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in the future i'll be deleting this account & remaking gojo , after a jjk rewatch so i can reign in the character again . aside from that i'll be updating my rules significantly on the new account . i also do have other muses that i'll be making blogs for other than gojo , so more than likely i'll link to all of them once they're set up & rotate activity. I've been feeling a little better but i definitely need to get caught up on things irl before i try coming back to here . some muses , but not all of them yet that i'll be making blogs for :

itoshi sae from blue lock juuzou suzuya tokyo ghoul bachira meguru blue lock mello from death note toge inumaki jjk & likely more but i haven't decided yet . thanks everyone !

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so , i've obviously not been around on here . i have a lot that i need to catch up on irl because of unexpected health issues , but aside from that i haven't felt really good about being on tumblr . my biggest joy w writing is frequently interacting with people & bouncing character relationships & forming bonds , so while i'm super flattered people wanna interact w me in any way , i haven't felt super satisfied & feel like i'm losing touch w my muse because it's felt a bit isolating on here . most likely i'll be revamping this blog by making a new one & moving stuff over , & updating my rules but it likely won't be for a couple more weeks . it's hard to want to write when most interactions feel really superficial & i have a lot of muse & not anywhere to really put it . i appreciate everyone who has stuck out following me though !

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PROMPTS FOR COMFORTABLE INTIMACY *  adjust as necessary, send 'reverse' for the reversal of the prompt

[ settle ] sender sits on receiver's lap and gets comfortable

[ sling ] sender slings an arm around receiver's shoulder

[ pinch ] sender affectionately pinches receiver's cheek

[ ruffle ] sender ruffles receiver's hair

[ recline ] sender joins receiver on their chair and snuggles against them

[ hand ] sender takes receiver's hand while driving

[ knee ] sender lays a hand on receiver's leg while driving

[ clean ] sender reaches up to wipe something off receiver's face

[ tie ] sender adjusts receiver's tie

[ collar ] sender smooths out receiver's collar

[ tickle ] sender starts tickling receiver

[ piggyback ] sender gives receiver a piggyback ride

[ pick up ] sender scoops receiver up into their arms and holds them as they walk

[ guide ] sender places a hand on receiver's hip and guides them through a crowded room

[ smudge ] sender cleans lipstick off receiver's face

[ gun ] in the midst of a stand-off, sender reaches over and gently guides receiver's gun down, making them lower it

[ behind ] sender comes up to receiver from behind and wraps their arms around their waist

[ nuzzle ] sender leans in and nuzzles their face into receiver's neck

[ relax ] sender rests their head on receiver's shoulder while they talk

[ arms ] sender hooks their arm with receiver's as they walk

[ itch ] sender assists receiver with an itch they can't reach

[ catch ] receiver starts to fall, so sender reaches out and catches them

[ calm down ] sender pets receiver's hair and tries to soothe them after a scary situation

[ check ] sender checks receiver's temperature by placing the back of their hand against receiver's forehead, trying to see if they're sick

[ tuck ] sender tucks receiver into bed

[ feed ] sender offers a forkful of food out to receiver, helping them eat

[ undress ] sender helps receiver undress

[ shoes ] sender helps receiver put on their shoes

[ intent ] sender leans their forehead against receiver's

[ bathe ] sender helps receiver wash themselves in a bath

[ shower ] sender helps receiver wash themselves in a shower

[ assist ] sender finds receiver has fallen down, so they rush to their aid and help them stand again

[ bed ] sender helps receiver into bed

[ greet ] sender greets receiver with quick kisses to each of their cheeks

[ high five ] sender gives receiver a congratulatory high five

[ makeup ] sender helps receiver apply makeup

[ injury ] sender cleans receiver's wound and patches it up

[ seek ] sender reaches for receiver's hand and laces their fingers

[ surprise ] sender sneaks up behind receiver and places their hands over their eyes, wanting them to guess who it is

[ walk ] sender helps receiver walk by staying by their side and holding onto them

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🍿   to   watch   a   romantic   comedy   with   my   muse.

@cowboynanami / ANSWERED .

