in the winter of my life, the boys I met along the road were my only summer. I fell asleep with visions of myself, dancing & laughing w/ them. my memories of them were the only things that sustained me. upon An unfortunate series of events i saw my dreams dashed & divided like a million stars in the night sky that I wished on over & over again, sparkling & broken. I didn't mind bc I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted & then losing it to know what true freedom is. you have no idea what it's like to seek safety in other people, for home to be wherever you lay your head. I was always an unusual girl. i have a chameleon soul; just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide & as wavering as the ocean. Who belonged to no one. Who had nothing, who wanted everything. w/ a fire for every experience & an obsession for freedom that terrified me to the point that I couldn't even talk about it & pushed me to a nomadic point of madness that both dazzled & dizzied me.