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“You have galaxies in your head, do not let people tell you you cannot shine.”

— explorinqmyself

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here again

hi, here again. kinda bored na nawawalan ng hope sa self ko mismo. Parang I  don’t really see myself winning. I feel so laging talo. Kaya ko ba? kaya ko pa ba? Pero gusto ko maging successful but i’m totally drained na. Ugh! 

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Gsiahwjkw so calm to see

waiting for the night to fall

when everything is bearable

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Anne Carson, from Autobiography of Red

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college just be

wake up at 8am for a 9:30 class

listen to bo burnham’s “inside”

walk up The Hill™️

be 30 minutes to class

wait outside awkwardly

shit wrong room

wrong floor what the fuck

time to read syllabus

“you are all adults” but also no eating in class you dickheads

end class 45 minutes early

four hours until next class

not gonna go back to dorm to avoid The Hill™️

figure out what to do

listen to bo burnham’s “inside”

sit on bench

think

read

can’t read the book was written in the 1500s and makes no sense

fuck

decide to get coffee

almost be hit by man on skateboard

shit the church people

don’t make eye contact

fuck i made eye contact

no

see military person

why are you here

go to coffee place

fuck the military person is back

wait 20 minutes for expensive coffee

listen to bo burnham’s “inside”

talk to mom because you have no friends

eat

no not hungry

eat

be 30 minutes early to next class

mistake student for professor

mistake professor for student

syllabus

go to next class

butcher the spanish language

finally go to dorm

fuck the church people are on the move now

get food

not hungry

drink a bang energy drink

listen to bo burnham’s inside

play overwatch

lose at overwatch

rage overwatch

watch a shitty movie

write your shitty little letterboxd review no one will ever read

jack off

sleep

wash, rinse, and repeat

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Are you BFF with your intuition? 👁 It has taken me many years to improve my intuition and these are my best tips ✨ Like many things, intuition is incredibly subjective and how you connect with that inner knowing varies greatly from person to person. ✨ Understanding how you work psychically (which “Clair”) is probably the best tip I have. We all have each skill but some come more naturally than others. When I first started doing psychic work I thought I was only claircognizant - nowadays my clairsentience and clairvoyance are both SO much stronger. They’re the ones I use most often but I used to genuinely believe I couldn’t do either 😅 ✨ Needless to say, be open! Try new things, practice things you think you suck at, & be easy with yourself 🦋 Your mind, body & spirit are on the same team 💋

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It pays not to give up, it develop character by not quitting

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“You can run, run, run away from a lot of things in life, but you can’t run away from yourself. And the key to happiness is to understand and accept who you are.”

— Dale Archer

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“You’ve got to follow that dream, wherever that dream may lead.”

— Elvis Presley

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“Today I forgive myself. Not just once. Again, and again, and again. As many times as it takes to find peace.”

— Unknown (via thoughtkick)