TIME  is  priceless  .  to  dwell  on  moments  that  could  have  been  carried  no  accomplishment  other  than  prolonging  wretched  heartache  .  no  one  could  possibly  understand  loss  the  way  that  sorcerers  could  ,  &  ultimately  no  one  could  cherish  things  so  preciously  as  they  would  .  SATORU  GOJO  ,  man  above  all  -  unbearable  burden  hovering  constant  on  his  shoulders  &  yet  he  never  folds  to  the  pressure  .  a  harsh  lesson  learned  early  on  ,  teenage  heartbreak  tenfold  &  burned  into  his  soul  .  pain  had  been  a  guidance  towards  gratitude  .  most  days  he  finds  joy  in  all  things  around  him  &  accepts  that  his  suffering  is  the  trade  off  .  tender  moments  learning  his  first  love  had  ended  in  tragedy  .  watching  his  students  grow  &  prosper  meant  the  ever  looming  threat  of  their  demise  . 

their  work  meant  early  ,  painful  deaths  &  losing  the  people  held  closest  .  time  is  priceless  .  satoru  means  to  cherish  the  good  things  wholeheartedly  .  so  this  was  good  ,  to  see  kento  as  he  is  now  .  relaxed  back  into  the  couch  cushions  &  paying  an  amusing  amount  of  attention  to  the  television  .  he  couldn’t  place  when  they’d  started  doing  this  .  for  awhile  he’d  pestered  him  into  dinners  ,  going  out  to  ramen  shops  &  accompanying  him  to  bars  that  he  never  drank  at  .  the  first  time  he’d  suggested  a  movie  night  he’d  expected  to  get  shot  down  ,  but  he’d  been  pleasantly  surprised  when  his  friend  had  conceded  .  then  it  had  turned  into  something  biweekly  ,  &  now  ?  well  ,  he’d  found  himself  here  after  work  a  third  night  in  a  row  &  though  kento  had  threatened  to  turn  him  away  when  he’d  showed  up  adorned  in  valentine’s  day  attire  he  hadn’t  actually  stopped  him  from  coming  inside  . 

it’s  funny  ,  how  much  of  a  sap  nanami  had  turned  out  to  be  .  he’d  picked  the  movie  after  all  ,  &  satoru  caught  him  smiling  at  the  sillier  parts  sometimes  when  he  glanced  over  .  a  romantic  comedy  ,  who  would  have  thought  ?  satoru  himself  laughs  on  occasion  ,  too  bright  &  too  loud  -  but  he’d  always  been  someone  a  little  larger  than  he  can  help  ,  &  the  half  a  glass  of  wine  that  he  nurses  doesn’t  do  him  any  favors  .  nanami  doesn’t  seem  to  mind  it  ,  not  when  he  laughs  or  when  he  snickers  at  cheesy  lines  ,  not  when  satoru  shuffles  his  way  closer  to  smush  against  his  side  . 

he  must  be  in  a  good  mood  not  to  complain  when  a  lanky  arm  slides  over  his  shoulders  .  ❛  thanks  for  having  me  over  ,  nanamin  .  this  is  fun  .  ❜  satoru  hums  with  a  toothy  grin  ,  a  flush  clear  across  his  face  from  drinking  .  ❛  cool  not  seeing  you  all  business  like  ,  yanno  ?  ❜  he  comments  as  though  they  didn’t  already  hang  out  often  ,  like  he’d  not  seen  kento  casually  just  the  night  before  .  ❛  good  movie  choice  .  kinda  surprising  .   super  in  the  holiday  spirit  .  ❜ 

&  to  keep  with  the  holiday  spirit  ,  as  satoru  says  -  he’s  happy  enough  to  press  an  exaggerated  kiss  messily  to  his  friend’s  cheek  ,  pulling  back  with  a  mwuah  sound  &  all  .  valentine’s  day  might  be  different  for  people  like  them  ,  but  he’s  happy  to  make  the  most  of  it  .  happy  to  make  good  memories  . 

most  importantly  ,  he’s  grateful  to  have  someone  to  spend  time  with  . 

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my plan so I don't go insane trying to answer everything is to answer stuff throughout the week and then format & throw it into queue on Sundays & Mondays

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PROMPTS FROM THE MANDALORIAN SEASON 1 *  assorted lines from a few of the first episodes, adjust as necessary

i can bring you in warm, or i can bring you in cold.

it's not slow at all, actually.

this is all i have.

i'll take them all.

sadly, we'll never know.

oh, this feels a lot better.

