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Changmin for S.M. The Ballad Vol. 2 - Breath (japan ver.)

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"TVXQ’s encore dance is traditionally done by 2 people dressed as a bride and groom and meant to show their affection for each other.”

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Well you didn't need to go all melancholy with it, he thinks. "I just -- I need some time. To myself."

He's never had time to himself; not really. Never wanted it. Ten whole years he'd been with Yunho, tormenting the older man with his pretentious demands and constantly inappropriate behaviour, simply because he could and simply because he knew that no matter what, Jung Yunho would always be the one who'd never leave him. He'd clung to that knowledge with all he had, reveling in the attention because whatever he didn't get from Yunho in certain ways, he received in others.

But now it was he who was leaving his perfect life, his cul de sac, his manager who might or might not mean more to Changmin than he'd care to admit. And the way Yunho was asking him, are you leaving, it does something to him -- clenches around him, pulls, tears him apart, leaves him without breath.

Stop it. I'm supposed to be breaking your heart, not you mine.

"You understand, don't you; hyung?" There's nothing to understand though. This is an attempt at running, this is fear and desperation. He's masked it well beneath courage and a journey of self-searching, but he intends to seek no answers -- mostly because he's afraid he knows what they are. "I need to find myself again."

Breakthrough [past] || Changmin & Yunho

He caught the rare warmth from Changmin’s smile, a glimpse of it rather, and it went by so hastily that he wasn’t given the time to register if it was the effect of the alcohol in his system. Clearly distracted for a brief moment back there, his eyes squinting instinctively as the droplets landed on his face. Attempting to wipe the droplets away from his cheek, it was then that he realized his hands were wet, and he’d just successfully left a trail across his face, before he released a sigh of defeat.

Unexpectedly, Changmin’s reply tugged on his curiosity and Yunho glanced over with faint amusement written across his features. His gaze followed Changmin’s movements briefly, watching absentmindedly as the ripples faded under the still surface, before he quirked a brow in response. On a normal basis, a sexual comment would have been passed at him, the fact that it wasn’t left him in a state of confusion. Then again, Changmin had always been confusing for him, to an extent. Changmin’s words reeled him back from his reverie, and he paused for a brief moment, mulling over the implied meaning before realization dawned upon him, and something in him sank. Ten years, it has been. He hadn’t really expected things to stay the way they were forever — a frivolous concept; but the thought of potential changes hadn’t crossed his mind, not until now at least. Expressing himself accurately was never his forte, and it was something he’d rather not tap on, but at that very moment, he found himself raking through his mind for the right words to phrase his question, but evidently settling for bluntness eventually. It wasn’t a question, not exactly, more of a statement — one which he didn’t know what to expect as an answer to, one which he didn’t know if confirmation was what he’d wanted to receive, but the question slips past his subconscious before he had the chance to react. “You are leaving?”

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I hope you kiss me really hard when I see you.

Unknown (via shakingpalms)

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(/in all honesty, as much as he wants answers, he also hopes there are no answers, because ignorance has always been safer, it’s what’s kept them sane and silent since Jeju, no matter how much Changmin had wished to ask why, among many other questions, he knew it’d bring too many problems, it would force them to answer a whole multitude of other questions; ones he wasn’t ready to even face yet, let alone answer) Right now, my mind is focused on how much of a jerk you can be. And I’m sure you’d agree that’s really weird coming from me of all people. (/he watches you drink from the same spot once he returns the cup to you, swallowing hard pagainst the bile in his throat; he really wants another kiss — a proper one. that he’s actually prepared for) Your pride could make the Himalayas look like pebbles in comparison.

{ — being up front with his thoughts and emotions has never been part of his competency, and he thinks he’d prefer it to remain that way, it makes things a lot simpler for him, ironically since he’s currently stuck in the midst of the complexity of it all; he hasn’t been able to delve too deep into his thoughts ever since the episode in jeju, in fear that certain assumptions would be actualized; it isn’t fair and he knows that — then again how fair has things been for him so far; on some days it all seemed like a game, where someone simply pushed the reset button to everything that has accumulated over the past few days — or even the past few years included, leaving him back at square one, and he concludes that maybe this isn’t so bad after all} depends on what’s in your mind. { — his gaze settles on the palpable sarcasm written across your defined features, before he raises his brows briefly, breathing out a light chuckle with a tinge of bitterness} infuriating? { — on other days however, his subconscious takes over while he hangs from the faint thread of hope that this isn’t as complicated as he’d made it up to be, and the vulnerability of his bare emotions is what chips away his self-defense mechanisms, leaving him with the urge to admit to his thoughts; your response snaps him out of his reverie, a thumb grazing idly against the handle of the cup just as you reach out for it, taking it in your grip before he could react; his gaze follows your movements, subconsciously noting the spot where you took a sip from; glancing down at the cup as it’s slipped back in front of him, he quirks a brow in response, pausing for a long moment before hooking an index around the handle, picking it up for a seemingly casual sip at the exact same spot about the edge}

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Jung Yunho = good job.

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wet, smiling, changmin (ღ˘⌣˘ღ)

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1738430347932 never ending reasons why Changmin should be everyone’s favourite

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Muse: I can't do that yet...

Mun: DO IT!

Muse: but it would rush the plot

Mun: I don't care! DO IT NOW.

Muse: But...

Mun: DO IT!

Muse: ...

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Fan: My mom told me Im prettier than Kim Tae Hee.

Changmin: All parents think their kids are pretty.

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you kids with your one wolf and teen direction