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Tomodachi Life for 3DS now finally has a gay mod, happy pride month

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I need to repost the funniest fucking video my friend has ever made I cant stop thinking about it I need to inflict it on more people

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i feel weirdly comtent about the whole thing, you know? :,)

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ok how are you people putting commas in your tags

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exitedly telling someone about something you like only for them to be like "well that seems cool. id have to see it to believe it but that sounds good." is fucking soulcrushing

no wonder im fucking isolated

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source

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wow it is IMPOSSIBLE to be moody and emo when listening to relax LMAO

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spending a full weekend with a bunch of skinny, conventionally attractive people is literally the worst moodkiller LOL

it extra sucks when theyre all really nice and cool

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i'm glad there are episodes in the next generation where data gets reprogrammed/possessed/we meet his evil twin/etc, because as much as brent spiner is amazing as data, his real talent is playing weird little freaks

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i wish someone was obsessed with me :(

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I WANNA BE LOVED

I WANNA BE LOVED

I WANNA BE LOVED

I WANNA BE LOVED

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im sorry, that im a little bit pathetic and mean

im a very selfish and deeply, fundamentally flawed creature

wowie this whole account is like an unhinged compilation of me at my very very worst

i promise this isnt me!!!!

i love making music and songs and singing and playing piano and drawing and writing and learning and talking. and making friends and yearning. for friends and cooking and baking and im a lot more than this!

i wish i could get that through my thick thick skull

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i hope im not a burden

i hope im not a chore

i hope im not an obligation

im just scared that as soon as he sees me

as soon as he realizes what i look like

he'll be gone

you know?

which is why i need to ingrain myself in his life

and make myself unforgettable

so he cant bear to leave

and so he can like me despite my body

...or at the very least, maybe i can lose some of this weight? maybe...? thats why im walking every day

its why im having less and less portions

...i dont really know. im sorry. im sorry im not more desirable. im sorry. i dont know what you see in me. i dont understand. it goes against everything ive ever believed about myself. and i know it wont last. i know it will never work. but i keep holding on because i like the feeling of being desired, because ive never felt it before. nobodys ever felt this way about me before. its new and exciting and im so ridiculously naive and easy to manipulate.

...its pathetic.

im so pathetic.

but if it doesnt bother you

if its not a chore

if its not a burden

...id love to keep annoying you some more.

and id love it if you kept entertaining my silly little fantasy. i promise, it doesnt take much to fan the flame! its not hard at all! just, a tiny bit of time per day is enough to get my head spinning

i hope that one day, ill be pretty enough to make up for all of myself! i know that itll never happen. but a guy can dream, right?

and when it fizzles out,

...hey,

at least i got new music out of it :,)

i mean the idea of anybody really loving me for the thing i really am inside feels so like

i dunno it feels like a joke

theres nobody i feel safe enough with to tell everything to

not the otherkin stuff

not the masturbation

not even to explain my gender

not the tickling stuff

not my original characters

not my humor

not anything

and forget anybody ever wanting to be intimate with me in any way haha that just seems like some sick joke

i mean i cant even visualize anybody ever liking me enough for that, not even liking me on a surface level enough / or my body

i dont really know. this all just feels like a sick prank. like theres something fundamentally wrong with me thats so horribly unlovable that nobody wants to even be a shoulder's length close enough to me

i desire some deep fundamental and intrinsic understanding of somebody and i want them to understand me that way too. but i guess im just not built for that haha

chat is this anything? chat? is this anything, chat? chat?

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:(

i mean the idea of anybody really loving me for the thing i really am inside feels so like

i dunno it feels like a joke

theres nobody i feel safe enough with to tell everything to

not the otherkin stuff

not the masturbation

not even to explain my gender

not the tickling stuff

not my original characters

not my humor

not anything

and forget anybody ever wanting to be intimate with me in any way haha that just seems like some sick joke

i mean i cant even visualize anybody ever liking me enough for that, not even liking me on a surface level enough / or my body

i dont really know. this all just feels like a sick prank. like theres something fundamentally wrong with me thats so horribly unlovable that nobody wants to even be a shoulder's length close enough to me

i desire some deep fundamental and intrinsic understanding of somebody and i want them to understand me that way too. but i guess im just not built for that haha

chat is this anything? chat? is this anything, chat? chat?

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finally unfollowing that one annoying person that you kinda enjoyed once but now just feel like a chore to keep indulging in

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keep hearing the siren's song. what the fuck. like im trying to relearn rotational mechanics and the dynamics of torque for my final exam. :/