"stay off the ice." that's the understatement of the millennium!

now we just need to get the door open.

that's all you can give me?

save the theatrics.

that was fast. did you catch them all?

they do not belong here.

can we talk about this later?

i have a suggestion.

so much for the element of surprise.

that is not what we agreed upon.

i'm simply being pragmatic.

you know, you're not so bad.

i don't have time for this.

well, then i don't know if i want your help.

i like those odds.

this is gonna take days to fix.

they don't like you for some reason.

they stole from me.

i'm surprised you waited.

explain it to me again. i still don't understand what happened.

i can't thank you enough.

this is what was causing all the fuss?

i will take you to them.

i gotta get one of those.

how do i know i can trust you?

why would an enemy help you in battle?

get out of here! we'll hold 'em off!

i'm not interested in your excuses.

that would be a great honor.

any idea what they're gonna do with it?

you know where to find me.

that's one impressive weapon.

i didn't want it to come to this.

step aside. i'm going to my ship.

you want some soup?

this has been a real treat.

until our paths cross.

now, don't touch anything.

do you mind if i ask you something?

i'm gonna miss you so much.

bad news. you can't live here anymore.

you think you can do better?

this is more than i signed up for.

so you think i'm some kind of mercenary?

how'd you end up here?

it's very nice here.

i don't belong here.

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𝟏𝟎𝟎 𝑵𝑶𝑵𝑽𝑬𝑹𝑩𝑨𝑳 𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺 .    (  a  collection  of  100  nonverbal  action  prompts .   mature  and  potentially  triggering  themes  are  present .   add  “ + reverse ”  to  swap  assigned  roles . )

