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" If you've come to hate me, say it so that I may be free. "

     she was quick to turn away, offering little more than a frigid shoulder, tension winding in her chest. she didn't want to look at her, not now, it would have been far simpler to be rid of this situation, but it was her own apartment that prevented her from just storming off.

      idle fingertips fidgeted restlessly with the buttons of her shirt's collar, all the while a foreboding silence hung over them, and for now at least, quiet seemed far better than words. her denial could only last for so long. ❝ fine — i hate you, ❞ the words came too easily, casual, cruelly monotone in their dismissal. despite herself, no matter how often she wished she did, she didn't hate Seju. if she could hate her, perhaps things would not be so complicated, nothing with Baek Seju ever felt simple.

     she needed a drink, or a cigarette, something to take the edge off, something to rid herself of the stress inhabiting her every fibre. she was with someone else now, or at least she was supposed to be, what about that is so difficult?

     it was all too much, she could feel tears pricking at the corners of her eyes, no matter how fervently she fought them. all too quickly, she found herself tasting Seju's lip gloss, and it seemed sickeningly sweet. her approach had wasted no time in closing the space between them, catching little more than a glimpse of the other's pink haired visage before their lips would clash and her eyes would fall shut. it was a desperate act, volatile and breathless, grasping for support as she took fistfuls of her ex-lover's clothing, this was her addiction and it was far more dangerous than nicotine.

     still hungry but already regretful, she tore herself away, momentarily taking in the view of the aftermath, only to turn away again. ❝ you should leave, ❞ her voice was softer now, but no less cold, desperate to keep steady, unwilling to show any more weakness.  ❝ i don’t want to see you anymore. ❞

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When I tilt my head it's because I want you to bite my neck

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[ migunstyle ] Turtle-Neck Slit-Side Knit Top

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                                             ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴅᴏᴇs ᴛʜᴇ ғᴏx sᴀʏ ?

                                     Seong Sumin                                   Baek Seju                                        As Mused by                                     As Mused by                                             Kirin                                         Jieun

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"Tell me, when you close your eyes is it still me you see or have I finally been completely replaced?"

     With  hesitant  motions,  hands  balled  tightly  into  anxious  fists.  Seju  never  failed  to  have  an  effect  on  her,  though, over  time  she  had  learned  to  hide  it better,  still  without  fail,  she  felt  the  need  for  a cigarette.

Conflict  filled  her,  what  was  she  supposed  to  say?  Was  she  to  lie  and  say  that  she  pictured  someone  else?  A  part  of  her  refused  to  hand  over  the  satisfaction  of  knowing  that  she  still occupied  her  thoughts. Eyes  shifted  away,  she  couldn’t  look  at  her.

Her  walls  were  up  again, Seju  didn’t  deserve  anything  from  her  not  anymore. Still,  she  hesitated  with  her  reply,  as  her  frigid  stare  returned to  the  pinkette.  ‘  Why  do  you  care  ? ‘

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Grump.

how dare.

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