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[vixiiviii]

I’m afraid of writing aboyt you

Both of you

A mirror too familiar and rotten

Shining true the corpse of fluorescent shame

I close my eyes to it

And the video plays nonetheless

I’m sorry

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[vixiiviii]

A burnt tongue on an effigiuous light

Wry and blackened and heaving with release

Find home in mold

And urine

And memory

[vixiiviii]

A moment in time-

Get a little dirt on your hands boy

Get a lil dirt on your hands

(Music)

That thing is me

Press down all you want

Faggot

Yeah yeah yeah look at her

Candle lit vigil

Only the weak …. Oh never mind

You’re right. Fair enough. Just go to sleep.

Idiot

Breathe

Breathe

Just get a little dirt on you hands, boy

Sweet dreams

You should kill them

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[vixiiviii]

Cracked clouds give way

Crashing shattered light across the black mirror of hindsight

Burnt yellow begging bowls

Filled with the barren void found under overpass and tongue

Drunk on songs of merriment whilst we pull the vessel to pieces

I hear you giggling as the vivisection is completed

Each thread feels like a needle now

The shade of flicklered shadow a reminder of

Furtive failure

Stop

Breathing

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Passion is muted with age

A whisper of pointed purpose

The gray follicles of rot

Soaked in rational repurposing

Come mother or daughter

I am death

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(mushrooms)

Bonkers from Yonkers

Smooth talkers

Wanna stomp ya and book ya in motel lockers

Buy a book you whore

Slathered in batter

Slurping the tips of pin pricked dreams

Screaming leave and stay in this mildew dream

All out of yuck while she rolls up a buck

Sticking to stuck gum on floors made from quarters glazed with the dreams of baby boomer squatters

Never again and the sun never stops but you know fucking what? It does.

White meat peppered with freckles and shame and moth eaten sweaters

Picking up rubble of razor burned bodies along these skyscraper failures

Crying in soup and spitting seeds of discontent in sallow fields full of blood

Soddy wooden horses filled with men’s intentions

Shore leave for the sullen and slaughtered

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Down this treacherous rooted ravine

Are found the Blood bound wolves

Secret Shared womb

Nestled in shadow and thistle,

Lies a den for two

A Fabled glen of furver

Exchanging lament for pired release

Soaked in the damp quiet of forgiveness

These sovereign coals burn forever

With promises and permissions

Languid aquifers whispering of purity, laughter, and soft embrace

We belong To each other,

and to the vastness beneath our paws

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[vixiiviii]

AMONG GHOSTS

Blinded

Banished river wanderer

The creosote of a babes preordained coo

Soft songs of innocence

sinking into the muddied petrichor

of specter and angel alike

Flay my tuning tongue

Piked on your every pointed prick

Burn it

With rosemary and wishes

With the trust of a child

Bury the ashes with the broken bones and berries of sweet reflection

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The poisoning of weighted hours

Waiting

Marching blood pressure

trampled and muddied

The blurred murk of gravity and upheaval

Leather soles weathered

Polished from subjugation

Smelling of flesh since stolen

A tongue soaked in kindred blood

Whetstone to blade

And vein

And the dance between

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A tattered Homage to the estranged

Choking down Aphasia

The molasses of repetition

An adagio stuck in the wind

Pipes clogged with the greasy phlegm of apathetic apologies

A pounding fever grips the goo between my ears with searing metal tongs

And promises to yield

To be merciful

If I but sprout wings and fly away

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[vixiiviii]

Click /

Steel soliloquy

A sleeping silence in hand

Tired Arms once full of strength and pride

Now Desperate branches trembling

Click //

Cocked resolution

Black and thick and full of hope

A pulled wool to woo death

and bring her Home

Headlights kaleidoscope from under the moth-eaten pillowcase

Pricked stars of yesteryear stinging estranged iris’

Click ///

Click ////

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Soft Camera lenses

The brain zooming and zeroing

Salivating on marrow and

minutiae ///////

The Apple of black waters

Centered and steadfast

Apt pupil

Professor of silent softness

Upon a quivering lip

this lunar sovereign personified

Watching the tides freeze in place

Slowly

My every fiber fixed on you.

_________

Teach me how to live

In the golden windows of scorn

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My diamond

In silent soil you began

Cold and alone

The sunlight stamped out

Sinking in to abyss of black

Downwards you made your way to the fires of love

And passion

And treacherous pressure

Each moment in agony, a facet

Each crystalline shard, a story

Hidden beauty secretly tucked away from the chisel and whetstone of sight

(((And then I saw you)))

Muddied and alone

Lost among roots and stone

And the damp forgetfulness of expectant eyes

I saw you in all your spender, in the sun

Teeth and golden hair mocking the warmth of a summers day

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Any one thing I’ve done to protect and polish such a precious gem, is my greatest honor.

Go on and shine, little princess.