∗ o1﹕ sender  tucks  hair  out  of  receiver’s  face . ∗ o2﹕ sender  offers  receiver  a  bite  from  their  fork . ∗ o3﹕ sender  places  their  feet / legs  in  receiver's  lap . ∗ o4﹕ sender  offers  receiver  an  earbud  to  share  their  music . ∗ o5﹕ sender  comforts  receiver  in  the  aftermath  of  a  nightmare . ∗ o6﹕ sender  gives  receiver  company  in  the  hospital . ∗ o7﹕ sender  wraps  their  arms  around  a  hysterical  receiver  to  calm  them . ∗ o8﹕ sender  shows  up  at  receiver’s  home  late  at  night . ∗ o9﹕ sender  falls  asleep  leaning  against  receiver . ∗ 1o﹕ sender  wields  a  [ gun / knife ]  at  receiver . ∗ 11﹕ sender  runs  their  fingers  through  receiver’s  hair . ∗ 12﹕ sender  invites  receiver  to  dance . ∗ 13﹕ sender  takes  a  [ picture / video ]  of  receiver . ∗ 14﹕ sender  places  their  head  in  receiver’s  lap . ∗ 15﹕ sender  and  receiver  make  eye  contact  across  a  busy  room . ∗ 16﹕ sender  pushes  receiver  against  a  wall  to  kiss  them . ∗ 17﹕ sender  and  receiver  cook  together . ∗ 18﹕ sender  comes  to  receiver  after  being  injured . ∗ 19﹕ sender  sits  in  receiver’s  lap . ∗ 2o﹕ sender  lifts  receiver's  chin ,  invoking  eye  contact . ∗ 21﹕ sender  overtakes  receiver  in  combat . ∗ 22﹕ sender  finds  receiver  [ injured / bloodied ] . ∗ 23﹕ sender  straightens  an  article  of  receiver’s  clothes . ∗ 24﹕ sender  crawls  into  bed  with  receiver . ∗ 25﹕ sender  rolls  their  eyes  at  receiver . ∗ 26﹕ sender  lights  receiver’s  [ cigarette / joint ] . ∗ 27﹕ sender  is  caught  wearing  receiver's  clothes . ∗ 28﹕ sender  strikes  receiver  with  a  pillow . ∗ 29﹕ sender  writes  a  note  on  receiver’s  skin :  [ note ] . ∗ 3o﹕ sender  wraps  a  blanket  around  receiver’s  shoulders . ∗ 31﹕ sender  runs  and  jumps  into  receiver’s  arms . ∗ 32﹕ sender  shoves  receiver  out  of  anger . ∗ 33﹕ sender  hovers  over  receiver’s  shoulder  as  they  complete  a  task . ∗ 34﹕ sender  is  found  by  receiver  somewhere  they  shouldn’t  be . ∗ 35﹕ sender  curls  up  against  receiver  in  their  sleep . ∗ 36﹕ sender  is  found  drunk  by  receiver . ∗ 37﹕ sender  throws  an  item  of  sentiment  bitterly  at  receiver . ∗ 38﹕ sender  joins  receiver  in  the  shower . ∗ 39﹕ sender  is  caught  following  receiver . ∗ 4o﹕ sender  traces  one  of  receiver’s  [ scars / bruises ] . ∗ 41﹕ sender  twines  their  fingers  with  receiver’s . ∗ 42﹕ sender  barges  into  receiver’s  home  unannounced . ∗ 43﹕ sender  kicks  receiver’s  shin  beneath  a  table . ∗ 44﹕ sender  aggressively  shoves  past  receiver . ∗ 45﹕ sender  kisses  receiver’s  [ forehead / cheek ] . ∗ 46﹕ sender  pulls  receiver  out  of  harm’s  way . ∗ 47﹕ sender  is  found  sobbing  by  receiver . ∗ 48﹕ sender  locks  receiver  out  of  their  room . ∗ 49﹕ sender  brings  receiver  [ coffee / tea ]  in  the  morning . ∗ 5o﹕ sender  rests  their  forehead  against  receiver’s . ∗ 51﹕ sender  plays  a  song  for  receiver  that  reminds  them  of  them :  [ song ] . ∗ 52﹕ sender  takes  a  [ punch / stab / bullet ]  meant  for  receiver . ∗ 53﹕ sender  buys  receiver  a  drink  at  a  bar . ∗ 54﹕ sender  needs  receiver’s  help  getting  in  the  bath . ∗ 55﹕ sender  and  receiver  cross  paths  in  the  kitchen  late  at  night . ∗ 56﹕ sender  twists  receiver’s  arm  behind  their  back . ∗ 57﹕ sender  winks  at  receiver . ∗ 58﹕ sender  is  found  collapsed  by  receiver . ∗ 59﹕ sender  prevents  an  injured  receiver  from  getting  up . ∗ 6o﹕ sender  claps  a  hand  over  receiver’s  mouth  to  silence  them . ∗ 61﹕ sender  cages  receiver  against  a  [ wall / the floor ]  with  their  arms . ∗ 62﹕ sender  storms  away  from  receiver  during  an  argument . ∗ 63﹕ sender  is  found  by  receiver  sleeping  in  receiver’s  bed . ∗ 64﹕ sender  [ applies / touches up ]  receiver’s  makeup . ∗ 65﹕ sender  throws  receiver  into  a  wall  during  combat . ∗ 66﹕ sender  dances  sensually  with  receiver . ∗ 67﹕ sender  strikes  receiver  across  the  face . ∗ 68﹕ sender  places  their  hand  on  receiver’s  leg  while  driving . ∗ 69﹕ sender  pulls  a  chair  out  from  under  receiver . ∗ 7o﹕ sender  catches  receiver’s  wrist  when  they  turn  to  leave . ∗ 71﹕ sender  leaves  an  intimate  mark  on  receiver . ∗ 72﹕ sender  beats  receiver  in  a  video  game . ∗ 73﹕ sender  and  receiver  stand  in  stunned  silence  after  a  fight . ∗ 74﹕ sender  cares  for  receiver  while  they’re  sick . ∗ 75﹕ sender  and  receiver  go  on  a  hike . ∗ 76﹕ sender  is  caught  snooping  in  receiver’s  things . ∗ 77﹕ sender  and  receiver  cuddle  while  watching  television . ∗ 78﹕ sender  throws  something  aggressively  at  receiver . ∗ 79﹕ sender  creeps  up  behind  receiver  to  scare  them . ∗ 8o﹕ sender  and  receiver  go  shopping  together . ∗ 81﹕ sender  helps  receiver  [ dye / style ]  their  hair . ∗ 82﹕ sender  draws  receiver  into  a  kiss  by  the  back  of  their  neck . ∗ 83﹕ sender  is  discovered  having  a  panic  attack  by  receiver . ∗ 84﹕ sender  accidentally  injures  receiver  during  sparring . ∗ 85﹕ sender  grabs  receiver  roughly  by  the  hair . ∗ 86﹕ sender  brings  receiver  to  their  knees  during  combat . ∗ 87﹕ sender  shows  receiver  evidence  of  a  lie  they  told . ∗ 88﹕ sender  winks  [ seductively / mockingly ]  at  receiver . ∗ 89﹕ sender  yells  at  receiver  to  put  their  hands  in  the  air . ∗ 9o﹕ sender  helps  receiver  patch  up  a  wound . ∗ 91﹕ sender  holds  receiver  as  they  cry . ∗ 92﹕ sender  silently  and  angrily  points  receiver  towards  the  door . ∗ 93﹕ sender  gestures  for  receiver  to  sit  down . ∗ 94﹕ sender  pulls  receiver  into  their  lap . ∗ 95﹕ sender  cradles  receiver’s  face . ∗ 96﹕ sender  tackles  receiver  out  of  the  way  of  danger . ∗ 97﹕ sender  has  hidden  an  injury  from  receiver ,  and  receiver  finds  out . ∗ 98﹕ sender  confronts  receiver  about  their  unhealthy  behavior . ∗ 99﹕ sender  proposes  to  receiver . ∗ 1oo﹕ sender  has  just  died ,  receiver  finds  out .

