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Colin & Eloise Bridgerton + reassuring Penelope

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Chaos Colin is best Colin.

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I'm in love with how they turn from friends to lovers 🥲🤍

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polin + tweets

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Back when Lukey Newts was active on social media. I miss it!

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You know what I hate real real bad?

How people mischaracterize Colin (they do the same to Pen but I am going to make that a separate post for her) when we have proof that directly goes against their claims.

"Colin did not see Pen as worthy"

"Colin did not have love for/care for Pen/or pay attention to her until season 3"

"Colin does not truly love her it's only lust"

I understand having your own opinion but there are times when the opinion is OBJECTIVELY WRONG. I also don't like how folks have chosen to do this to likely the kindest male lead we'll have who expressed his love for his partner CONSTANTLY and CONSISTENTLY.

Those aren't the only things I've heard or seen but they are among the biggest misconceptions. Outside of not realizing the extent of his feelings for Pen until a catalyst (the first kiss, while we also see in the first two episodes moments that are also leading up to the realization), it is and has never been that he sees Pen as unworthy he sees HIMSELF as unworthy. WE see this even after he knows that she returns his feelings which he did not even know until the carriage. After the carriage and even while he is working through the LW reveal, he still does not feel worthy of her which is a big part of Pen reminding him in words and actions that being him makes him more than worthy. We see how worthy he sees her when he tells her to never forget that SHE is Penelope Featherington. We also see it when he is absolutely puzzled during the first kiss scene at the fact that Pen sees herself in such a self-deprecating way. He can not even imagine a life for her that is not reflecting the very best.

Next, Colin is arguably the main person we see show a genuine interest in Pen as well as truly treasuring her in his life. From dancing with her in a protective fashion after Cressida through a drink at her, having conversation together where they are the only people who get what they are saying and what it means, getting involved with Jack's plot in order to protect Pen and by extension the Featheringtons because that is Pen's family, writing to her and seeing her correspondence as his most treasured, laughing with each other on multiple occasions, seeking her out for either conversation or a dance no matter what whenever they come across each other at a social gathering. I could go on and that's just in the first two seasons. Not showing romantic interest does not mean that he did not deeply love and care for her. Colin and Pen mutually made each other feel seen and understood in a way in no one else did...is that not an expression of love? If Colin had not already treated Pen in the way he had she likely would not have fallen so deeply in love with him. Colin being so loving, caring, kind, understanding, interested in Pen and what she had going on, and much more also plays a role in why she is able to forgive him for his thoughtless comment last season. He reflects the character we have known him to be towards the end of S3 E1 when we see a genuine apology where he takes accountability tells Pen how much she means to him and seeks out how he can make up for his mistake.

Lastly, the Colin does not love her and only lusts for her is just not even kind of true. We are talking about the same man who has expressed his love (whether via 'i love yous', in his words, actions, looks, closeness, etc.) for his partner so so so often and in such a way we likely will never see with another pairing. This the man who would prefer sleep than to be awake because in his dreams they were in love and together. The same man where his whole world was topsy turvy following his realization of those same feelings. The same man whose dream about Pen that STARTED with Pen returning his feelings of love for her then led to a hot makeout. The same man who put it all on the floor and said societal rules be damned (as he always did with her) because even if it was unrequited he was going to let Pen know just how much he loved her and wanted to be with her...to show her that one person in her life would be willing to fight her no matter the opponent or cost because she would always be worth it. The same man who stood up to her mother to show that she would no longer be allowed to treat the love of his life in such an ugly way. The same man who expresses his love for Pen without ceasing and even when we did not hear the expressions as much (while working through the LW reveal and his own insecurities). The same man who turned his fianceé around so that she could only day see and believe everything he loved about her for herself. The same man who put so much intention into their first time so that it reflected something they were doing together. The same man who was so in love enamored and joyful to be with the love of his life that it felt like his first time. The same man who even when never considered not marrying Pen even at his most heartbroken and angriest DUE to how much he loved her and knowing and believing that she felt the same. The same man who when he sees her come down the aisle he forgets everything else and only thinks about how lucky he is to marry his favorite person, his best friend, and the love of his life. The same man who has given us arguably the most touching love confession that will be so hard to beat because he expresses not only how much loves and admires Pen; he expresses what he was struggling with (how he overcame it and reframed it) and how he realized that his ultimate joy and privilege in this one life he gets to live is to be able to love and be loved by her. The love is on display in countless ways. While we also know that they match each other's freak real bad and have palpable passion and desire for each other...the love is and has always been the center even before they knew the love was requited.

I don't know which Colin Bridgerton alot of folks saw but it was not the one we have seen from season 1, 2, or 3. Do you have to love Colin/Pen/Polin/or their story with your whole heart like me? Of course not. I can't allow the blatant and incorrect character assassination though. Turn your brains on, I beg.

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colin had never been opposed to marriage. he'd simply been opposed to a dull marriage. he wasn't picky.

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Do you ever think about how special it is that Pen and Colin have known each other for most of their lives and have seen their love transform? Like the story that they get to tell their kids one day about their love is one unlike anyone in their circle. Love matches are already rare in their time but what is even more rare is a love reflecting what Colin and Penelope have had--the honor of loving each other most of their lives eve when it was not romantic.

I also think about how much it must have meant to Violet to see a love story similar to the one she had with Edmund unfold. Seeing so much of Edmund in Colin and so much of Pen in her. I wonder just how long she hoped for that. Especially considering how from the start of the show Colin always treated her different and in ways that would have them betrothed had others caught them.

Colin and Pen are also a great example of why true lovers--he loverboys and lovergirls--need to find their match with someone who also loves in that way. Otherwise, they would likely feel a deficit.

I will never be free of this brainrot and like Colin I don't want to be.

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This is perfect. I also think it speaks to the frustration he feels/felt among realizing this wasn't a new thing for him. At one point, his love for her transformed to reflect deep romantic feelings but because of their long standing relationship which already reflected love, care, and affection he was unable to differentiate it when he's loved Pen as a person for a large portion of his life already.

That very subtle way that Colin’s expression changes right before he steps towards Penelope for their first kiss. You get more of a description of it in the book, but in that moment you can see his feelings turn. He knows that he shouldn’t, he knows that it’s a bad idea, it’s not proper, but for the first time he’s aware that he wants this. He shouldn’t, but he wants Penelope in a way that’s intimate, in a way that’s more than friends, and yet strangely that feeling isn’t new. For once he doesn’t stop himself. The siren, goddess that she is, he finally lets himself be drawn in by her, and it feels more right than anything else in his life ever had before

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I regret to inform you I’m #sims trash.

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“I have been dreaming about you the whole night, the whole night,”

— Anton Chekhov, from The Complete Works; “The Grasshopper,”

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Oh so the plural of surgeon general is surgeons general, huh? Well what about bunnies rabbit. Puppies dog. KITTIES CAT. Did you ever think of that, you sillies goose?

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The escalation of him confessing his love on his knees to chomping on her boobs and neck was wild man. I think about it every day

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i'm so thankful for all of the girls you loved before, but i love you more

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BRIDGERTON SEASON 3 (2024)

PEN AND COLIN

03x06

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lucky i'm in love with my best friend

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"I'm not giving up on my dreams, I'm going back to sleep." -Colin, at some point