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Akala ko may message 😠

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Sorry kahit paulit ulit pero ayoko naman masira ako o makitang naubos napapagod tinatanong sarili ko na bakit minsan hindi ko naramdaman na maging enough sayong kaibigan. Alam kong may problema ka. Pero ikaw lang din makakatulong sayo. Kaibigan mo ko, alam mo na pwede mokong lapitan anytime. Na elnie, I'm all ears. Hindi man physical na maparamdam ko sayo na andito ako. Sana alam mo na kasama mo ako. Pero hindi. Pero okay lang kase naiintindihan ko lahat. Naiintindihan kita. Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayare or ano yung exact na masakit kase u don't give a hint. Sinabi mo one time na parang nanghihingi ka ng time na malungkot ka. Pero diba triny ko naman na bumawi. Sorry pero u never appreciate one. At masaya akong makita na ma overcome mo yon. Sorry if na feel mo na wala ako sa tabi mo. Kung ako yung isa sa mga rason ng pain na nararamdaman mo ngayon. Hihilingin ko na sayo na alisin mo nako sa life mo. Ayoko, pero kung sa ikabubuti mo ikagagaan nh pakiramdam mo, bakit hindi diba? Kase elnie ayoko din makita ka na ako yung dahilan non, na nasasaktan kita dahil sakin. Deserve mo, sobrang deserve mong sumaya. At gusto kitang mag grow. Kung kailangan gawin to para mag grow tayo together. Bakit hindi elnie? Gusto kita makita maging successful sobra sobra. Sana alam mo yon. Kailangan ko din sarili ko. Ayokong mag stay sa ganitong sitwasyon na nakakasakit ako, nasasaktan ako lumang line na to pero tao lang din ako. Hindi ako nawawalan ng pag asa kase kapatid na kita e we are more than friends. Pero na f'feel ko na nauubos nako. Pano kita kayang ipanalo kung hindi ko makita sarili ko? Pano kita kayang ipanalo kung mismo ikaw, mukhang ayaw mo na. Alam mo selos din ako e aminin ko, kase u never even call me as ur home friend. Samantalang sila allyssa, sana yung apat na yon kaya kong lamangan sila. Para hindi mo na f'feel yung sakit na binigay nila sayo. SANA NAGING SAPAT AKO SAYO pero tbh, hindi ko naramdaman sayo yon. Pero naiintindihan ko kase diba valid feelings mo, na nasasaktan ka ngayon. Kaya naghihintay parin ako na mismo manggaling sayo yon. Hindi sa sinusumbat ko lahat pero I had enough. Kailangan ko makita sa sarili ko na kaya ko na kakayanin ko kahit mahirap. Ayokong sabihin kase nasasaktan din ako ng sobra. Thankful, greatful ako kay kynde. Kase andyan siya for uu. Sorry mahina ako naging mahina. Naghihintay ako sayo sana alam mo. Sana alam mo na magiging masaya ako kapag okay kana. Sa bawat achievements mo sa life. I am praying for you elnie. Tawagan mo ako, chat, text, dm. If ever hit u one time, realize na gusto mo parin ako sa life mo. Sorry kung may mga salita akong nabitawan na makakasakit sayo and kung tingin mo nagiging self centered ako dyan, pero deserve kong sabihin din lahat to sayo. Deserve ko din palayain sarili ko from pain. Kailangan ko rin sarili ko. Ayokong malunod sa kakaisip bakit kulang ako, bakit nasasaktan kita. Pasensya kung nasaktan kita. Uulitin ko I am praying for you. Sana alam mong meron kang ako, nandito lang ako. I'll wait for you. Nakakasawa mabasa, mapakinggan pero yun yung totoo. Ingat ka lagi. I love you.

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Yessss!!

“I loved to sleep with the window open. Rainy nights were the best of all: I would open the window and put my head on the pillow and close my eyes and feel the wind on my face and listen to the trees sway and creak.”

— Neil Gaiman

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oddly specific mood playlists

you are sitting on a rocking chair, your hair is white from age and the air feels crispier this morning. you just woke up yet you feel so tired. this playlist is lulling you to your final sleep.

it's 6am and you are having your main character moment on the bus to school but you aren't an indie movie protagonist , you are sleep deprived and haven't washed your hair in three days

and when nobody wakes you up in the morning, and when nobody waits for you at night, and when you can do whatever you want. what do you call it, freedom or loneliness?

the fog is thick and the forest smells of secrets. you are buzzing with an electric like feeling, there is magic in the air. the trees are talking to you in an ancient language. you realize with a smile that they have been expecting you.

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Kita ko lang sa tiktok. Everytime we feel inggit daw sabihin mo sa sarili mo I AM NEXT! So Divine, next kana!!

That hit me marssszaqsc!!

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It will find a way for u to make it. If its yours then it will always be yours

“Beautiful things don’t ask for attention.”

— James Thurber, The Secret Life of Walter Mitty (via quotefeeling)

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“We have enough in life against us already don’t be against yourself.”

— Unknown