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The most valuable chart…

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27th March 2017

I'm not articulate enough to write anything of worth. But. I think I might be slightly damaged. I have these moments where I just shutdown, I can't stop crying, I can barely breathe. I just want to be held, stroked, told that it's all going to be okay. It's going to be okay. It will be okay. I don't even know why, I don't know why I feel as if it won't be okay. This crushing weight of a depression, where I just want to sit and cry loudly and be sad. Be allowed to feel sad. Just these moments where I feel such pressure; of everything, from so many people. I just want to be held, not in a romantic way. I don't think I can even allow myself to be held in that way. I want to be held and feel that person's care for me, I don't have to do anything. Just to cry and know that that's completely okay and I'm allowed to do that. I feel my own unhappiness being overshadowed by those more unhappy and more worthy of reason to be unhappy. Sometimes the pressure I feel from others and from myself is too much to bear.

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Someday you will look back at all the progress you’ve made and be so glad you didn’t give up when you felt like that was your only option.

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my personal favorite vines compilation i tried to keep it short RIP

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oh my…

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I realise, that I have such a good life. One of the best in the world. I am so so so very lucky. But I feel so shit. I hurt. I don't know if this is some, I've been given everything on a plate so when I don't get what I want I just respond by throwing my toys out of the pram. I have no proper friends when I leave home. My friend fucking died a few months ago. I want to get high all the fucking time these days. And I'm being too emotional about everything. Paddy can fuck off, it's not really him to be fair to him, for one thing in the grand scheme I barely fucking know the guy; I can probably count the amount of times I've met him on one hand. I just feel hurt and shit. Please get me out of this rut. Please god please. I know I'm so lucky. I feel shit just asking.

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Paddy, I do really really like you. I think right now in this moment I could be happy with you. But you are a shit. You treat me like a fucking dog. I am not at your beck and call anymore. I think it is time, this came to its end. Clearly you don't think highly of me. Everything is done on your terms, all the time. I really liked you but maybe it was just the idea of you.

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Jamie’s face says all

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you deserve someone who isn’t embarrassed to love you & tells all their friends about u & saves your selfies, & tells u they love & miss you

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