honestly i’m just. so tired. i’m so tired of this and it’s not even my breakup so i can’t fucking imagine how tired awsten is.
he was so happy at my show. friday night. he was giggling and smiling so much he got through powerless and 21 questions with no issues. we were singing so loud and he was fine. the very next show, he’s crying again and there’s “distance makes the heart grow fonder - no it doesn’t”
i’m willing to bet all my money it was because of the ciara/gracie fight on twitter. aka ciara being an overstepping immature petty bitch. it was so fucking unnecessary and awsten seemed okay until it happened then he tweets something really sad which is either lyrics off entertainment or lyrics to something else he’s writing imho.
“tell him to stay in therapy” no. stop it. shut your fucking mouth. you did this to him. you broke him. you do not get to have an opinion about how he fixes himself. he’s in pain and he’s talking about it through lyrics, he’s trying to get through the way he knows how, and it’s not something you get to comment on.
awsten’s always been a private person in regard to talking about his mental health. he writes about it. his lyrics are all about it. but actually talking about it in interviews?? he doesn’t do that. he doesn’t want to do that. and this bitch has no right to come out here and tell the world things he probably told her in confidence and trusted her with.
it’s obvious that he has mental health issues. that’s never been a secret. but he deserves the fucking human decency of that bitch keeping things about their relationship to herself, especially the not so great things.
my ex told me a lot of personal stuff, a lot of things he felt that he didn’t trust anyone else with. even though it ended badly and he’s a fucking asshole for doing what he did i wouldn’t dream of spreading it around for the world to see because i am fucking decent human being and he told me that shit in private.
a breakup is not a reason to air someone else’s dirty laundry out.
and before people come for me with “he wrote worst calling her tf out” she’s in the wrong here. she fucked up. he’s not talking about shit she told him while they were together. she cheated on him and he’s talking about that. and he’s not even talking about what actually happened he’s talking about how it made him feel and i don’t know about you but if someone told me i couldn’t write about how i felt after my breakup i would’ve just about gone insane.
i could go on forever but i won’t. ciara is a bitch. her petty little video throwing his shoes in the trash was so immature. she needs to shut her fucking mouth about anything related to him and let him pick up the pieces of what she broke on his own. she owes him that much.
god. aws would feel so used in the flashlight thing…..hed love it sm……cry ab it and whine for otto but otto is like “awww, does the baby want something?” and!! it’s good.
i forgot 2 answer this but AAAUGHHHH
being talked to all demeaning like that while otto fucks this fleshlight, aws so whiny, even in response to a statement like that. "can't use your words?" otto prompts, and aws shakes his head. otto wipes his tears off his cheeks before he spits on his face, murmuring "pathetic. this is why i don't fuck you" and aws closes his eyes, letting out a pretty little sob
geoff always laughs at his phone when he reads the tweets awsten sends him
when awsten needs a hug, he goes to geoff. neither of them say anything; geoff just knows that awsten wants to be held for a little while. geoff gives him really tight hugs and rubs his back til he can relax a little.
when geoff is busy doing something and awsten wants attention, awsten goes up to geoff and stares at him until he responds.
geoff has mastered the casual reminder for awsten to take his meds
if geoff falls asleep on the couch, awsten thinks it’s better to let him stay there, but if awsten falls asleep on the couch, geoff prefers to wake him up and make sure he gets to bed.