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I'M BACK . While I refresh this blog & stuff I am gonna be posting memes & answering without icons for a lil bit till I get into the swing of things .

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i should be returning next week ! I'll probably be refreshing this blog & cleaning up followers , really just doing a soft revamp . other than vday stuff that's mega late I'm gonna probably clear my asks just because it's been awhile . aside from that my plans are to make a few other blogs , & finish up the one for toge . i am writing on discord , always feel free to hit me up on there it's easier for me to get content out on there .

also sometimes i just don't feel chemistry with certain characters & i have a weird way of talking with people that i click with or don't so if I'm not as responsive it's nothing personal at all , i just sometimes don't have the muse or the connection for certain things .

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I've moved apartments and once things are cleaned up and I'm caught up on school I'll be back on here . in the meantime I'm writing actively still on discord , feel free to send me a message if ur looking to write on there & I'll be way more responsive than I am on here rn .

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I'm gonna be inactive for a bit instead of fooling myself rn , im in the middle of exams & moving so I think until all of that is settled it's going to be hard to get stuff out on here .

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ya'll i do NOT wanna make a carrd for either blog tbh it's so much work

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other than the valentine's day asks , and like.. two random things i'm gonna be doing an inbox wipe . i'll put out more memes to send in to get started again but i've been so busy with work and school i fell behind on writing and i want to refresh some stuff . that and i want time to get my toge blog up and running .

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❛ i... want to lie here. ❜

@sugurau / ANSWERED .

SUMMER  HEAT  ,  that  was  the  excuse  that  suguru  used  the  last  time  he’d  chirped  up  about  his  concerns  .  it’d  been  backhanded  &  unsubtle  but  it  was  entirely  impossible  to  not  notice  that  something  wasn’t  right  -  the  obviously  out  of  character  habits  &  loss  of  weight  .  punctual  to  a  fault  ,  his  friend  had  been  drifting  into  classes  minutes  after  the  start  time  &  seemed  unfazed  by  the  squeak  of  the  chair  protesting  against  the  floor  when  it  was  pulled  out  from  beneath  the  desk  ,  or  the  unwavering  glare  from  their  teachers  .  he  no  longer  met  him  in  the  hallways  before  or  after  the  lectures  ,  often  stayed  in  for  dinner  .  the  lack  of  his  presence  remained  cold  ,  foreboding  even  .  lately  he’d  had  less  patience  for  their  conversations  &  satoru  found  he’d  needed  to  repeat  himself  several  times  before  the  other  man  seemed  a  little  less  faraway  . 

their  group  had  stopped  inviting  him  on  their  outings  ,  since  it  was  a  near  sure  chance  that  he’d  turn  them  down  &  taint  the  mood  with  whatever  seemed  to  be  haunting  him  .  it  would  have  pissed  him  off  ,  but  they  didn’t  know  .  how  could  they  ?  his  ghosts  are  his  to  own  alone  ,  not  even  satoru  could  free  him  from  those  chains  .  the  two  had  broken  in  different  ways  ,  when  they’d  lost  riko  &  failed  their  mission  so  spectacularly  .  satoru  himself  had  shut  down  the  only  way  that  he  knew  how  ,  to  smile  through  it  &  roll  with  the  punches  even  when  they  left  bruised  ribs  &  bloodied  knuckles  .  in  the  first  months  ,  suguru  shoos  him  off  to  have  fun  with  the  others  &  he  listens  thinking  nothing  of  it  .  tonight  he  tries  &  is  met  with  protest  ,  when  satoru  won’t  budge  from  his  dorm  room  &  pleads  that  if  he  must  go  ,  they  go  together  .

