen up. If you really loved this person they’re always going to be a part of you, and you’re not going to get over it, and maybe that sounds like a dismal thing you don’t want to hear right now but you loved them for a reason because they spoke to a part of you that’s at your core, and you don’t want to erase that, you want to still be open to those feelings and if you try to shut them out and pretend they never even got in there and you can just turn that off, well that’s a really cold thing and a cold place to be. And I’ve been through a couple of break-ups in my day, they’re never easy, and a friend of mine once said something to me that I found really, really touching. I was saying ‘I don’t know how I’m going to get over this one man it’s really messing with my head,’ and he said ‘Sometimes you don’t need to get over things, sometimes you need to recognize that life can be chaotic, and the chaos just exists.’ And that really calmed me down. And I think you’ve got to remember like do you want to get over it? I don’t know that you do, I think you want to move on and think of it as a piece of your past instead of something that’s going to mess with your present or that you’re worried about with your future. But you should let that be the past. If you really loved that person that’s a beautiful thing you don’t want to get over that and there’s probably a lot that you can take away from that even if you still do love them a little bit forever.

Chris Gethard (via thelovejournals)

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If you don’t love Alexi Pappas you’re wrong

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This was taken while my girlfriend slept on my stomach on the boat ride to Bali. Pictures don’t do any sort of justice. The sun was in the perfect part of the sky where the ocean was very blue, the land very green, and the horizon very gold. The wind was warm wind and occasionally a little spray of ocean mist would hit us. I have neverrr been more content in a moment.

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Find someone who pays attention. Who runs their fingers over your every scar; and asks where each one came from. Find someone who knows how you like your coffee; what song makes you want to roll the windows down and slam on the gas pedal. Find someone who takes in your smallest details; who notices the things you thought no one ever would. And then…when you find them… Be their someone, too.

a paragraph about falling in love, deep3snplottwists  (via wnq-writers)

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I fought for someone who would not fight for me.

cynthia go // Worst realization (via cynthiatingo)

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Road to Alpine

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