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Hi, I don't know how to tell you about my daily activities but this year more than enough for me to spend my time with my job things. Two weeks ago I had two things to do in Jogjakarta and Bali, I know Bali is the scariest place for me because all of the drama came from that place but I am too happy that my condition is just too good to face the truth. I am trying to bring you back to 15th September 2021 at 9 pm central Indonesian time. I think at that time my eyes just sparkling and my heart just beating so fast because finally, I met my old friend called Ngurah Rai International Airport. I really can't describe the feeling at that time but simply we called it happy. About 30 minutes left we are finally done taking the bag from the baggage and I decided to rent the car to bring us to the hotel.

When we arrived, I realise that Bali will never fail me because I saw the receptionist even he/she/it wear a mask I know that the face was just cute and actually my type. But forget that I finally had a key to spend my time with myself after my very hard work. The next day on 16th September 2021 I had a lot of work (Actually I can't describe what is the work specifically) but long story short my list of food for that day has been checked. Do you know what? On that day I finally eat the Ayam Betutu and had dinner at Jimbaran. After work, we decided to leave Denpasar and go to Ubud to spend our last day in Bali. Long story short after we arrived at the villa, The villa was just beyond the imagination. Our finance partner is just too kind. She ordered us the expensive villa called Bliss Ubud Luxury Villa. Long story short I enjoyed the last night in Bali with a small and deep conversation with my partner at the team.

The next day on 17th September 2021 I wake up so early for swimming and breathing the Ubud's air. Actually, the job is just too fun because finally, I had time to travel to other cities even at work. Not much story at the end of the day in Ubud but once again I am too grateful for the trip.

Thanks for always supporting me, I love you to infinity and beyond.

XOXO,

WGP

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Would you stay with the goals?

Hi, I am back!

Been a long time I am stopping to share with you guys what is really happening to my reality. Ups and downs are always my common condition for more than a year later. Today, I am having so much energy facing the truth. I am trying to put a low expectation on people cause I know no one can understand me except myself and I swear to god that my mom knows everything about me.

When I was in high school, I wrote 100 dreams and today I know I am on it. I dreamed to go abroad to have a higher education. I also dreamed to get the opportunity to study at the Harvard University (my dream campus) and right now I am trying to push it down, I am not expecting I will graduate from that Uni. The situation is just too different right now. My dad was passed away about 4 years ago and life feels so difficult cause I can't do my business freely. Two years ago, I graduated with my master's degree in Health Economics and Marketing at the University of Airlangga. And from that time I promise that I will never stop this journey and continuing my doctoral degree as soon as possible.

In 2020, I am finally got my first scholarship from Kyoto University. I am trying to tell them that I don't need the additional master's degree. The reality just too far from my expectation. The professor from the department just emails me that he wants me to take 5 years study period with both masters and doctoral degrees. I am so confused at that time cause I can't leave my sister and my mom. 5 years isn't a short time for me cause I can't deal with time again. I can't lose any member of my family.

In early 2021, I decided to find another University that has a normal time study period. I mean 3 years for a doctoral are enough. I plan to study at HKU, Lund U, Montreal U, Uni of North Carolina, Uni of Milan, etc. I am now waiting for the Turkiye baslari scholarship and ISDB scholarship. wish me luck!

For you guys who read this, I wish you guys healthy and happy!

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Hujan

Selamat pagi, walau sebenarnya ini sangat pagi karena di Surabaya sekarang pukul 12:44 Pagi. Entah apa sebenarnya yang sedang ku pikirkan saat ini, semua terasa semakin berangsur membaik dari kisah percintaanku sebelumnya dan semua yang sebelumnya masih belum bisa berdamai dengan diri sendiri sekarang sudah lebih menerima dan berani berjalan kedepan dan siap melewati cerita yang lain. Setiap hari merasa terus berubah menjadi lebih baik, walau sebenarnya ibadahku masih belum kembali membaik tapi setidaknya aku sudah merasa dan menginginkan keluar dari belenggu kekecewaan ini.

Yang kutahu hujan adalah hasil dari proses penguapan air lalu menggumpal menjadi awan mendung dan yak hujan pun turun ke bumi dengan berbagai fungsi. Hujan menyuburkan tanaman, hujan memberikan makanan untuk hewan dan tumbuhan, hujan memberikan ketenangan. 2018 ini merupakan titik temu dimana semua yang merupakan manfaat hujan mulai terasa pada diriku (dalam arti yang berbeda). Ketenangan hati, pikiran, dan merasa mulai berguna untuk orang lain merupakan alasan mengapa hujan merupakan sesuatu yang menyenangkan untuk memberikan perumpamaan kepada diriku saat ini.