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art is timeless , keep building .

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Rounding of thoughts beating around the space of this Echo Chamber .

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New Years Day

it felt like a dream .

an implanted memory but it was real .

that night was for you . that night was for us .

the celebration of us two & selfishly me finally getting the girl .

although the night was ephemeral &

i won’t see you for many moons

i have a picture that keeps the celluloid looping .

wow , i got so comfortable kissing you & it was only the first time .

i’ll see you when we’re older

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For Prosperity’s Sake . https://www.instagram.com/p/Cm5TnaSrUHN/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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i romanticize the nostalgia a lot so the colors were rosy— i was pressed up against it , face in the flowers . now that the truth is on the turntables , i hear how it goes , i see how it is & why i couldn’t break from it . my friends were my lovers of a lifetime , soulmates from a whim— the perfect kind of ‘em , now it recedes as i get older like they always said my hairline would do . i guess it’s in the genes it seems but it sucks that it tore . the many times i gave you love , many times i gave more . now everyone says the same thing & you have no idea . you’re the talk of the town , oh you wouldn’t believe it . with no awareness to the radius or the air you breathe . like why you sneeze & coughing all the time , no more immunity built ? never thought to ask the question like can we still see on stilts ? with all these boosters of rocket fuel , shooters from the hatch , punch lines that you’ll miss with open hands as if they were ever meant to catch on the second . but falling face first is what we do . especially when it’s time to loving you . now , they looking at you side ways if you can hear it . you’re on your own with your ass out if you can feel it . it’s a cold , windy season , where we fall & we leave . i know that’s trite to say but community reprieved , just to get stepped on from you walking tall— check your boots .

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very sad these days .

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are u ever going to get out of ur own way ?

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no , life has to be happening for me .

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i wanna enjoy this fruit fully , every peach & pit .

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am i letting life happen to me ? have i fallen flat & with no regard of being ? is this as high i’ll go ? can’t be— or i’d be dead right ?

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i’m just emotionally & mentally drained , i’m not okay & i’m trying to find my way back to me w/o throwing a pity party .

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maybe , as i become more confident w my art , i meet the people that want to help me . i just want someone to lookout for me but right now it’s really , truly just me .

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i keep getting caught up in moments , lately they haven’t been mine . hopefully in hindsight i’ll be able to see clearly but rn the lens is too murky , i’m too deep in .

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today is a celebration for firsts . this my first show & i’m praying to be grounded , present & liberated . i’ll give u all the details later . but til then , when’s the last time you did something for the first time ? i urge u to try it .

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is it trivial to say i think of u often ?

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be my glide , for the night ?

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i’m bound to only a minute of your time & it could feel like forever if we’d let it .