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Yep, that's me in the corner. You're probably wondering how I ended up in the spotlight losing my religion.

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Maybe all the things you thought made you you aren’t really…you. Barbie (2023) / Fight Club (1999)

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Genius

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Jay’s Paperbook of Poems |

Jay(a)

Before we start this time, let me make a little side note. I love this song. I’m a big fan of Radiohead, I’m a big fan of The Bends, and I’m the biggest fan of (Nice Dream). It’s the lyrics, it’s the way it’s sung, the melody, the end DEAR GOD the freaking end….. I love it. It’s my entire personality, it tells my whole story, I just connect with it. The lyrics touch my heart and made me tear up on several different occasions, twice in public when I was listening to it with my sister. It’s just. On a different level in my opinion. If you’ve never listened to the song, I URGEEE you to not spend another second in your life without listening to it. Now if you go, it starts weak, I know. Wait for it. (At least if you’re like me because my sister says this is one of the worst Radiohead songs) also fun fact! This song played on ‘How I Met Your Mother’ when Ted got into a car crash when taking a Taxi! And when his friends were called to the hospital. Anyways,

“They love me like I was a brother, they protect me, listen to me”

Let me start with, ‘As iron sharpens iron, brother sharpens brother’, and continue with saying this will be about Skybound Jay, so prepare yourself for the angst (and for fanon input). The scene I’m having in mind is Jay in his cell, retelling his sweeter moments in life in his head. If you don’t know the song, it’s talking about more of an imaginary, I-know-it’ll-never-happen-but-it’s-nice-to-think-about kinda scenario. So this is prisoner Jay, lost all hope of his friends actually coming, so now he’s kinda accepting his situation and replays his life ‘I’ve lived a good life’ kind of moment (also like how your brain replays your life 7 minutes while you die or something?). Anyways after years of isolation, Jay is accepted into a bigger family with a ton of brothers and sister, and he couldn’t be happier to be recognized as a brother to them. They protect him, they listen to him

“They dug me my very own garden, gave me sunshine, make me happy”

Now for me, the garden isn’t flowers or vegetables or any of that, but rather a metaphor. Whats a garden? It’s a place that holds duplicates of the same thing, that are still so different. Each thing grows differently, natured a little more/less. I find the garden to be some kind of happy memory garden that the ninja dug Jay. Sunshine that helped him grow as a person (mentally and physically)

“Nice dream” x3

Now Jay is recognizing the situation to be a complete daydream that would just not take place ever again

“I call up my friend, the good Angel, but she’s out with her answerphone. She says that she’d love to come help, but, the sea would electrocute us all”

I connected between the two lines because I think they’re very important for interpretation. Personally, mention of a ‘she’, ‘sea’, and ‘angel’ when it’s from Jay’s point of view. It’s totally Nya. I think that’s Jay trying to find comfort in thinking about Nya, but remember that water and lightning cannot go together, and is bluntly attacked by his memories about the times he’s wronged her, or misunderstood her. Specifically a scene I have in mind is when they were undercover, and Jay tried to buy lunch for them both (though Nya ended up paying). They say down, and Nya explained that she loves him (she’d love to come help) as a friend (but the sea would electrocute us all). So Jay brings Nya up (call up my friend, the good Angel), only to have it completely handed back to him (but she’s out with her answerphone, aka she’s not answering, she isn’t reciprocating.)

“Nice dream” x7

I like that it repeats, because it’s a painful reminder for, this case, Jay, that what he’s now yearning for, will never actually occur, and he won’t be able to achieve that sort of peace. Ever.

“(If you think that you’re strong enough) Nice dream (if you think you belong enough) Nice dream” x2

The crippling anxiety and regret sliding into Jay’s daydream. Maybe he hears the pirates, maybe he keeps remembering he isn’t strong enough and will soon be done for, maybe he remembers that so long as he thinks he’s still a part of the team, he’ll manage to hold hope that he will be rescued. Remember, Jay is faced with Physical and Mental challenges on that ship. He keeps telling himself ‘just a little more’ (if you think that you’re strong enough) ‘it’s going to be okay’ (nice dream) ‘they’re coming soon’ (if you think you belong enough) ‘I will be okay’ (nice dream)

“I’m coming home” x4

After those horrific, realistic thoughts, Jay is coming back ‘home’, aka to his daydream euphoria. He just isn’t able to cope with his reality as a hopeless prisoner, with everything being his fault, with everything he went through, he doesn’t want to understand his situation, but run away from it.

“Nice dream” x4

And that’s him running away from it.

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My love.

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i’m not horny at the moment so everyone else’s horniness is disgusting me like get help for real

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I SHALL DISTURB THE PEACE

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*sigh*