❛  it’s  not  even  really  fun  if  you’re  not  there  ,  c’mon  .  you’ve  been  bailing  nonstop  .   ❜  the  accusation  isn’t  biting  ,  gentle  when  satoru  who  is  all  lanky  limbs  &  closeness  climbs  into  his  bed  beside  him  .  already  the  mattresses  there  hardly  hold  either  of  them  who  have  sprung  up  in  height  ;  with  experience  they’d  found  the  most  comfortable  ways  to  fit  snug  against  each  other  so  neither  fall  off  &  no  parts  of  their  body  ache  or  fall  asleep  .  the  blonde  reaches  over  him   ,  leaned  over  suguru’s  torso  to  crack  open  his  window  before  he’s  squirmed  to  plop  down  in  his  usual  place  ,  head  propped  lightly  against  a  broad  shoulder  .  ❛  ‘kay  well  ,  if  ya’  wanna  stay  in  then  i  am  too  .  don’t  bother  bugging  me  to  leave  ,  i’m  here  .  we’re  here  together  .  ❜

a  hand  slides  to  ease  his  glasses  off  of  his  face  ,  sends  them  clattering  to  the  side  without  so  much  as  flinching  at  the  sound  .  instinctively  he  presses  closer  ,  drapes  a  leg  over  him  like  he  could  get  any  closer  &  that  was  that  .  for  once  ,  he  is  quiet  -  nothing  more  to  say  .  it  would  be  enough  ,  to  remind  him  that  they  have  each  other  ,  that  neither  are  alone  .  sparkling  blue  eyes  study  the  curves  of  suguru’s  face  ,  the  way  his  chest  rises  &  falls  with  every  aching  breath  that  weighs  him  down  .  there  is  a  tiredness  that  embeds  itself  deep  into  his  skin  ,  bags  under  his  eyes  &  the  way  his  body  feels  just  a  little  more  fragile  under  satoru’s  when  he  leans  on  him  .  a  thought  comes  &  goes  ,  that  it  may  not  in  fact  be  the  summer  heat  that  plagues  his  thoughts  .  ❛  we’re  together  ,  so  .  i’ll  lay  here  too  .  ❜

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❛ in another life, i would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you. ❜

@sugurau / ANSWERED .

WOUNDS  REMAIN  FRESH  ,  raw  &  stinging  just  as  intensely  as  the  day  they  came  to  be  .  five  years  ago  he’d  watched  his  best  friend  disappear  into  the  swarm  of  the  city  bustle  ,  absorbed  the  contempt  in  his  gaze  &  weariness  in  his  expression  .  every  word  he  spoke  was  collateral  damage  ,  burning  shrapnel  tearing  up  his  fragile  heart  .  killing  him  would  have  had  good  reasons  ,  but  when  satoru  had  looked  ,  when  he  REALLY  looked  -  all  he  could  see  was  the  light  of  the  unwavering  soul  buried  deep  within  the  other  .  it  hadn’t  changed  ,  nor  been  tainted  by  something  dark  or  uncertain  .  suguru  was  suguru  ,  down  to  the  twisted  core  .  whatever  had  pushed  him  off  the  hazardous  edge  &  sent  him  spiraling  hadn’t  been  about  them  .  that  was  made  perfectly  clear  when  he’d  left  him  behind  . 

CLEAR  ,  crystal  when  his  thumbs  hovered  unsurely  across  the  call  button  to  his  contact  on  his  phone  -  before  he  realized  with  a  sinking  feeling  in  his  gut  that  he’d  been  blocked  before  he’d  composed  himself  enough  to  dial  the  number  .  it  hadn’t  been  about  them  .  he’d  grown  up  to  learn  loss  ,  to  accept  even  the  harshest  changes  .  no  amount  of  preparations  could  have  made  him  ready  for  it  .  the  hurt  was  so  visceral  he’d  begged  shoko  for  days  in  his  desperation  for  her  to  fix  it  ,  to  plunge  her  hands  into  his  chest  &  spread  his  ribcage  ,  to  soothe  an  agony  he  couldn’t  run  away  from  .  lay  his  body  down  flat  on  the  cold  metal  table  in  her  morgue  &  cut  away  what  rots  him  from  the  inside  ,  shear  the  ugly  blooms  until  what  was  left  was  untouched  by  cold  reality  . 

