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i should make strawberry chocolate blended oats wow my genius knows no bounds

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im lowkey seeing gym progress like my biceps and abs are very slowly coming in and i swear my shoulders are a bit more defined than they used to be… i might be delusional and no one else would be able to tell but i can….. my most ultimate goal is abs. i would love to have super lean and defined legs but i know thats really a long shot and it would take much longer for visible definition in my legs but i think my upper body might show results soon

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wieiad 6/25

it all fit in one screenshot so here’s a picture of my smoothie bowl to keep the formatting don’t be fooled it was not thick enough and could have been drunk through a straw but i ate it with a spoon anyway, blended frozen apples, peaches, and strawberries with chia seeds, some chopped walnuts as garnish ✨

i made calzones i’ve been wanting to make some for a while and i used dough made of only flour and greek yogurt. it was a pain and the calzones were not very beautiful at all i didn’t get a picture but they tasted pretty good. filled with tomato sauce, cheeses including cottage cheese for protein, chicken, and spinach

i got peanut butter + chocolate protein bars instead of the usual plain chocolate it’s kind of great it’s like a snickers bar or something i’m very satisfied

i have acquired chocolate powder so i can make some of my breakfasts/snacks/desserts chocolate flavored, i only get unflavored protein powder so everything i make is really just yogurt flavored 🧍‍♀️sometimes fruit flavored, and i got chia seeds so i can shit and cottage cheese for nothing in particular maybe just to have on toast and stuff 😁

i’ve been loving making food lately i feel like i’ve become a lot more interested in food since i started being so conscious of it. this is partly bad because much of it is fear and anxiety, partly bad because of constant food noise, but partly good because im more interested in nutrition and finding new recipes that work with my goals and restrictions. i’ve also always been a bit interested in cooking and baking anyway and being home and having lots of free time means i can exercise that. even though it can be so incredibly frustrating i almost cried making these stupid calzones and i almost lost my shit making my sourdough. but in the end there is a feeling of accomplishment i guess. this week i’ve made sourdough and this smoothie bowl and these calzones (made 2 for me and my mom) and now im gonna make some chocolate chia pudding for my breakfast tomorrow and i might just have a sandwich with my sourdough for lunch bc i have work later in the day

ANYWAY i got so sidetracked

1164 cals, 109g of protein

rlly good leg day at the gym, 1.6k steps lol 🥴

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there was a hip thrust machine this whole time i’ve been struggling for what

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wieiad 6/24

breakfast was a light smoothie bc i knew i would go out to eat later but the smoothie cubes tasted weird as fuck and i didn’t finish it tbh

went to our favorite indian restaurant with my mom it was busssssssssssss i didn’t eat all the rice but went down on that lamb and the dessert, rough calorie estimates i obviously don’t know for sure

had a cup of green tea at home and added some honey but also didn’t finish it i basically never finish my tea i should just stop making it but whatever

1592 cals, 80g protein

went to the gym, 3k steps

i don’t feel bad for going over my limit tbh because i was so hungry after the gym and even after that shitty smoothie that i didn’t feel overly full after our meal + it was so delicious + i went to the gym so idk it cancels out + still a slight deficit

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i really don’t have much to motivate me because i don’t want to reward myself with food (although at this point maybe i should it wouldn’t even be that bad) but i also don’t want to spend money on other things like clothes etc bc im saving but there’s really nothing else that i restrict in my day to day life that could be a reward for my discipline except i just remembered weed. which i haven’t smoked in a while bc i got paranoid about my tolerance but maybe if i can keep to 1300 and post everyday this week i will…. i don’t even know what tbh maybe get high as shit at work again? something like that i’ll figure it out but i just want something to force me but there ISNT ANYTHINGGGG and there’s no one in my life that i can be honest about my goals to do they can hold me accountable and there’s nothing strong enough to motivate me im just the most nonchalant person in the world i suppose

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consuming way over my limit and punishing myself at the gym until my net is back down is my least favorite hobby

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i’m so terrible at sticking to my plans and my restrictions and my guidelines and it’s so much worse than i even write on this blog bc when i fail i just don’t document it all and in the end im only lying to myself bc this blog is solely for me to track my own progress and keep myself in check and im obviously failing at that

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wieiad 6/23

back to doing this bc i’ve been slacking but it’s a new week so im gonna try to post for 7 days straight for accountability and discipline 💯💯

should have had a better breakfast but i wasn’t hungry after eating so much yesterday and didn’t know what to eat so just a protein bar

made sourdough for the first time……. it’s very average

protein mug cake w a hershey’s kiss in the middle and some peanut butter on top it was good

i need to stop eating peanut butter i feel like it’s a big binge food for me but i didn’t eat a lot of fat today otherwise so it’s kind of ok

no gym and i don’t think im gonna go on a walk… yesterday i only had a short bike ride and swam for a while and today basically no exercise bc the heat wave is killing me but this is bum behavior the heat won’t stop me next time (although the rain might)

1212 cals, 81g protein

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Google doc with tips, tricks, and the science behind WL

Link

Chat, I’ve finally finished it, the doc with everything I’ve researched is somewhat complete, all the sciency bits with how to actually do WL and what helps and such are done and ready for reading. Enjoy, hope you learned something, and pls do share, and such I spent a lot of time on it :)

edit 2: I have updated the doc and am taking a little work break from it, I will update more tomorrow, poor later today if I have motivation. patch notes: how to not binge, protein why it's so important, cardio, and ana tips.

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also i think i’m gonna try shots of apple cider vinegar in the morning for bloating but im gonna need to buy us a new bottle bc there’s probably only 2 shots left in there 😔

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bro i feel awful 😭 tmr my limit should be like 900-1000 cals

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1600 calories 😔😔😔 sighh

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it’s ok bc it’s some good fiber and even though it’s high carbs it will give me energy 🎉✊✨😲 and i’ve either already burned it off on the stairmaster or will burn it off after walking so much at work

the post cardio hunger got me without even realizing damnn i just ate so many dates

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my meal plan is literally perfect 100g of protein i just have to make it happen ✨

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anyway i have to resolve not to eat anything at work FOR REAL THIS TIME i literally say this every single time and fail but i swear im better than this i know what all that food tastes like i don’t need ittttt im gonna have my yummy yogurt bowl when i get home

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tbh i’ve basically resolved to reach my fitness goals healthily at this point… maybe the disorder part of this is receding… although the disordered thoughts are still kind of there i might really be normal again soon