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Pictured: Two Seekers holding hands while reading.

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Akatsuki-Ring-Analyse #4

Hidan | 三 (San)

1. The Hand (left)

In the east-asian symbolism, the left hand stands for the Yin - principles, which is connected with intuition, the soul, inwardness, and the receiving in general. Wearing a ring on the left hand often reveals something about one's inner state or hidden intentions/agendas, something they would never say openly.

2. The Finger (Index finger)

In both the East and the West, the index finger represents direction, will, conviction, and a claim to power. It is the finger with which we point, judge, accuse, and dominate. In Eastern energy and hand healing (mudras), it is associated with the element of air: thought, dogma, belief, and language. On the left hand, the index finger often indicates ideological fixation or an inner urge to proselytize.

3. The Kanji (三 (San) )

"三" simply means "three", but numbers are never just counting in Sino-Japanese culture. The number three symbolizes: Trinity (e.g., Heaven-Human-Earth), and stability in motion (the triangle as a fixed but dynamic construct). Religiously it symbolises ceremony, sacrifice, and transition.The number three is also a sacred number in many cultures, often associated with repetition, ritual, and power through repetition.

4. The Connection to Hidan

Hidan's entire life revolves around a single theme: Religious fanaticism. He kills in the name of Jashin, performs rituals, and believes in eternal life through pain. That his ring bears the number three is a perfect fit: He repeats his sacrificial ceremonies with almost manic precision (body–blood–death). The left index finger makes it clear: His ideology is not an outward statement, but an inner compulsion. He lives not for power or money, but for faith, no matter how destructive it may be. Hidan is a walking dogma, a missionary of death. And that makes him all the more dangerous.

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about tiger stripes

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Fem KakuHida is my weakness

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I won't tell you how much KCD has affected me, but there will be hints

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the years have made me weird and strange to talk to. but still i must post

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I made/painted edits of the patho 2 herbs so they look like vintage botanical illustrations.

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I was teaching kids today and they got fixated on the usual ‘are they dead now?’ question when I was talking about historical figures. So I was just like ‘Yes, they’re dead now, everyone who was alive in the 1800s is dead now.’ and then one kid was like ‘Except for you’.

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All of this has probably been said, but I need it off my chest haha

I feel like the argument Tav/Durge is robbing Astarion of the perfect life he would have upon completing the ritual works under the assumption that spawn Astarion is some kind of weak pathetic thing that is only being 'good' out of a sense of duty to someone that has been kind to him, and that having power would make him happier, but well... That couldn't be further from the truth. Spawn Astarion isn't dependent on Tav/Durge, he's his own person. He doesn't need anyone. (Also I don't really think Astarion is a saint if he stays a spawn, or even 'good' by most standards, he's still a menace. <3 Sweet, and with a capacity for compassion, but he's still him. He likes blood. He likes violence sometimes. It comes with the character, it's not gonna go away just because he stays a spawn. I do think most of the performative cruelty will fade with time, though, because at this point he's secure enough to know he doesn't need it. Anyway, I digress.)

If you talk to him in his unascended ending while being unromanced? He's so happy!! He's not doing anything that he doesn't want to do, here, and certainly not out of a sense of being indebted to Tav/Durge, since they're not even in a relationship. If meeting with God Gale in this epilogue (aka. if you play as Gale and ascend to godhood), he will laugh and make it clear that he might have wished for exactly what Gale has (an incredible amount of power), once upon a time, but now he thinks he would feel more "chained than charmed" by the power —his words, not mine. He's so self aware there, I love him.

Astarion, when he stays a spawn, is an incredibly strong and resilient person, who does not need power to feel secure. Nor does he need Tav/Durge's approval, and his actions are not meant to appease them. He's doing things for himself. He will look at his past, and he will acknowledge that things have hurt him (which isn't something he's able to do after completing the ritual, he will yell at you for daring to bring back said past). And this acknowledgement of pain is the entire reason he's able to heal and move forward. He doesn't see that pain as a weakness anymore. He's not ashamed of his scars. That's true strength, right there, the kind of strength that power cannot give you. It's beautiful.

And yeah, sure, the sun would be nice (there are certainly a few ways to get it, by dnd canon), and power is fun. But isn't inner peace nice, too?

I know which I'd prefer to have, personally.

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Another practice and another quote I like💜

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Lighting study, I love playing around with the gradient map feature on Procreate for lighting!

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It's not that I haven't found the right person, I'm just the wrong person for everybody else.

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Hey, fellow mandela guy here Thank you to indigotoky0! I was infact thinking of how Kristine says Nathan got a full scholarship! Yeah, she could be misinformed but the fact she comes from the same house and doesn't question it makes me thinks he likely is in on actual scholarship, even if his father is still paying to cover up other issues.

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Those moments never truly leave you

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nightly kisses