SOME  THINGS  aren’t  enough  .  not  when  he  catches  a  sickly  familiar  scent  -  wavering  cursed  energy  he’d  recognize  blind  ,  that  stir  poison  stems  he'd  thought  he'd  rid  himself  of  .  ❛  suguru  .  ❜  he  calls  ,  before  he  can  think  &  so  tentative  ,  voice  almost  lost  in  the  rustle  of  crisp  leaves  scattering  across  cracked  pavement  .  when  he  was  younger  ,  the  anticipation  of  any  mission  had  him  on  edge  ,  nerves  frayed  constantly  &  never  ending  tension  on  his  shoulders  .  any  special  grade  curse  ,  anything  they’d  once  handled  side  by  side  -  strong  enough  to  gather  either  of  their  attention  .  he’d  wondered  if  he’d  ever  run  into  him  on  missions  ,  hoped  for  it  even  .  he’d  missed  him  so  terribly  that  it  would  have  been  as  much  of  a  blessing  as  it  would  have  been  a  curse  for  their  paths  to  collide  together  .  his  mind  hasn’t  changed  even  now  -  when  he’d  known  something  was  off  from  the  start  . 

the  temple  had  remnants  of  cursed  energy  ,  whispers  of  something  dark  &  awful  .  but  nothing  compared  to  if  there  had  been  something  currently  residing  ,  lurking  in  the  shadows  .  his  best  guess  somewhere  in  the  midst  of  his  scattered  thoughts  are  that  suguru  had  gotten  there  before  him  .  it  would  make  sense  ,  as  his  one  &  only  had  always  been  quick  ,  smart  &  steps  ahead  .  the  higher  ups  pass  down  their  mission  information  &  satoru  wouldn’t  care  to  get  ahead  of  himself  unless  it  was  deemed  particularly  interesting  .  so  it’d  been  absorbed  ,  likely  moments  before  he’d  gotten  there  &  god  knows  how  many  times  he’d  been  just  a  little  too  late  when  it  came  to  suguru  geto  . 

❛  you’re  here  still  .  ❜  he  states  a  little  dumbly  ,  limbs  locked  frozen  in  place  .  refocused  he  can  make  out  some  motion  within  the  trees  ,  the  sway  of  clothes  &  dark  hair  .  suguru  watches  him  just  as  wearily  &  satoru  wants  to  ask  why  .  like  he’s  eighteen  again  &  his  world  is  crumbling  ,  his  first  love  lost  in  the  waves  of  the  earth  offering  harsh  reminders  that  satoru  gojo  isn’t  the  most  important  thing  .  he  wants  to  ask  why  he’d  left  ,  where  he’d  been  ,  why  he  hadn’t  called  back  for  him  .  the  glow  of  his  soul  flickers  &  just  as  quickly  the  realization  hits  him  that  there  isn’t  any  good  answers  . 

suguru  doesn’t  look  any  happier  than  when  he’d  left  .  in  another  life  ?  it  dumbfounds  him  temporarily  .  there  are  no  words  ,  nothing  he  can  string  together  &  spit  back  .  instead  he  stares  for  a  long  while  ,  refreshes  his  features  to  memory  &  offers  a  soft  hum  into  the  open  air  ,  lips  tilted  upwards  into  a  hint  of  a  smile.  ❛  that  sounds  good  .  in  another  life  then  ,  okay  ?  but  not  too  soon  .  ❜

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also rly can't stand ppl feeling left out or their muses feeling left out of something ppl are participating in so pls like if you'd like a valentine for ur muse , i don't wanna insert myself where i'm not welcome since i have a lot of ocs & characters i haven't had a chance to interact with on here . i can keep it simple & silly

[visioncursed]

i'm going to be answering valentines stuff probably tomorrow & writing a majority of the day , so if i haven't gotten to stuff yet it's just bc i've been at work & now i'm sleepy