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“the heart wants what it wants”? okay well the heart is fucking stupid can we let someone else have a turn? maybe the spleen wants to have a go?

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pulls up my ellipsus documents

bwaa goodnight mutuals you are loveddd

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bwaa goodnight mutuals you are loveddd

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What 8-20 stage 2 feels like:

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sancho.... dulcinea.... i have concieved of an idea most ingenious.... we shall make our lamancha land parade a pride parade!

and then everything was ok forever

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Found in my camera roll

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this is ur sign to decorate ur mobility aids!!

i decorated it to match my graduation cap and outfit :-)

ID: three photos of the same forearm crutch on a white background. it has been spray painted cyan blue, the lower part of the cuff has many silver glittery stars on it in multiple sizes. the cuff has been bedazzled in matching rhinestones, with some silver star shaped rhinestones as well. there is a cyan paracord strap attached to the cuff with silver rings, and has a crocheted cover on the handle. first image: a side view of the crutch. second image: a head on shot of the crutch, showing the star rhinestone on the handle. third image: a back shot of the crutch, showing off the rhinestones on the cuff.

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galleria borghese, roma

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Why is the plot covered in yeast... - 🩸

you see, as a fanfic author i am the yeast that makes the plot rise

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Day 61 I'll put voting in the next posts I just dont want to potentially mess with the stuff. Everyone say hi Bari.

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🤲🏻🍎

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fucked up ego gift. its turn 2

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shout out to plurals who’s frequent fronters change all the time.

shout out to alters who are afraid of not fronting all the time, either because theyre so use to it or they’re afraid they wont get to front again.

shout out to systems who wish they had a more consistent rotation of fronters and wish it wasn’t so come and go with system members.

shout out to alters who like fronting.

shout out to members who get frontstuck regularly.

and shout out to systems trying to find a middle ground between being front stuck and having completely inconsistent fronters.

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one of the most important things about dissociative identity disorder and generally being a system that i wish people would understand is that it truly isn’t as cut and dry as it may seem for member count.

you’ll see people who say they have “six alters” and then immediately assume it’s six fully fleshed out equal individuals with no confusion or fuzziness regarding identity. that’s simply not true in a majority of cases, as i have seen.

most systems still VERY much deal with confusion regarding potential splits, go through dissociative episodes where they’re unsure of who they are, sometimes feel no attachment towards any identities, feel like they might have split and then suddenly that person is gone, unsure if alters they haven’t heard from often have gone dormant, not sure how to react when alters do come out of dormancy, etc.

it’s not a fun feeling and it’s genuinely unfair in certain situations to force systems to list every single alter to you with full certainty, as if it will never change. because it will. for so many different reasons, systems will grow, they will shrink, they will fuse, they will develop. you can’t expect the person with the dissociative disorder and lack of core identity to be able to keep up a perfected list of forever, it’s simply impossible. you may have alters who stick with you, but that doesn’t mean changes won’t happen.

and systems who may be reading this — please don’t feel bad. you are not a hassle, you are not a headache, and you are not an inconvenience for simply coping with something like this. it’s out of your control and the only thing you can do is continue to cope to find ways to help yourself retrain from these reactions. please don’t allow yourself to be harmed by others who don’t understand what you are going through. there are people who will accept and love you for who you are, all of you.

past, present, and future.

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DID / OSDD ask game

🌲 How has your numbers of parts changed over time?

🌻 Favorite quote from a part.

🌾 Any songs you relate to DID / OSDD?

🌙 Share a special relationship between parts.

🌊 Any inside jokes in your system?

🌺 Describe one part of your inner world.

🌍 Can you change your inner world and access it freely?

🐛 Which part made a lot of progress?

🍂 Did a fusion happen in your system?

☀️ How do you all prefer to communicate?

🌱 How open are you about your DID / OSDD?

🌄 Did you ever went through phases of denial?

🗻 How much does your inner world feel like home?

🍁 How do your parts get their names?

🌈 Are there any parts who view themselves as something other than human? Or who have supernatural powers?

🦔 Are there any parts of you that you miss?

👥 Is there a person you all can be yourselves around?

🦚 Ho covered / overt is your DID / OSDD?

❔ (ask any other question)

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shout out to those alters that fronted once then dipped🙏🙏

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christmas intervallo with my level 34 don (we got our asses beat)